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I have a plan to put proper endings on all my stories - girl scouts, kuttiyan, halloween, aunt scarlet and of course "the best story that I ever read".
I've just been focused lately on some other projects including AI music channel. I am an old man and I love to jam ut I can carry a tune the way that I can carry 200 pounds on my back (not at all).
So AI allows me to transform what is in my head to your ears.
Having said that, I need some feedback. Most stories about Female led relationships paint the women as cruel sex fiends who want to fuck anyone but their husbands. They often include blackmail or hypnosis because many men need to believe that normal men would never choose to be submissive and place their partner on a pedastal.
No lasting FLR could work that way. Most FLR in real life that I've encountered were the man's idea. Submission is not weakness or a mental illness. It's difficult for me as a non-vegan to imagine someone who won't eat delicious bacon. It might be difficult for a vegan to imagine someone who would.
The same is true for naturaly dominant people. They have a hard time believing someone would get off pleasing someone else. I knew a true submissive (IMHO) who fantasized about waking up everyday knowing what she was expected to do. She saw choices not as a plus but a bit of a chore.
She didn't want to decide what was for dinner or where we go to eat. She'd rather go some place that make sme happy, safe in the knowledge that Id choose some place she'd probably like.
What seems like a priveledge to me (choice) can seem like a chore or obligation to her.
I say all this because for a while I thought I'd do something that I've never seen before - write a Female Led Relationship story that is not a clusterfuck of dsyfunctional co-dependency.
Femdom and Female Led Relationships are not necesarily synonyms. Cuckold rleationships may a flavor of FLR, but usually they are not as they are portrayed in stories.
The woman delighting in control over her husband's orgasms still usually wants him to have them. She just wants him to want them badly instead of taking them for granted.
She's not trying to erase who he is. She's trying to polish him to be the man that she wants him to be.
Just like being gay isn't a choice, being submissive is a part of who some people are and they like it.
Just like a gay couple can walk around in public without wearing "Gay" rainbow t-shirts and acting like catty stereotypes who flaunt their sexuality, they may also not be ashamed of being gay. The stigma is real. That may not stop them from being authentically who they are and in love, just that they may be tone down their behavior the same way a straight couple doesn't have to flaunt their sexuality in public.,
It's that way in an FLR. The man can be polite and defer, he can open doors, and put his wife on a pedastel as he dotes over her without losing or behaving as he would behind closed doors.
In most FLRs, it may have a little flavor of something else, but essentially whatever you think the men would traditionally do, the woman does, and the men take care of things that women traditionally do. My test for an authentic FLR would be "Could you swap out the story with a man as the ehad of household and it still work the same?" = yes is the goal.
In the stories, the women are cruel for no real reason. If you were to swap out a man as head of the household in most cuckold stories, you'd probably say he was a narcisstic asshole that took his submissive for granted.
So, what if I wrote what I believe is a loving family that just happens to believe that the women of the family need to be placed on a pedastal, empowered, not spoken over or patronized? What if they didn't see service as a negative or a punishment but just as there was "Women's work" in 1950s mental hygene films that said men needed leisure time but girls should focus on learning new skills and crafting.
I don't have a title yet, other than the working title - FLR Vacation. I imagined what it would be like for a FLR couple to go on vacation.. The head of household invites her sister and their family along beause she is considering a FLR.
In the course of the story, I keep it softcore. it's not over the top hanging them by their balls. There can be twists and turns that keep you interested in an ENM/CFNM way but its a loving family taht has harmony.
In a 50/50 relationship, it's actually hard to get what you want. You almost always end up comprimising. In an 80/20, as long as you know the bills are paid, funds are managed and you trust your partner to make good choices for you - what if not everything needs to be an argument?
Would that interest anyone> or would you rather a story about two giant blonde girls that dominate their cousin and tease him? That was my other idea. The last time Troy saw his cousins they were short and fat, pudgy little fuckers. They have gigantism and they seem like adult porn stars because they have huge tits and ass, and their hormones are going wild. I could give some thought to more of that.
Let me preface this by saying that I am not encouraging you to leave this site. You may love it.
I have written over 70 stories on this site, most of which are complete. I enjoy writing long stories with hundreds of thousands of words. I don't usually enjoy short stories because just when I fall in love with a character, they end it.
