Anne N. Mouse: Blog

I found the website ream for authors of fiction. Now I don't necessarily want to publish elsewhere as I'm pretty satisfied here as I can publish and get feedback on some pretty outre stuff. Granted BB is still watching here, and while I tend to not be entirely disestablishmentarian I am hesitant to say that all of their restrictions on what can be published make sense at all... Let alone that they protect the children. I could say more about what I think of that but I'll let C. S. Lewis on the worst sort of tyranny be where I stand as well.
I don't know how everyone here who publishes through bookappy (or whatever the site publisher for pay is...) is doing so far as marketing and reaching other markets. I hope I'm not stepping on toes but being single source is dangerous long term.

Just out of curiosity I put in a prompt on google search to write a report on Cassimir Pulaski, hero of the American revolution and arguably the founder of the US cavalry.

While everything reported is factual to my knowledge, the way the info is worded is definitely still off to me. Maybe it would be acceptable as a report for school, but if it passed my desk as a proofreader I'd say try harder....

I'm not particularly afraid of talking to crowds. But dealing with individual people sends me into a panic attack. I've listened to and made sure to erase the only two recordings of my voice that I'm aware of because I don't like my speaking voice. So I have a strange hesitance to attempt a podcast. Not that I'm well enough organized to do any sort of podcast. Conveying information in a coherent fashion obviously isn't my strong suite. And now it has been more than five years since I have posted any fiction because I don't want to do anything that isn't perfect... Nor do I want to start posting anything that I don't consider properly finished. And the weakest part of my writing is endings... Yet it is something I don't even know how to practice.

So I passed a story to a compatriot here and he kindly gave me some very good pointers.
Thus what is the problem?
I feel like the story struggles to even be two dimensional.
Maybe I'm too self-crirical? IDK? But I'm definitely having morecthan second thoughts about letting another badly constructed abd finished story out there.
Then there are my five or six horrifyingly flat, not frightening attempts to write a horror story.
How can wordsvseem compelling in my mind, but fall flat when I write them down?

I'm really trying to think of what would be a reasonable goal in overcoming at least one of my paranoias... Because, as I've often stated here, I dont have just one noid I have vast herds of noid. So, I'm doing my best to have what I will consider a complete short novel (60,000 words approximately) and put it on book appy and premium here...

Bleah! I had to wait 'til I was where I could access my lappy to edit this, because my phone loves to autocorrect everything I write... And if I don't watch carefully I can end up posting, or publishing outright nonsense.