Chapter 4: Doctor Robert Ruark, six years earlier

Robert peeled off his surgical gloves. The operation had been a difficult one, but after 7 hours of grueling work he had succeeded in repairing the damaged heart valve. His brow was deeply furrowed as the tall, lean black man allowed thoughts of Alice to enter his mind for the first time since entering the operating room.

'What the hell is wrong with me?' He wondered. There was no denying he was profoundly in love with Alice. Of that he was sure. 'But why couldn't he perform any more?' He wondered.

His brow furrowed with concern. When they'd first met they had gone at each other like starved animals, fucking in every room of their apartment, using almost every piece of furniture, and every orifice. But now he... he couldn't get it up. And he hadn't a clue at to what was causing his impotency and the wedding was fast approaching. Worse, Alice was horny and wanted him with her every available moment, but he'd been avoiding her, pleading a heavy caseload that he wanted to alleviate before their honeymoon.

Desperate, Robert had made an appointment with Doctor Zaga, a close friend and world class psychiatrist to discuss the matter.

After listening to Robert's story Doctor Zaga leaned back in his chair and lit his pipe. When he had it going to his satisfaction he smiled kindly and said, "Robert, my friend, you probably know most of what I'm about to say. But, please bear with me for there might just be a kernel of information in what I have to say that may help resolve your problem. Now, male hormones start to decline in the mid-twenties and effects can usually be felt by age 35. Its called Andropause, it's more gradual than the menopause that women face, but it's just as devastating because it can affect the sex drive and that is what I think is at the heart of the matter."

"Yes doctor, I realize that. But you must realize that my wedding is next Saturday and while I've been stalling Alice on having sex... well, that night my charade will end. I'm desperate. I need help and I need it fast."

"Have you tried anti-aging treatment with hormone replacement therapy?"

Robert shrugged his shoulders irritably. "Actually, yes I have. I was still unable to perform."

"And this was with Alice?"

His embarrassment surfaced. "No, I used a prostitute."

"Perhaps if you'd tried it with Alice..."

"I did. I mean, I tried that too, but... well, we were necking and I felt nothing and I panicked and made some excuse and left."

There was a long pause before the doctor continued. "All right, let's go down the checklist, perhaps we'll discover something you've missed."

"Fine, let's have at it."

"Do you tire more easily? "

"No, I work out daily."

"Is it more difficult to get and stay in shape? "

"No. Lately I've increased the length of my workouts."

"Have you lost some of the zest for life (the old attack the day attitude)? "

"I'm a surgeon. I begin everyday with a brisk attitude, and I look forward to my work even more now that..."

"Are you eating the same or less and putting on weight?"

"No. I've weighed the same for the last ten years."

"Have you lost some of your mental quickness" Or, has your reaction time slowed?"

"No way!"

"When was your last erection?

"This morning when I got up to take a leak."

"I see. When was the last time a woman aroused you to full, or partial erection?"

"It was with Alice. We were... never mind, that. What happened was I lost it."

"Do you recall why?"

"I... no."

"Okay, let me continue with the essential causes of impotence. Contrary to popular belief, impotence is almost never an "all or nothing" phenomenon. Most men with erectile dysfunction have normal desire and can obtain an erection, only the erection is not hard enough. Hence the term erectile dysfunction, or partial loss is preferred to impotence which suggests a total loss."

Not many are aware that in most cases organic rather than psychological causes are responsible.

However, the trend is slowly but definitely changing. This is largely due to tremendous advances in andrological research over the past few years, which have conclusively established that in as many as 80-90 percent of cases of chronic impotence, the cause is not in the mind but in the body. These causes can be identified using modern andrological investigative modalities, quantified and often successfully treated using totally non-psychological methods."

Robert interrupted. "Yes, yes, I know all that."

"I suspect that your disorder is in that 10 -20 percent and is mental."

"So we're looking at a Freudian solution?"

"Exactly."

And so it went, until the fifth meeting when the breakthrough occurred.

The room was silent for a minute, Then Doctor Zaga, laid his pipe down in an ashtray and clasped his fingers together.

"Let's revisit your last intimacy with Alice. If you can, tell me about it. Please spare no detail. Everything may be of importance."

"Are you sure?"

"Positive. Please... go on."

"All right then. About two months ago we came back to my apartment after a party. We were both stoned. I vaguely recall turning on the stereo and almost knocking a lamp over with my dick. Oh, I don't mean to brag Doctor, it's just that..."

"Please, don't worry, go on, continue with the story."