I like to see the complete journey and follow the mistakes, tribulations and evolution of a character as the story unfolds.
My kinks are not the mainstream. I primarily enjoy ENF/CMNF (embarassed reluctant nude female) type stories. I don't like to limit my kinks.
My stories aren't about kinks. The characters in the stories may be kinky and do kinky things, but the stories are about the people and predicaments they get into.
I enjoy stories with role reversal (authority gets turnabout), or power exchange or a bit of both.
However, I'll read a lot of engaging stories that I would never write.
I am not a picky eater. I do not have a list of taboo kinks either, so I am not a fussy eater who insists their peas never touches their carrots.
I can handle just about anything up to abuse, rape, etc. I don't enjoy stories about misery without a silver lining and I don't enjoy stories where the main character instantly wins and never has to try.
They need to be relatable. They need to be plausible on some level. I can get into a nude in school story even if it wouldn't work in our current uptight world.
It can still be with charaters I recognize in situations I can imagine.
When it gets into demons, futanari, yakatori, magic dinosuars, and beast slayers or wahtever - that's when I check the fuck out.
I've never begrudged anyone who likes those stories.
Yet, now that seems like as I scan the updated and new stories to be all there is.
I started writing in part because I thought if I wrote the sort of stories I enjoy reading, then other people would write some too.
I don't think it worked all that much, but I did manage to inspire one or two writers that exceeded my ability.
It feels like a losing battle now. It feels like I write and nobody could give a shit about it. It feels like this site is a place I do not recognize with stories focused on young adult fiction and Mary Sue soap operas.
I changed the title of this blog to "I drank all the ink, and the well went dry" because I've been here well over 12 years.
I've followed the update and new stories page very regularly. The site updates in cycles and over summer break and Christmas, you tend to see a lot of young adult type stuff.
I am used to droughts. What I am seeing now is the well running dry.
There were a few notable exceptions but today in particular has me depressed. It's like fishing and only pulling back turds everytime I cast my line.
You can keep casting but you might be fishing in the wrong hole.
It's just different now. I have gone through every category that I enjoy and sorted by biggest story first. I've sorted by most recent first. I've drank all the ink that was on their pages.
I've read EVERY Vulgus story at least four times each, some twenty or thirty times. (They are THAT good).
I got to come up in the time of Vulgus, Amanda Serve, Phil Phantom, and similar authors that were writing filthy predicament stories that delighted me.
I can handle that you don't get writers like that all the time. I am finding that the culture/site just changed.
Is it AI? or is it that the focus and tastes of the site have just left me behind?
Stories about beast slayers and magic and dinosaur worlds, havealways been on this site but it seems like that's all there is.
They've always been here, but it seems like it's just getting so much more distilled that it's all there is
Most of it feels written by AI.
It's kind of like the enshitification of television. There was a time when television shows like Friday night lights took risk and told stories.
Now, I don't even know what's on television because I gave up trying to navigate the myriad of streaming services to figure out which Kardashian's butt is bigger.
Creativity is no longer of value. Reality TV shows have never really been about reality but it's just not my bag. Mindless corny sitcoms have always existed but it feels like they won.
On this site the preponderance of stories about dragons and dinosaurs and magic hold very little interest to me because I can't relate to any of that. I enjoy fantasy stories like Star Trek and the Lord of the rings but for sexual situations I like to read about what I know.
Today, it just really hit home as I scanned story after story about beast slayers and dragons and magic and dinosaurs, and saw nothing about titties and ass in the real world.
I wondered if I had accidentally set my filters to g-rated.
There are a few soap opera style stories written on this page about people with fifty shades of Gray style lives. I'm from trailer parks and middle of america. I could go for a story set in England if it's Runcorn but not Hogwarts.
Clearly other people are really into those fantasy stories and I don't begrudge them their interest. I just can't say honestly that I have found anything recently that grabs me.
I have the privilege of being one of the reviewers on here and I haven't reviewed anything in a long time because I don't have anything I feel is worth reviewing.
I could be wrong about this but something has really changed. It wasn't overnight but it's finally hit me as I scroll three to four pages in updated or new and see that there's not one story that I would click on.
I've been increasingly stopped writing out of lack of inspiration.
