Chapter 16

That gave us time for nice long hot shower. I had a grand ol' time washing every little "nook and cranny" on Red's delicious body. I think my balls are turning from blue to deep purple and my poor dick is suffering "cabin fever".

I don't know if there is such a thing as the "Fraternal Order of Sushi Chefs but the guy knew about Joshi and a couple of minutes later I was making Saki Martinis for the five of us. Dinner was a lot of fun but also a bit of torture because I sat between Marion and Red. Both of them kept putting their hands on my thighs, squeezing them and Marion tried to molest my balls through my pants. When I tried to keep my legs together, Red leaned close to my ear and bit it.

"Spread'em big boy and slide forward a bit on your chair or I'll invite Mom up to your room for some spanking session. Let her have her fun or else."

While I was kind of excited by the idea of these two beautiful women spanking my ass, I did remember Wednesday night and decided that I was not ready for that and granted "access" to my two tormentors.

It was very difficult to concentrate on the food and conversation with those two devilish ladies alternating in teasing and tormenting my blue – actually I was pretty sure that by now they were purple balls. It was hell in one way and subbie heaven the other. Here Red would feed me delicious morsels of sashimi while her Mom molested my balls.

I must have made a face because the sushi chef got concerned and asked

"everything OK with the fish?" I assured him that was really great but had a really hard time keeping a straight face because now Red was clamping and I do mean clamping down on my balls.

Well eventually all "good" things come to an end. Dan paid this time and it was time to say goodbye. It almost felt like I was saying goodbye to my parents. I really had grown very fond of those two over the last few days.

Dan shook my hand and clasped my shoulder "drive careful and take care of my girl."

Marion hugged me very tight and whispered into my ear

"Darling, make my girl happy. Please, give her what she needs to make her whole again. If anyone can do it, it's you. Even if it doesn't work out for you two, I will be forever grateful for trying. Please feel free to call me any time – day or night if you need help with your quest. Peter I'm rooting for you."

Then louder "I'm looking forward to seeing you again for Christmas. I want another turkey like we had. Maybe if Red and I double team you, we can torture that secret out of you."

"Mom, I'm not so sure, he can be pretty tough. I've seen him suffer at the BDSM club. I think we need reinforcements for that in the form of Aunt Nicole, maybe even Pam."

Pinching my cheek "Peter, you may want to reconsider and give that secret up. I know you're a subbie but are you also a masochist? You'll be in real trouble if the four of us go to "work" on you. See once Nicole and Pam get started, there is no stopping them."

"Mom, don't scare Peter like that. They are not that bad and I know they'll respect the safe word."

I gave a Marion a final hug and kiss on the cheek. "Trust me, I'll try my very best to make Red happy. I want to be part of her life forever and then some."

With that we got into our cars, they went home and we to the B&B.

When we got back Pam and her boyfriend sat in what was called the "reading room", really just a cozy alcove lined with book shelves and six very comfortable chairs and a coffee table. They had dimmed the lights and I notice a bottle and some glasses on the table.

"Hey guys, how was dinner? Come join us for night cap."

So we headed over there and sat with them. They had a bottle of cognac and four snifters on the table.

"Chucky please pour us some."

Remembering our earlier conversation I got an idea and looked at Red

"Goddess, please may I have one too".

The smile that I got from Red sent my heart soaring.

"Yes Chucky, please pour a small one for Peter. I still have some work for him to do and don't want him too inebriated so he can perform properly."

Pam patted Chuck's knee "see babe, that is not so difficult. Peter hardly knows us but he was not too embarrassed to do the right thing. Remember always that I love you and that I would never put you into a situation knowing that it could hurt your precious self-esteem when we are among people who do not know or understand our lifestyle. Last night was a family affair and you can trust every one there not to blabber about the fact that you are MY "slave". We all care for you and are happy that you are willing to submit to my will."

"Chucky, I love you for that with all my heart. Like Mom and Aunt Marion keep telling you, it's the greatest gift a man can offer to a Woman. Peter here understands that and is willing to submit to Red even though he got once burned by his ex who decided to violate the cardinal rule of a Domme/sub relationship by not respecting the safe word and thereby losing Peter's trust."

"You could have saved yourself that beating darling if you had at one time or the other called it. Me and you would have gone someplace private and talked about your issues. I probably would have still made you ask in some form like you did when it came to refills. I would not have embarrassed you by denying you that first drink."

