Anne N. Mouse: Blog

This is a progress report on my participation in the annual ritual of National Novel Writing Month (or whatever exactly the title is) I had a concept somewhat started before the beginning of the month but it was maybe five hundred words until late last night when I decided to see if I can push it out to at least 60,000 words by the first of December.

Currently as of this morning I have 5800 words... No promises that it will be posted here though. I may decide to post it at the website which may not be mentioned... I shall see what progress I make today.

I found the website ream for authors of fiction. Now I don't necessarily want to publish elsewhere as I'm pretty satisfied here as I can publish and get feedback on some pretty outre stuff. Granted BB is still watching here, and while I tend to not be entirely disestablishmentarian I am hesitant to say that all of their restrictions on what can be published make sense at all... Let alone that they protect the children. I could say more about what I think of that but I'll let C. S. Lewis on the worst sort of tyranny be where I stand as well.
I don't know how everyone here who publishes through bookappy (or whatever the site publisher for pay is...) is doing so far as marketing and reaching other markets. I hope I'm not stepping on toes but being single source is dangerous long term.

Just out of curiosity I put in a prompt on google search to write a report on Cassimir Pulaski, hero of the American revolution and arguably the founder of the US cavalry.

While everything reported is factual to my knowledge, the way the info is worded is definitely still off to me. Maybe it would be acceptable as a report for school, but if it passed my desk as a proofreader I'd say try harder....

I'm not particularly afraid of talking to crowds. But dealing with individual people sends me into a panic attack. I've listened to and made sure to erase the only two recordings of my voice that I'm aware of because I don't like my speaking voice. So I have a strange hesitance to attempt a podcast. Not that I'm well enough organized to do any sort of podcast. Conveying information in a coherent fashion obviously isn't my strong suite. And now it has been more than five years since I have posted any fiction because I don't want to do anything that isn't perfect... Nor do I want to start posting anything that I don't consider properly finished. And the weakest part of my writing is endings... Yet it is something I don't even know how to practice.

So I passed a story to a compatriot here and he kindly gave me some very good pointers.
Thus what is the problem?
I feel like the story struggles to even be two dimensional.
Maybe I'm too self-crirical? IDK? But I'm definitely having morecthan second thoughts about letting another badly constructed abd finished story out there.
Then there are my five or six horrifyingly flat, not frightening attempts to write a horror story.
How can wordsvseem compelling in my mind, but fall flat when I write them down?