I made a deal with myself when I started writing that I would read at least 50% of what I wrote. That would keep me sharp and inspired. It isn't that I planned to copy anybody's ideas.
It's that, as I write, I wanted to avoid becoming stale and constantly improve my technique through reading good authors.
Not only do I have difficulty finding a good story to sink my teeth into, but it seems like people just aren't really interested in classic Vulgus style ENF/predicament bondage, power exchange and tables turned role reversal, Filthy stories that i enjoy
I can say that it was never perfect but it used to be that I could find stories that appeal to me on a pretty regular basis.
The soap opera style stories where it's just a lot of melodramatic conversation have always gotten a far bigger population of readers and engagement then my niche.
It's hard to even quantify a soap opera story without calling out a specific example, and I don't want to denigrate anybody's story style. All I can say is that they generally move endlessly through conversation and sex.
The delicious scenarios that I enjoy are few and far between on this site.
I have about four or five stories that I probably need to finish, and then I should retire from creating new ones. I may take down a few that I no longe intend to complete.
I think, in terms of my passion, it's time to either find a new one or hang it up. It isn't just AI, it's that if you look at the most recent stories, it's almost like in a young adult book section.
The people who grew up with Percy Jackson and Harry Potter movies are writing the thing that they know about alien worlds and magic and Im a relic from a different genre.
I had a friend on here who writes stories about impossible scenarios where all the women are constantly horny and they chase after his main characters magic dick. No women behave like actual women. He writes them like they are men with tits.
Those are extremely popular.
Tears record stories that begin with crippling anxiety and abuse but never actually address any of it, where the shy guy gets pursued by every women he meets are nothing new for this site either. I used to call them Mary Suestories. I think people start recognizing that term and harem stories became the norm.
The main character who never has to try and never has any risk and never has to learn from a mistake and never has a real jeapordy, has become so mainstream that if they made Indiana Jones today he would just walk into the temple of dick and get laid/be handed the idol.
My characters get beat up, knocked down and overcome. My characters get put into the fire so they can feel some heat before they get forged into something else. Written a few like Twatmas and some babysitter stories where he got handed everything but I enjoyed the predicament of the other characters.
It's a bit like country music. There's a couple Jamey Johnson's and Luke Combs, but it's mostly album oriented Rock ballads with Southern accents and rap now. Time for me to stop listening or make my own.
Look no further than recent movies what's the big one coming out? He-Man?
That's for grown ups?
Btw, I mentioned "Beast Slayer" in particular a few times i n this blog. I do not meant to denigrate the author. that is just an example of one that made it apparrent that the readers and authors changed. I did click "Exclude" and frequently do on authors who write stuff I do not enjoy.
It was just a great example to illustrate my point. If you like that stuff, by all means enjoy it.
So, what have I been doing these past few weeks?
I haven't been updating my stories, and I apologize for that. If I have left you hanging, I totally understand and apologize for the frustration.
I have been dealing with 12 hour workdays, long commutes, and on top of it the threat of layoffs that take the joy out of life. It tends to darken my stories.
I started making AI music a few weeks ago. It's mostly Pinoy themed Jrock and Country ballads, withs some Irish rebel songs and sweet soul gospel planned. I have the songs created, it's the videos that take the longest.
https://www.youtube.com/@DoctorVelon
This is my page.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TewN2ZmJ7Lc
When I first began, you'll see that my original intention was just to have a little eye candy while you listen to the music. Most people just put a single image or some pulsing beats and call it a day. I began with a single Filipino lad with a beat up white guitar. He morphed into "Panday" (Which means Smith) because he creates and forges metal (Jrock Ballads).
I found a host of these amazing skate punk pages all from Philippines. They take these old songs like Lionel Richie's Endless Love or Peabo Bryson's "If ever your in my arms again" and rock the fuck out of them. I think even the orginal artists would say "Well, damn....thank you. I am flattered."
Fast driving bass and drums, precision guitars, high tenor singer that just sings his motherfucking ass off. My first videos aren't much to watch but when I got to Raspberry Beret I went all out. I gave him a storekeeper (That is played by his father) and a girlfriend. It was at that point, Doc (my alter ego) and Pulani (AKA Lil Red) was created.