Alice was staring at my crotch. Really! She couldn't, or wouldn't take her eyes off it. So I took a step toward her and she quickly closed the gap, put her hands on my shoulders and it seemed like an electrical current shot through me. We danced. Or I thought we were dancing. It was more like dry humping the way she was rubbing against me. Remember Doctor, we were two very horny people."

"Anyway, I was trying not to grind my dick into her. I wanted to prolong the moment, if you know what I mean. But when she buried her face in my neck and I felt her tongue licking my throbbing veins I kind of lost it. I grabbed her by the ass and forced my cock into her groin. If ever there was a fuck me signal, that was it."

"So," the Doctor said, "you were not experiencing any difficulty at this point?"

"Hell no! From that point I ran my hands under her skirt, actually lifting it to her waist, and kneaded the cheeks of her ass. She was moaning now and I bit the side of her neck. She wore the hickey proudly for at least a week afterward. And when Alice grabbed me by my cock and squeezed... well, I picked her up by her ass and walked both of us into the bedroom."

"I dropped her on the bed and kissed her. Somewhere in there we tore our clothes off and resumed the kissing."

"Now... Robert... I need it now!" Alice had moaned.

Her breasts were covered with goose bumps, her areola and nipples swollen with desire, poking out from her breasts like bottle caps."

"This is good," the doctor said earnestly, even as managed to inconspicuously rearrange his penis in his trousers. For this was arousing him and he thought ever so briefly, that 'If only Emma is in the mood this evening.'

Robert continued. "I drew her right teat into my mouth and sucked like a crazy man while she moaned with pleasure."

The doctor's hand slowly moved to his leg and sought out his own rigid penis.

"Then my mouth was on her belly, my tongue wriggling around in her belly button. And Alice's hands were guiding me lower. I knew she wanted me to go down on her. I'd done it before. I enjoy going down; it helps her with her climax. Anyway I could feel the wiry hair surrounding her pussy against my skin and used my tongue on her."

"Oh, she was crying out... shit like, 'Yes, baby! Yes! Eat me! Eat me!' And God help me, I love the taste of her down there. I could eat her all day and all night..."

"Anyway, she was sloppy wet and coming hard. I had never met a woman who came so much before... then she was screaming, 'Fuck me! Fuck me Robert! Give me that black cock! Give me all of that black cock!"

"I... I started to mount her, but she pushed away and turned so that she was facing me and she was kneeling between my legs. "Lemme suck that thing! I gotta taste it!' she screamed."

"Then she rolled... and the next thing I knew her pussy was coming down to meet my face and she had my cock in her mouth."

This continued for a while and then as I was getting close, she spat me out and demanded that I fuck her. I mounted her, and was holding her hip with one hand and aiming my cock at her cunt with the other when she said it.

"What was it she said?" Asked Doctor Zaga.

"I... I'm embarrassed."

"Nothing is unimportant and if it embarrasses you it may have relevance. What was it she said?"

"Can... can we get some friends of yours over to... to fill the rest of my holes?"

"Were those her words?"

"Yes, her exact words. I'll never forget them. I went limp immediately. Or, I should say, my cock went flaccid and stayed that way."

"What did you do?"

"I was stunned, but to cover my inadequacy, I went down on her again and brought her to several more orgasms. Then I dressed and left her dozing."

"I see," said Doctor Zaga. "Well I think we may have a strong clue, perhaps even the solution, or at least a partial solution to the problem."

"Please Doctor, what is it?"

"The mention of having another man's penis anywhere near your beloved Alice has had a dramatic effect on you, rendering you impotent. It may be fear that another man might outperform you in sexual matters. Or it may not."

"That's... crazy," Robert said, but his heart was pounding as he thought about that very possibility.

"I... I recall having doubts about... about my abilities, but when I'm with Alice I... I feel like superman, invincible, able to perform for long periods without flagging."

"I believe," the Doctor said slowly, "that you have no alternative, but to watch Alice engage in sex with another... no, with at least two other men. Watching this happen will in all probability cause an erection on your part and you will join in and have your orgy, or whatever it is called these days."

"What?"

"Oh, yes. If you have the erection you will fuck her along with the others. Once you reach your first climax, all will be well. You'll be past caring that you've shared Alice with other men."

"But what will Alice think?"

"She is the one who proposed the idea in the first place. By all means, confirm with her that this is indeed her desire. If not, well we must try some other approach. But if she is agreeable, well then, you must proceed."

"Very well, Doctor I'll talk with Alice this afternoon. Now if she agrees my problem becomes one of finding the appropriate partners."

"Normally, I might suggest a close friend, but you may not want that, given you and Alice are to be married."