Anne N. Mouse: Blog

Why?
I want to know, why, do we (or I at least) define a relationship by what I find distasteful? Then I wandered what I would consider a good relationship? Really for the most part I'm a little log in the tooth for pure passion, the sort of I can see nothing but my next O passion that many people seem to think makes for a relationship.
I want a friend, and to a degree, I have several acquaintances here who are working their way toward becoming good friends. But I do worry that I have mislead people with what I am and am not… Still, for my age, I'm pretty enthusiastically bisexual. Just not into physical pain or bondage. Neither giving nor receiving pain is erotic to me.
I'm enthusiastically oral too… I find both felatio and cunnilingus to be erotic activities that I get into greatly… I like to kiss, both women and men… and I'd like to find someone to share the rest of my life with at times, but sometimes, as with the job hunt, I find the idea of reaching out to new people to be so daunting that I simply avoid it!
Still… I hope I am clear to at least one person today with my blog…

Why is that so hard to answer? I am uncertain, yet it is something that I ought to start to answer.
First, I'm not into pain of any sort.
Nor, as my blog here has noted, am I into bodily functions generally. Shit happens, it isn't something to play with! The same with piss.
Oral and anal sex with care are both on my menu of course, and I'm looking for someone who won't browbeat me or belittle me...
Will I move? Maybe. The internet is an interesting place...
The world is your market place, yet that cute girl in the pic? She could be a 600lb landwhale in reality.
The one you imagine here? Some dirty perv who wears a goatee to his navel...
Well you get the idea right. Things done on the net are open to massive fraud, which has made me even more paranoid than usual.

I know that I suffer a lot from cowardice. Why do I know this? Because I am afraid to attempt suicide. Not because I think I'd succeed but because if things in that attempt went like everything else in my life I'd not succeed and only end up a quadriplegic...
Sorry for the drama.

I'm leaving you all a going away present. A Study in Black and White, I hope you remember me well.
It's been fun, but the party is over.
TJ

I shall be moving to a place where I shan't have access to the internet for quite a while if my plans work according to what I want. If they don't work according to what I want, I may never have access to the internet again.
Take care all,
I've loved the time I've spent writing and sharing my pitiful meanderings here. But all good things must apparently come to an end, and I've reached the end of my rope in some ways and see no way except to go to ground and hope for the best. But that means minimal or no access to the net until things start to look up. Hopefully this move will result in lots of work which will allow me to put aside some money to tide me over rough times again.
That's all for now,
TJ