One thing I like about AI music is it allows someone like me who has literally no musical ability or tools to finally make the songs I've heard in my head for years.
It also brings the artists and lyrics to a new audience that may never have listened before. I do not like covers that sound like the original. I always say you can't out Steve Perry, Steve Perry. He's the original motherfucker and one of the greatest vocalists of all time. If you are going to cover one of his songs then do it differently. Don't try to BE Steve Perry.
Granted, the current front man (also Pinoy) Arnel Pineda is amazing but he is just copying, not creating. He has one of the rarest gifts on the planet to sound LIKE someone else but at best he can make you feel like you are listening to Steve singing live.
You can't outsing Freddy Mercury, out Charisma Elvis or David Lee Roth, so don't try to do them doing their thing. If you are going to make music like them, do it with something new in a different way.
Naturally, I like Country and I wanted something between Dave Fenley and Jamey Johnson. It took a while of listening to the lyrics but I found that Jamey Johnson has grit and smoke in his voice only when he wants it. He has enough control to be smooth when he doesn't and that's not an easy thing to script.
As Doc took shape in my mind, I imagined he used to be a session musician and eventually joined a band called "HOTDOG" (Which, believe it or not was the hottest band in Philippines and defined the genre called "The Manilla Sound"). I gave him a wife and at first it was just to do one video.
I was making "The Black Parade" by Chemical Romance. It's an amazing song but I thought it was just about his father passing away and asking him if he will be ready to defend the broken and the beaten. There is one line "Sometimes I think she is watching over me" that made me wonder - who is she?
So, I gave him a mother named Lilah. A wife that Doc doted on and then I began to make country songs that played on that bittersweet loss. As an example, If you listen to Bertie Higgins Key Largo, it seems like the definition of Yacht Rock. When he sings it as he looks back on his life and asks "Didn't we almost have it all" it takes on a new meaning to me.
https://youtu.be/HG-Z-l49KJ8
I wrote to Bertie on Youtube (yes, he is still alive) and told him that if I ever get monetized (fat chance) then the money from that video would be donated to a charity of his choosing. I am not making this for money, just like I do not write to make money. I write to share and inspire. I want others to create and I always think that maybe if they see an old perverted fart like me can do it - they can do it.
I've been getting better and better with my videos. Editing fast cuts without confusing or aggravating the viewer is an art form. The holy grail is lip synching. You can pay a shit-ton of money or do it a few seconds at a time. I am still relatively infantile with it but here is my latest;
https://youtu.be/TewN2ZmJ7Lc
It's Tenacious D's "Fuck Her Gently" cover in Jrock (PH) style. This is my first explicit video. Well, not entirely true. At first, i made videos with my own likeness that were very saucy but I took those down. This one is Panday's girlfriend Pulani doing what she does. She's a bit much.
It took a lot longer than I thought to create.
conversely, this one (is the country version)
https://youtu.be/9PZhnntldQw
It's not quite as explicit in terms of video, it's just an old man that looks a fuck-ton lot like me. He's singing and having a good time.
You should too. Life is too short to work 12 hour days with 2 hour commutes, and still have nothing while getting offered jobs that paid what you made 10 years ago (but can no longer cover the cost of living).
I will never forget the immortal Ross Perot once saying with a straight face "I'll play footnotes on a shoe horn for ya, all day".
I can't carry a tune, I have no idea what a G-chord is. I do however have a life long love of music up until about 1994.
I used to work in radio and nightclubs (strip clubs). I guess it's like fashion.
My dad stopped wearing new clothes around the time he was my age now. He just wore the same old style from decades before. He listened to "Oldies" when they were what I would consider oldies. (Fifties/Motown).
Now, the "Oldies" station plays god-damned Depeche Mode, and shit I grew up with. I've often railed against the destruction of this site due to AI slop pouring in. I have a fellow author who placed THREE em-dashes in the same sentence. I am starting to think people are just writing in the shit way that AI writes because they read so much slop.
As much as I hate AI, I also love making AI images to include in my stories. They add a fun element. I love placing myself somewhere in the background as an easter egg (or even as a background character). I am usually some perverted asshole (like in real life), but a little different slant on me.
