Diary Entry 3 - September 28

“Oh my god, last night was the most embarrassing, degrading, and humiliating night of my entire life. I can’t believe that we, that I had to go through with that whole thing. The nerve of that guy. What kind of asshole makes another guy give up his girlfriend sexually to pay off some kind of debt.

“I feel so dirty and uncomfortable right now that Trip and I were put into the position of having to do that. It feels so wrong, especially so early in our relationship. I think honestly, the worst part for me was the fact that we, Trip and I, didn’t even do anything afterward except he cleaned me up.

“I can’t blame him. I didn’t want to even touch myself last night after I got back to my dorm room. How can I expect Trip to be in the mood when he had to sit there and watch his girlfriend get defiled but some asshole geeky pervert. I wonder if there’s a name for that...

“I hope the next weekend is a normal one, and I hope Trip and I can start spending more time together other than Friday night fuckings. I’ve tried to text him more and more, and sadly that’s still pretty slow going, but it’s making headway.

“Ugh, relationships are so fucking weird. Emphasis on the fucking.”