"Ladies, Chuck if I may, from one subbie to the other, I don't really know you and I have no idea how deep your need of being dominated goes but what I see here concerns me. There could be a failure in communication. That is a very bad in any relationship but communication is even more critical in a Domme/sub one. You have to trust Pam to look out for you. It is clear that she loves you. So her first priority will always be to make sure you are safe from both serious physical as well as mental harm. The only way she can do that is if you are totally honest with her about your concerns and fears as well as your need to submit. It's hard I know. I have sometimes trouble formulating what I feel or would like to feel."

"Part of the issue with my ex was created exactly by that. A failure to communicate. I had one understanding and she had a different one and it created a problem which got worse through some other things she did. But it all began because we did not talk about our expectations."

"I know that I will have some very rough times ahead of me. Red will hurt me, probably like I've never been hurt before. Am I afraid? You bet your sore ass I am but I trust her totally that there will be no permanent damage, no need for medical attention. In the end, I hope that this experience will form such a strong bond between us allowing us to grow old together as soul mates, lovers and yes Domme and subbie."

"Chuck – handing him my card – here are my office and cell phone numbers. Please do not hesitate to call me if you have any concerns or questions. I've been in the life style for over ten years always as a sub. I'm sure that both Marion and Nicole have offered you to talk to them but it's not the same. I also can understand you hesitating to talk to Dan or Darrell. But I'm 400 miles away. Consider me a counselor. I promise you that I will never talk to Red about any issue that you raise with me. It's between you and me and the proverbial fence post. Red will understand that and respect it and not try to pressure me into revealing your concerns. As far as I'm concerned you are now family. Maybe think of me as your older brother."

"Now looking at Pam – Pam I hope you will give Chuck the "space" to call me. Us subbies sometimes need to stick together. There are many pitfalls in any long term relationship like marriage and there can be times when he has to confide to someone who understands his special situation. You have Red, your Mom and Marion. I'm guessing that sooner or later Chuck will rely on your Dad but right now, this is all pretty new and scary for him and it is probably easier for him to talk to me. I'm not a relative. If I were in his shoes at this stage, I would also hesitate to talk to your Dad. Why? Because he is YOUR Dad."

Both Pam and Red put their hands on my knees and said "Thank you Peter".

With that we said goodnight and headed up to my room.

As we walking into our room - "toy, strip and get down on your knees but while you do that, let me tell you that I was truly proud of you during our time with Pam and Chucky. You handled that very well."

Now you're getting your "reward". Some serious teasing and a chance to show Me your devotion. Get up on the bed on your back, hands over your head so that I can secure them."

"But..." "Shush babe, I know you would not move or resist. This is more symbolic. It turns ME on knowing that I have total control over you – not just mentally but also physically."

With that she snapped some handcuffs on me and secured them behind my head with a rope that miraculously appeared from behind the head board. Then Red stripped down to her panties and bra and climbed up on the bed. As I she got closer, there was no mistaking that her panties were already wet in anticipation of what was going to happen.

Red took off her necklace and unlocked and removed the lock to my CB but when she tried to pull it off, it would not come because my dick was so hard inside. A quick but serious squeeze to my balls fixed that and the CB popped off. I sighed in relief as my dick pointed straight up at the ceiling.

Chuckling "I bet that feels good, doesn't it toy?"

"Yes Goddess, thank you."

"Don't thank me yet my darling toy. You might wish that I had left it locked up before I'm done with you."

With that Red swung herself over my face in the 69 position. Pressing her wet panties into my face she started to alternate between blowing on my dick and lightly kissing it.

"Hmm, I should have made you shower first. Well too late now, I guess I'll have to "suck it up" if I want to drive you crazy with desire."

I was trying to reach her pussy with my tongue and got slapped on the balls.

"Hey, I didn't give you permission to that. Just stay still and breathe. Don't do anything else till I tell you to."

Another slap on the balls "got that toy? And don't answer that."

I lost count how many times Red brought me to the brink of cumming, but denied me release in primarily by hurting my balls. All I could do, was quietly whimper into her pussy or moan depending what she was doing at the time. Eventually Red got up and I knew that it was over and there would be no release when I heard her emptying the ice tray.

"Oh my poor little toy – the mean Goddess hinted all the time that tonight would be the night and then...".

I almost cried out both from frustration and pain as the ice hit my balls and dick and before I could catch my breath, the CB was back on.

Red was smiling as she put the necklace back with key dangling between her luscious breasts.

"No toy, not tonight but I promise – remember all these days I never promised, just hinted that I might – that tomorrow night you will get to cum."

With that she freed my wrists and then laid next to me pulling her face towards hers and lovingly kissed me.