I've been digging AI music for a while. It's better than most songs out today. I couldn't tell a Dua Lippa from a Pussy Lippa. I have no fucking clue about modern music. I can tell you Anita Ward sang Ring My Bell, and the Five Stairsteps sang O-O-H Child. I can tell you every hit from the 1980s Top 40 and rock charts within a few notes. I just can't get into new music.
AI Music on Youtube blew my mind. I heard a rendition of "The Black Parade" (originally by My Chemical Romance). It was sung with a raspy Sam Cooke voice that's as rough as it is smooth, and impossible to imitate. You have to earn that voice with a lifetime of practice and the luck of being born with it. The voice cracked in the middle of a belted out lyric about his father passing away and charging him with carrying on after he was gone. Fuck!
I thought there was no way anyone such as me could ever approach that genius.I am still convinced he didn't come upon that song with a simple prompt. There are a ton of tools to sweeten and edit songs. I finally decided to take the plunge and make a few songs.
My favorite music is covers of the unusual. I heard a Glam Metal version of "Busta a move" by Young MC that blew my mind. I heard a rock version of "I'd like to teach the world to sing". That's a song that you only have to hear ONCE and you'll never forget it. I love the unusual covers of songs in a completely different genre because they don't try to do just a poor imitation of the original artst.
You can't fucking "Out Prince" Prince. If you want to copy someone like him or Freddy Mercury, the best you can do is "Yeah, you are almost as good."
If you are going to perform anything by Steve Perry, and you try to sing like him? Fuck off. You already lost. There are some people who can sound almost like him but you aren't him.
I've heard some incredible country versions of Faithfully and Don't Stop Believing that the singer made their own. That is what I wanted to do. I wanted to take what I hear in my head, and use a tool that was previously never available to someone like me to make it real and share it with others.
I love Country. My caveat is not the shit that's on the radio now. There are exceptions, Jamey Johnson, Luke Combs people like that are the real deal. I love 1970s Jukebox country that takes me back to begging for a quarter at the Moose Lodge so I could hear something while my dad got drunk. I love old Crystal Gayle and I've heard some bad ass interpretations of "I've never been to me" by Charlene.
I love uplifting Gospel. I am not going to get into belief, not worth it. I just love how uplifting a sweet southern voice is in church on Sunday morning. The exultant joy of a hands clapping and a baritone black man singing with all of his might, backed up by a mighty choir that's just having fun up on that stage showing off that gift in their voices. I've heard a White Zombie "Dragula" sung gospel that makes the hair on the back of my neck stand up. I never sat down and listened to the lyrics of that one. I was pissed he changed his style and thought he was tryna go mainstream with it.
I love Pinoy Rock. It's usually fast, sometimes angry, dramatic, raw guitars. The interesting thing about it is that they pick some old songs to cover that I would never have imagined are jams. I think if Lionel Richie heard the cover of "Endless Love" or Peabo Bryson heard the rock cover if "if you are in my arms again", they'd smile. They'd be flattered. These songs are fast and great to drive too.
I finally took the plunge and made some songs. True by Spandau Ballet, Raspberry Beret by Prince. I was still learning, and I am happy with how they turned out. I couldn't pick one version and leave the others behind. I made about 8-10 versions and then mixed a few down. I remixed, remastered, edited, and learned a few things about getting the melody right.
Then I did a melancholy, sad, forlorn version of "Little Red Corvette" and "1999" by Prince. it's not that I am a Prince Fanatic. I could just hear them in my head as sad songs. If you listen to the words of Raspberry Beret, Prince is basically saying that the girl was a dumb bitch but she was hot as fuck. If you listen to 1999, it's about we are all gonna die some day and you may as well just dance. Little Red Corvette is about a slutty bitch that carries around used condoms.
In my videos, I decided to have a little fun with it and put videos. At first, just something to look at when you are listening. The music is the show. It still is. I am not trying to synch to the words but I had a lot of fun making the videos.
I decided to see what would happen if I did a Pinoy style ballad with the Little Red Corvette song. Let me tell you, my dick got immediately hard when I heard it. It was so special that I just couldn't believe I had made something that beautiful. I haven't felt that way since I first picked my daughter up at the hospital.
it was cathartic. I am hooked. I will still write, obviously! I have a tone of stories to edit and put proper endings on and I have a ton of new ideas that I want to explore.
