Clee Hill: Blog

The good part is I finished rewriting Book 1 and am much happier with how things work.

I think I might need a few days off as I'm feeling a little burned out because, obsessive as I am, I did the whole thing in 10 days. That's 250k words. Ah.

The less good part is Book 2 is going to need a lot of work, bringing in the antagonist, changing minor characters, and removing a main character. It's also 450k words. Oh.

As for Book 3 where it ends, all I have at the moment are scenes or fragments of chapters where I was basically telling myself what is going to happen. I know how the story ends for my protagonists, but want to add a little more of a threat to them so it is more than a simple walkthrough to the end credits. No idea how many words that might take. Hmm.

So, yes I'm writing again, but Lord do I have a lot more writing to do before I want to start posting. At the very least I want a full draft for Book 3, maybe a second draft (I aim for 3, with the last being a proofreading).

Or.

Instead of driving myself insane editing such a colossus, I skim through to arrange a calandar of what happens with whom and when -- and start over, fresh page, and see how that looks. Hmm. It may be time to crack out the old notes and see how doable that still is.

Ho Hum,

Clee

...you go back to something from a few years ago with an idea how to make it better, and find it is almost physically painful as you cut a main character out of a story.

...how you had conflated what you had published with what you had written, meaning most of what I was thinking was already in the published story is not.

...when you look how much first draft continuation you wrote back then and see it was a lot.

...when new characters and situations keep you awake as you imagine them through.

Don't go holding your breath, but we'll see. At least I ain't dead.

Cheers,
Clee

A brief update for those who might be interested, but for the time being and for the foreseeable ongoing future, the writing is stopped. Between real life getting in the way too often and too dramatically, I just can't get into the right headspace to continue at this time. I'm doing okay in terms of 'as good as can be, given the circumstances', and it's not Covid or anything like that, it's just that, for now, writing is not consuming me as it used to, and I just don't want to half-arse anything for the sake of it. I can't imagine I'll be gone forever, but it will be a while, and 'Redux' might not be continued, possibly even deleted, as it really isn't the vision of Luke et al that I wanted.

Take your vaccines,
Clee

For those waiting patiently for more of Luke, Stef, and Leri, this is a quick update to confirm a couple of things.

The first is, patently, I'm still alive, a combination of avoiding people and places as much as possible, and being 'blessed' by layers of government who lock us down pretty much permanently. Given the actions of certain heedless individuals, that's fine with me. Unfortunately this isn't greatly helping me to get my head back to the place it should be.

Secondly, ongoing issues in RL - a stalker is not fun - make it hard to concentrate on fluff when you never know when the next intrusion into your life will be.

So, the hope is that I can get back into it next year. Even if it's just proofing and editing I've plenty of that to be getting on with, but a clear head and the space to work are not as easily obtained as they should be.

In the meantime I'll probably re-read My Girls 1, 2, and 3 again soon. I like having the girls playing in my subconscious. They also prove to me, along with my own writing processes, that erotic literature can have value.

Clee

As I've recently had a couple of messages asking if I am okay, the answer is 'yes', I am okay, all safe, busy with dogs, life, and avoiding the apocalypse.

Luke, Stef, Leri, et al remain in my thoughts, but I know my head just isn't where it should be, and I really don't want to screw this up for the sake of publishing something/anything.

So I still think and plan and sketch, and the Greyshough will pick up, but not until I'm ready to do it as I know once I do, obsession will take over and I don't have that energy at this time.

Meanwhile, stay safe folks.

Clee