"Come babe, now you get to make love to my – a chance to get some revenge but be careful not to push that part. I can always take your belt to your ass."

"Goddess may I remove..."

"Stop Peter, I like the sound of Goddess and I leave it up to you to use that or Red. The "Domme game" is over for now. I want you to love me. So there is no need to ask for permission."

So I undid the front clasp of her bra and started to worship and tease those luscious breasts and take special care to really sensitize those nipples. In no time flat they were larger and harder than an eraser on a pencil. As I was "working" I kept seeing flashes of that shiny key to my release. Well there is tomorrow as I moaned in frustration and pain while pleasuring my Goddess' nipples. I felt a small shudder going through Red's body.

Mentally patting myself on my back – I'll be damned she just had an orgasm from just my working on her breasts. "Payback time".

So, I started to slowly kissing my way down to her pussy. One kiss on those soaked panties before I removed them. Red helping by lifting her butt.

Again, I got so involved in teasing and worshipping her pussy, bringing her within seconds of an explosive orgasm, backing off and starting all over again. I have no idea how often I had done that when Red grabbed my hair rather painfully.

"Damn it Peter get ME off NOW!"

I knew it was time to quit my games and get serious or I would have a hard time driving home tomorrow because of my sore ass.

Within a very short time Red grabbed a pillow trying to stifle her cries of pleasure. After catching her breath and with a tear or two in her eyes.

"Babe, you outdid yourself. Thank you. Give me a couple of minutes and do it again. Keep the teasing to a minimum. We need to go to sleep. I want to try to get an early start."

So I did it again. This time I did not drive her off the "Richter Scale" but I'm quite sure that she was very happy.

"Peter, go take a quick shower while I catch my breath. If I go with you, you'll only get into trouble."

So I got off the bed and did as I was told. When I got back Red headed for the bathroom and I spotted a folded sheet on the bed. The message was clear and I quickly changed sheets as I waited for Red to complete her shower. I had not heard a hair dryer. I guess she did not want to waste time and must have used a shower cap because her hair was dry when she came back towards the bed where I was waiting for her.

"Peter, get up and come here I want to hug you."

So we embraced and I started to kiss her lovely face.

"Red, I love you with all my heart and soul. Please don't ever leave me like this again."

A big grin on her face "you mean frustrated an horny like tonight?"

I gave her a gentle slap on her rump "no, you know better. That's not what I mean."

"I know babe, just teasing you. Say was I too mean? Hinting all that time that tonight would be the night and drive you totally nuts with desire and ultimately lock you back up?"

"No Goddess, that is your right. Did I like it? No, but that is not up to me. I just have to trust you that you will keep your promise tomorrow and in the future to never exceed what I can take in any form of torment you decide on. That is part of why I love you so much. You seem to know when to stop."

I almost said unlike ... but managed to control my mouth.

We kissed and Red pushed me towards the bed.

"Time to go sleep. We have lots of time to talk tomorrow on the drive home."

As usual, I woke up around 5:30 with Red pressing her breasts into my back and her hand resting on my chest. Hmm, this feels nice. I hope one day this will be an almost every day occurrence. I carefully eased myself out of bed got into the shower and as I was getting dressed Red opened an eye.

"Good morning darling. What time is it?"

Six, time for you to get up. Pam said that they would open up the kitchen a half hour early so that we could get on the road."

"OK, OK, don't get pushy boy. I'm getting there. Come here and give me a kiss to start my "motor" running."

"I'll put the stuff into the car while you take a shower. Want me to come back up or will you join me downstairs in the kitchen?"

"I'll see you down there".

So I dragged our bags down to the car and went into the kitchen where Pam and Chuck were busy. Before I knew it I had an OJ and a cup of coffee in front of me and Pam grinning

"So did you get lucky last night?" Looking at my face and chuckling, "I guess not, at least not the way you had hoped. Poor Peter. Well Chucky over here had the same "luck". But I think that he's learned his lesson. We had an interesting conversation after you guys went to bed. Thanks again. It opened up my eyes a bit. Mom always said being in a relationship with a subbie is a big responsibility. I never quite understood till last night. I'm going to have to talk to her a lot over the next few weeks."

Red walked into the kitchen and asked "Talk about what Pam?"

"Responsibilities of a Domme. It may be harder than I expected. Don't get me wrong, I'm not going to change my "spots". I'm a Domme and that is that. But how I approach it may be different than what I had envisioned in my fantasies."

At that point Chuck brought our breakfast to the table and we ate mostly in silence.