But, I thought I'd share a video. You can be a troll and leave shit comments etc but please do not. Life is too shitty these days for snotty crap like that. If you are interested in what I considered a fun creative exercise - check it out.
Does it steal from musical artists? I am not interested in the debate, but the answer is "Duh, sure it does"
When hasn't the record company stole from musicians? The concert promoter? The lawyer that figured out there was a way to get around copyright laws by calling it something else when they sample a song. When hasn't the agent?
I tried to explain to someone who hadn't lived through the Napster age. There used to be a record store on every street corner and in all malls. It was huge, had Kenny Rogers and Stevie nicks painted on the side of some of them (Peaches). Then one day Napster came out and fuck if everyone didn't start sharing music. Within two years there wasn't a record store for miles. USED CD stores hung on for a little while, now you can count the used record stores on one hand within 50 miles of most places.
It transformed the industry. The AI we have now isnt good enough to give us movies on demand. In twenty years, you'll probably say "Give me Baby Got Back sung by Taylor Swift" and the AI will create it for you while you are watching a custom TV show it just wrote for you. It will still suck, and be shitty but we produced the Lord of the Rings TV show, and Star Trek Academy, so humans aren't all that much better than AI.
AI is here - people are gonna use it, and while the world isn't on fire, I am going to fucking jam. If you wanna listen, I am proud of this one.
https://youtu.be/5SI_080BHSI
and here is the same song, sung country - as country as I could make it. I actually didn't want all the extra instruments. I am still learning how to prompt in the instrumentation.
https://youtu.be/umtTz5dr-jk
Fun little videos. They are just clips and still images, not intended to be coherent story, or synched to the voices.
Yesterday, I mentioned I would do Deviant Art, but I found a slightly easier (And totally free way) to see my images.
https://e-hentai.org/g/3853909/ae31bc9a9f/
This is a huge gallery of 137 images.
All of the images from "Cousins Don't Need Modesty" plus tons more that I never selected to illustrate. Looking back on many of the ones I didn't choose to caption and upscale/use; I sort of wonder why I didn't pick them.
https://storiesonline.net/n/44065/cousins-don-t-need-modesty
Is set in an alternate world, where things never really evolved from the 1970s when I was growing up. They didn't think girls needed bras until they had big enough tits to warrant them. My cousins and I did actually go to the beach and no one gave a shit that we had to take our suits off to wash off at the beach. You might be sent outside to play in your underwear in the sprinklers and girls would go in just panties. As I got older, obviously that stopped happening and culture shifted. This is sort of like if Handmaid's tale had ENF/CMNF scenes in it, and wasn't terrifying/somber.
Girl Scouts and Spanksgiving are set the "Girls Don't Need Modesty" universe. I also just whipped a bunch of images to test things out/make them. It's mostly a blonde and brunette much like Betty and Veronica. I really leaned into that art style for Cousins Don't Need Modesty. Don't ask me why, I just felt like it.
Those comics had a sort of "normal" sexiness to them in this perfect 1960s type world, where everyone in high school was at least 40 years old, apparently.
Dalton gets a job babysitting his cheeky British cousins, who just happen to be named Betty and Veronica. The mum says "My ex-husband was the joker..not me..."
as to why the names were chosen.
It involves some light spanking and humiliation, nothing too wild.
I also loaded up another gallery with Indian Erotica. A few were already published. I almost finished chapter two of Slumdog Kuttiyan
https://upload.e-hentai.org/managegallery?gid=3850526
Here is the gallery
https://storiesonline.net/n/45794/slumdog-kuttiyan/1
Here is chapter one if you want to give it a read.
I plan to complete some stories. This is just a short story as I was deeply inspired recently to write it.
I have in progress. I did have a good idea for a "Young Wife" story inspired by the writer Rebecca Shaw that I think would be really fun. I may try to sneak that in as well. I also saw a shit-ton of sexy Cosplay families at Megacon. I am a people watcher and sometimes when you see a mom and her two hot daughters all dressed as slave Leia with dad and brother leading them as Han Solo and Han junior, you think "Wow, I bet there is a story in there somewhere"
I kind of assumed a lost bet.
Actually, I hoped.
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