Anne N. Mouse: Blog

When I write fiction, well really anything, I often wonder if I've missed catching the audience's attention. Sometimes I get feedback, like on some of the stuff I've posted lately has gotten the reaction: What the heck was this? Some of it was experimental, some of it got a different reaction. I got some seriously low scores, yet got feedback from some who liked the same story.
I'm not worried about whether or not people liked the 'subject' so much as whether those who would read get to the first thousand words (heh! a good reason for writing flash, vignettes, and drabbles!) and give up because they feel they might as well be reading a badly done instruction manual...
Now where was I going with this?
Oh yeah, do I ever write stuff that leaves my audience thinking: Ghadddd that is drier than the Sahara in the middle of summer?
Have a good day,
TJ

I think that pretty much describes me these days. After all here I am trying to learn a little, or more than a little about coding and finding the going rough. Why? I'm fighting a whole flock of internal fears that have beset me and caused me to slow to a stop in essence.
One is spending money on anything at this point. After all if I don't do well it would be just that much more good money (which I have very little of) after bad. And I don't have to be anything except a technical nincompoop to run a shovel. That is a pretty low tech piece of equipment. Of course I'm getting long in the tooth and not picking up those jobs (not that I really seemed to pick them up with regularity anyway) any longer, so I'm pretty much facing life of starvation on the mean streets that only want to see me dead if my estimation of the way life looks is correct.
Bah I shouldn't be so depressive. Tell that to someone else. The only thing that keeps me from the codine bottle is the fear that I would only get half way to dead.

The rain was not quite driving for most of the day today. Indeed for part of the day the rain was more like a steady, easy drizzle. Still I was cold and wet while moving leaves with a cyclonic back pack blower.
I'm enjoying being out and about seeing the beauty of Northern CA and noticing that Lake Shasta is about 4-6 feet (estimated by me) from crest. This rain, depending on how widespread it is may actually push the state into using the emergency spillway... Yipe! I live down stream from that!

Yep, I was out running the old string trimmer once more and wandered into a patch of Ye olde Burning Oak! OUCH I itch. I need to hit the shower shortly. I know what the stuff looks like I really do, but when it is on the edge or in the middle of the path of where I need to run the trimmer... Well pretty soon I'm bathed in flying bits of it. If I see it and it is on the edge I'll narrow the path... Somewhat anyway. But where I'm out prepping campsites so that all the people from the 'gaybay' can come up here and enjoy the 'wilderness' there are times when the only option is to crank the string trimmer up to high and let the bits and pieces hit where they may.
I'm not terribly allergic and it is fairly cool here today so at least my pores didn't open up too badly... And as I told someone else recently, I like running weed whackers. Put in a pair of earplugs and crank that thing up to Bear-b-gone level and make the 'wilderness' look pretty...
That campsite where the blackberry thicket looks like it wants to maybe creep back into the site? Today it was flying chunks and bits of blackberry. The reason you don't get poison oak on you unless you're allergic or Fido chases a SQUIRREL! into the higher brush that looks so inviting is that I was out there making sure it was cut back...
Have a nice camping trip!

I know that Laz doesn't like us (for good reason) to put sites in our blog, whether our own off-site blog or something that we've discovered... Still I just remembered that I've an account at Kahn Academy. I'll only say this, that so far as I've been able to discover this site is entirely free, and one of the better sites for learning anything you want to learn. And frankly I want to learn something, anything that can move me from working part time running a string trimmer. Not mind that I dislike the string trimmer. But part time? That isn't working for me. I'm going to be homeless if I don't change something, and it seems that running a string trimmer is about the extent of what I can get for work currently.