It was time to say goodbye, shook hands with Chuck and reminded him to call any time if he needed to talk.

While Red gave him a hug, Pam hugged and kissed me. Not quite as aggressive as her Mom had done the other day but still very nice. When she released me, I looked at Chuck who had kind of a wane look on his face. I wasn't quite sure what to make of it but it gave me and idea.

Ladies, please excuse Chuck and me for maybe ten or fifteen minutes. I just had some thoughts that I would like to convey to him. So with your permission. Chuck why don't you grab a coffee and we go to the court yard for a few minutes."

"What are you doing Peter, plotting a subbie rebellion or something like that. Fifteen minutes max or we come and get you and that could be painful."

So Chuck and I took our coffees and went outside.

"Chuck I'm not going try to pry and if it gets too uncomfortable, we could do this over the phone where I can't see your face. But something that Pam said earlier and your face after she kissed me made me wonder."

"How did you feel when she kissed me. I am not sure if you were unhappy about it or what was going through your mind."

"Boy this is tough, I've never talked about my feelings with anyone. Well, not true. A little with Pam. Well since I have a pretty good idea of who and what you are and I believe that you want to help, I'll try."

"I know that kissing you is not going to lead to anything. As far as Pam is concerned you are off limits. You belong to Red. I think, she was just teasing a bit. I on the other hand was wondering what I would feel if this was some other guy, an ex boyfriend or even some one completely new. In some small way it excited me but I really don't know how I would feel if it was for real."

"So has Pam ever expressed a desire to have some lover on the side? You know her mother does it all the time. I mean cuckold Darrell with some young stud over at the college."

"A couple of times maybe, like when somehow I pissed her off. I'm not even sure what I did wrong but she said 'maybe I should take up Mom's offer to go with her and get fucked really good' or something similar like that."

"OK, this is going to be hard but can you satisfy her in bed. I don't mean orally but with your dick?"

"I think so. I don't think she's a "size queen". She gets off and I don't think she's faking it. I feel she's too much of Domme for that. But you never really know, do you?"

I chuckled "that's the truth buddy, we'll never know what is really going on in those pretty heads."

"When she locked me into that blasted chastity thing, she made some comments about it needed to get locked up so that I would not embarrass myself but I think she was just pulling my leg."

"Chuck, do you guys ever watch porn or read erotic stories together?"

"We've watched some porn but Pam got pretty bored in a hurry and made some derogatory remarks about the guys with the big cocks that made me thing that I was OK in that department."

"I have an idea, there is a guy who writes stories on a site called "storiesonline.net" his pen name is "Goodhusband" and he has several stories out. All of them involve some Female Domination and cuckolding scenarios. I think the two of you should read one of the stories for starters. It's called "Sandra and Stevie". It's pretty long but it shows how their love survives as they learn about each other's needs. At one point Sandra dumps him but for reasons that don't apply to your relationship. I think if you read say maybe anywhere from five to ten segments – independently from each other – and then talk about what you read, how you would feel if you were Stevie, etc. That might help both of you down the line. If nothing else, it might help you to express your feelings. Now if you find that you are more of a masochist and Pam has more sadistic streak than you both envisioned after reading about Sandra and Stevie, then I suggest that you read "Brenda and Bobbie". Brenda is much more of a Domme than Sandra. I think that Pam's Mom is probably more like that fictional Brenda."

"The important thing is that in both stories, no matter how bad the Ladies treat their hubbies, they are madly in love with them."

"Give it try. I think it might help"

"OK, boys time is up. Peter make a last trip to the potty and let's get going."

As we were in the car and getting on the interstate "so what did you guys talk about?"

"Remember my dearest Red, I told Chuck that I would not divulge any thing he told me to you so that you can feed it back to Pam."

Then I glanced at her and grinned. "I just told him that Pam and he should do some reading".

Red punched me in the ribs "Hey careful, I'm driving."

After that we fell for into a very comfortable silence over the next hundred miles or so listening to "River Walk Jazz" with the Jim Cullum Jazz Band from the Landing in San Antonio.

After stopping for gas we got back on the road and Red started.

"So my darling Peter aka toy what do you hope the future will bring for the two of us? Time to spill the beans babe since you put so much value on communications."

Wow talk about putting me on the spot. I gave it some thought and started at first hesitating but eventually the flood gates opened.

"Red, the one thing in the world I want most is for you to be happy spending the rest of your life with me in a relationship that is full of love for each other and maybe..." I paused. " I hope that whatever you have planned for me will make you whole again. With that I don't mean totally heterosexual. I don't think that will ever happen. You've for many years enjoyed a lesbian life style. It's forever part of you. The best I can hope for that at some point in time you will enjoy again intercourse with a man – hopefully that will be me."

"Peter what where you going to say when you stopped a little while ago? You know 'love for each other and maybe... '?"

"You had to catch that, didn't you. You are too good a lawyer."

She laughed a little. "I guess I am that. I've been trained to listen and to catch things like you starting to say something and then avoiding it."

OK, please don't be angry at me and I hope I'm not presumptuous here but I was thinking of one or more little "rug rats"."

Red laughed loud this time. "Oh boy, Mom really got to you didn't she? You know she's been really good about my situation but I know she would never give up hope. I don't know, maybe subconsciously I didn't either. Only time will tell. When I told her about our night at the lake, she started crying. That is when I knew that it had been eating at her, my being a lesbian."

"I tried to tell her how sorry I was but then she got angry and told me that it was my life and only mine and not to let the wishes of an old woman dictate what I did with my love life. You know the last couple of weeks she and I spent together in a cabin in the mountains. No TV, no phones. Her cell worked on occasion when atmospheric conditions were right. The radio had one station – NPR. We walked a lot without ever saying a word but I saw her blossoming and glowing when I told her that I was hoping that my life would include a "normal" sexual relationship with you as well as keeping Mich in my life. She was almost as shattered as I was when Mich decided that she could not live with me if I put you on an equal footing with her and left."

"But back to you Peter."

"I was encouraged by what I just heard and just plunged ahead hoping that I would make sense to her.

"Red, I've said it many times. I'm yours to command, use and abuse if it will help you to find that inner peace you've been longing for. Even if in the end you decide that it did not work, I will know that I gave it my best."

"But to go back to your original question. What do I want. I want a relationship that balances the Domme/sub life with one of love and total commitment to each other. What do I mean by that? I'm not really sure. I want you to feel free to follow your urges for female companionship and sex as you see fit. But I want to know for sure that you will always come back to me and will always love me. Would I want to watch you like that night at the lake with Michelle? I don't know. If you want me to, I would give it a try as long as I have the option to leave if it gets too much. Being tied and forced to watch will take some doing because just the thought of being helpless brings back flashbacks to the night at Greg's. I know that I can trust you with the safe word but..."

"I want you to respect me for the human being that I am, flawed as I may be in the eyes of others and maybe even yours."

"I will submit to you for any form of BDSM play within the norms of safe and sane play. I know that last remark may seem like a contradiction to what I said earlier. But I see certain differences between being a cuck forced to watch the love of your life with someone else and BDSM play."

"To be honest, I'm having trouble with that one – I mean trouble expressing what I feel and mean about the differences. Maybe one day I can wrap my head around it and it will make sense to me and you."

I have to be honest with you, I would be most unhappy if you ever made a cuck out of me with a guy. I could be wrong, but I do believe that at one point you sort of made that promise. I would need to hear it again going forward."

"I expect total honesty from you regarding any relationship you may have down the line with others in whatever form, vanilla, lesbian, Domme/sub. Like I said any kind of relationship. But I want to be the one that is most important to you at all times just like you are for me right now and forever till the day you tell me to get lost."

"I would want you to tell me if you are unhappy for any reason, especially if it is something I might be able to fix. I love you, but I'm only human. I can and will make mistakes. Please tell me if I do. One more thing, if this is going to work, please don't shut me out of any part of your life. That doesn't mean I want to be there every time you get together with Cindy or who knows who else or hear all the gory details of what you did (chuckling) unless it is part of your way to tease and torment me."

"I just want to know that you are safe and not have to worry about you. If you tell me afterwards how great a lover they are and how pitiful I am in comparison – well that is the lot of my being a subbie and a cross I'll have to bear."

"Nothing is more important to me than your happiness."

At that point, I kind of ran out of steam and shut up. Red just sat quietly, not saying a word but I was hoping that she was reflecting of what I had said and that it matched her ideas.

After a while, Red put her hand on my leg and started to talk.

"Peter, you know that I love you very much. As much as I can at this time of my life. I'm going to put you through hell and then some. Partly to test your devotion – no that is not right. I don't need to do that. I know that I have it. You had to many chances of "jumping ship" and hitch your wagon to some other Domme. But in the end, it will test your devotion because you have that safe word that I will honor even if it means cutting my "therapy session" with you short. So you don't have to worry about my getting carried away and crossing the line. But I hope that you are man enough to suffer through the full session without using it."

"We both know that this is a gamble, there are no guarantees that it will work. I'm fairly optimistic that it will. I even talked to my therapist who treated me right after the event and all the time I was living at home. She thought that it might work after I told her about how liberated I felt after the night of hell I put you through a few months ago. No matter what happens, I will be forever grateful to you for trying. Should I fall back into my old lifestyle, I will be happy to be your friend and Domme for the rest of our lives if you will let me. On the other hand, I won't stand in your way should you find someone else to fill that spot because you need more than I can give you."

Laughing, "you know Cindy will grab you in heartbeat if I let her. She's a bit more of a sadist than I am. Probably more along the lines of M. So if that is what you seek, maybe we should end right after we get home. One thing so, she will cuckold you with some guy every so often. Not like Aunt Nicole used to but still every so often. By the way, she was impressed with your performance the last night you spent with her. So you have alternatives."

"But to be honest, I too hope that things will work out for the two of us. That is the reason I accepted Mich's decision and chose you instead as my potential primary lover and companion."

"So here is what is in store for you. Some time, maybe as early as next weekend I will have that "therapy session" with you. In view of that, after I've let you cum tonight, we will resume your training with the butt plugs."

I must have made a face – "Babe, don't worry. There will be no need for the daily enema. I learned a few things while I was gone. There is no need for them on a daily basis. That does not mean that I won't include it in our BDSM play at one time or the other. I'm thinking that you will be much more sympathetic towards me when I have my period after I've given you a dose of the "cramps" babe."

"Also I need to warn you that I may be an emotional wreck after the therapy session and I count on you to be my rock, the shoulder to lean and cry on when that happens. I have no idea how I will feel after I'm done with you. I was pretty upset and concerned about I rough I had gotten with you during the last one. But you were so brave and continued to assure me that you were OK, that I got over it pretty fast. Babe, this is going to be worse and I just hope ... Oh I don't know. Hope that it will be worth your sacrifice."

"I know I can rely on Cindy for support and Mom would fly up in a heartbeat if I asked her to. I hope that it will not come to that."

Once we get that out of the way, I need you to be very patient with me. Love me no matter how mean I might get and try to reject you because I may feel guilty and ashamed because of the way I hurt you. Please, please don't turn away from me. Just be there and be like I said, be patient. I'll eventually will come around to whatever the new "normal" will be after that session."

I took my hand of the wheel and squeezed hers that will still resting on my leg.

"Peter, I need a rest stop and a coffee. How far to the next rest area?"

"I saw a sign a while back that said fifteen miles. We should be there shortly. I could use one too."

After the pit stop we rode in silence for some time before I asked.

"Goddess – Red shot me look but did not say anything – what about your expectations?"

"Peter, I don't know for sure. I'm afraid to think that far ahead. I think in the back of my head I'm afraid that I might lose you after that therapy session. Not because I was too rough on you. No babe, I don't think you would leave me for that reason – not unless I got carried away and ignored your safe word. No, I'm more afraid of failing, that it won't work and that I will fall back to my life the way it was till you came into it. I'm afraid that I will be alone at that point since I seem to have burned my bridges to Mich."

"Red, I don't like what I hear. You have to think positive. You have to be convinced that it will work. They way you are thinking right now, you are setting yourself up to failure. Do you want to wait till maybe after the holidays? Give me a chance to show you how deep my love is for you?"

"Peter, you are right, I have to get rid of these negative thoughts. No I don't want to wait. I have to try to put an end to that part of my life. I promise NO more negative thoughts."

So, what do I want? I think I want a life like Mom and Dad have. They love each other still like teenagers with their first big love. Mom can be a bitch and loves to tease and torment Dad, but then there are periods of just love and caring. Honestly, I cannot think of four people that are more in love with each other than Mom, Dad, Aunt Nicole and Darrell. I have not been around long enough to observe Pam and Chucky but I think that they will have a good chance of reaching that same level of love and trust that our parents have."

So yes, that is what I want from life and I want it with you. I'm afraid that we will have much more of a struggle to achieve that level of happiness than the four of them have but with your support I'm going to try my best."

We stopped for lunch and continued our trip mostly in silence with an occasional remark about the traffic or sights along the road. I guess we were both wrapped up in our thoughts about what each of us had said.

When we got home, I helped Red unload all her stuff and when we had that squared away she walked over to me giving me a hug and a kiss.

"Peter, go home and unpack. Take a nap or whatever you want to do. Fix up your "play room" for us. I'm spending the night at your place. Pick me up at seven to go out and eat. I'm thinking the Bistro. I'll call and make sure they have a table for us. See you then darling."

I put my car away, unpacked and started some laundry. I looked at my watch and decided that I had time for a half hour run. So I changed shoes and went off. When I got back I took a shower and prepared the "play room". I cleaned and lined up the set of butt plugs on the dresser with the lube as well as the cane and flogger Red had left here. I secured ropes to the bed for some form of bondage and made sure that we had plenty of candles should the whole thing turn romantic.

During dinner Red told me that Michelle had removed all her stuff from the apartment and left a note saying that her keys for the place are in the office with Red's PA. Red looked a bit sad when she conveyed that news but got over it pretty quick. But I could tell that she in some way dreaded Monday back in the office.

When we got back to our places, Red said

"Toy, go inside and up into the "play room". Get naked and wait for me on the bed spread eagle like. I'm going to change, get a couple of things and will be over shortly. Leave the front door unlocked."

I did as I was told and waited. I finally would get to cum. But then I looked at the clock and it was only a quarter to nine. Lots of time for Red to torment me.

"Hello toy, ready for me?

I looked up and there she was. The GODDESS slowly dropping a rain coat revealing herself wearing a PVC shelf bra almost the same color of her hair, her nipples fully engorged spilling over the top. Her bottoms were "boy shorts of the same color that fit her like second skin. I'm sure I would have been able to see a "camel toe" if it hadn't been for the zippers in strategic positions leaving the option of a frontal or rear opening.

Smiling, she twirled around "you like?"

I didn't get a chance to answer because I was groaning.

"Oh, my is my toy's little dick uncomfortable? Should "Auntie Red" make it feel all better?"

"All in due course babe, first things first. Let me secure those hands. Can't have them free. They could get you into trouble."

After securing my arms to the sides of the bed with the ropes I had laid out for her.

"Toy, pull up your right foot as close to your thigh as you can."

She looped a belt over my leg and started to pull my foot even closer into a not very comfortable position before securing the end with Velcro. There was no way that I could bust that open.

"Now the other one toy" and she did the same thing. Next she took the ropes I had at the foot end and used them to spread my legs and feet apart from each other giving her total unrestricted access to my dick and ass. I think the position is called "frog leg" but I'm not sure. All I know is that it is darn uncomfortable.

"OK, toy that should hold you and now the blindfold. You need to suffer a bit. You know I really enjoy the mental aspect of torture – not knowing what is going to happen next. Lift your head a bit. There you go. Let's test it. See if you have some sight left. If you can find my nipple, you have my permission to suck on it for a bit. I know you can't resist that offer. So I don't think that you would cheat and not find it on purpose because you want to see."

She laughed as I tried very hard to find one of those marvelous nipples, my tongue flicking around like a snake's hunting for mice.

"OK, I think that you are truly blind but your efforts deserve a treat. Just lick – no sucking."

I moaned both from frustration that I could not get more and the pain from the CB.

"Time to unlock you babe, but I think I'm going to have trouble again getting it off. Well good thing I brought this and several cold blasts of compressed air hit my balls and dick."

"OUCH!"

Off came the CB and my dick was standing at full attention, trying to get even harder as Red flicked her tongue all over it.

"Hmm, this is going to be fun but first you need to suffer a bit. But don't worry, I'll keep my promise. You will be allowed to cum today."

The next sensation was a couple of nipple clamps – not very extreme but with enough pressure to let me know they were there.

"I just love to "decorate" my toy. You know, maybe I give you an assignment, you know like home work to make me two "zippers" with 25 clothes pins each. I really got turned on when Cindy told me about that. Yes, I think by Friday I want you to have those ready for me. Get the wooden ones. But not imported ones. I want good ol' American clothes pins made in Maine. I think you should hand paint them, each set of five in a different color. Yea I like that."

Shit, now I'm in trouble where am I going to find clothes pins made in Maine.

I guess the thought of those zippers and how much it hurt when Cindy put them on me made my dick lose some of the firmness.

"Hmm, we can't have that now. I want you good and hard for the rest of the night."

All it took a couple of licks and some strokes with her hand and the "man" was back at attention. Then I felt the last thing I ever expected. Red was rolling a rubber over my dick.

"Goddess..."

"Shush toy – NOT a word till I give you permission to speak. You say anything without permission and I'll gag you with your dirty socks."

"Got that? Just nod".

There I was, couldn't see a thing, my legs aching and my dick in a bloody "rain coat". What's up with that?

I heard something, not sure, but it could be Red putting on latex gloves. Yep, I was right. There was the finger with some lube invading my anus. Stretching it slowly. Damn, I think she's got two fingers in there pushing and probing. It didn't really hurt but it was a new sensation. Well not really new but it had been some time since I last had a butt plug back there.

Those fingers kept roaming in my butt and now I felt her other hand slowly stroking my dick, not very firmly but enough to stimulate it. I actually got close to cumming but Red must have sensed it because she backed off letting me settle down.

"Are you in a hurry my darling toy? It's only 9:30. Lots of time for me to keep my promise. OK, let's start again."

Her fingers pulled out and were replaced by thin dildo and suddenly it started to buzz and vibrate. This is something new. It felt weird but not really unpleasant. At the same time the stroking resumed. I started to toss my head around moaning and trying to find some way to increase friction that I could cum.

"Shush, babe remember the sock. NO matter what happens better stay quiet. I'll explain to you later in a way that even you can understand it".

Talk about being demeaned by my Goddess.

Suddenly, she let go of my dick but continued the action in my butt. I'll be damned if I did not feel cum draining out of my dick into that condom without the sensation of an orgasm. It took all the willpower I could muster not to burst out yelling. I was pissed. What is this?

As Red was pulling off the condom...

"Ah, my poor baby is upset. I'm proud of you. You kept quiet. I kind of had hoped I could shove that sock down your mouth. I had it ready" – waving it under my nose.

"Remember when we were driving up and we were talking and how I caught you when you changed your mind about saying something. How I said, that being able to listen is very important for a lawyer? Well babe, the same goes for you. You need to learn to listen very carefully to your Goddess. I promised that you would be allowed to cum. I never, ever talked about an orgasm for you. Did I now?"

All I could do is shake my head. Damn that evil woman. Playing with me like that. But I had to admit that I had jumped to conclusions. I sure have to pay more attention when she talks. Ask for clarification, not just assume or I could wind up in a world of hurt.

"Don't worry babe, I'll teach you to pay attention. I want you to be the most perfect slave and toy a Domme can have."

"Would you like a sip of water?"

I nodded and she went downstairs to get a cup and straw for me.

"OK enough, I don't want you to pee in the bed. We still have "work" to do". And with that she went to work on my dick, getting it hard again before putting a new condom over it.

The process repeated four time and I was totally wiped out.

"Well my darling, I think I have just about every drop of cum out of your system. Tomorrow morning we will repeat the process. Now to show you that I'm not a real bitch but a loving and caring Domme I will give you a chance for an orgasm. I'll untie one of your hands and you have my permission to jerk off. But I must warn you. There is nothing left in the "tank" and it could be painful. So it's up to you. The thing is, that if you start, you will have to finish. No stopping if it gets too uncomfortable. I'll be nice and drop lube every so often on your dick. I'll even let you "nurse" gently on my boobs. So what do say? Frustrated enough to give it a try? You have permission to speak."

"Thank you Goddess, but maybe I better accept your wisdom and refrain from trying.:

Hesitating a bit "Goddess would you please ... no I think I just learned something – would you please release my legs from their current position. They are getting to feel a bit numb and I'm not sure if I can walk at this point. Please."

Laughing "Peter you're priceless. You should have used your safe word earlier if they bothered you that much. I'm sorry, I got so wrapped up in tormenting you that I forgot about that. It's been almost three hours and I should have released them after an hour or so. I'm sorry."

"Before you say it, I know, but when I'm wrong I will apologize even to a lowly slave."

"Now what were you going to say earlier before you changed and said what you said? It's OK, there is no harm in telling me now. I'm glad that you were paying attention and learned something tonight. While your "little brain" is completely out of commission, the one in your head does seem to work"

"Goddess, I was going to say 'would you please consider releasing my legs'. I realized just in time that it would have left the door wide open for you to do nothing and leave me in that position. You could have considered it as per my request and decided that there was no reason. Of course, if I had made that mistake and I believe you would have done exactly what I just said to teach me another lesson, then I would have used my safe word."

By that time Red had one of legs free and I stretched it very carefully to its full extension.

Chuckling "yes babe, I would have done exactly that. Except that there would have been no need for you to use the safe word because saying what you could have said would have made me realize that you've been too long in this position and I would have just explained your mistake and released you anyway."

Red gave me some time to get my legs working again before saying.

"Darn, I wanted you in that position for the butt plug. Oh well, turn over and put your ass up into the air. Time for the small one to go in. There should be lots of lube inside of you so I'll just put a bit on the plug."

Without any further ado Red jammed that plug up my ass.