Chapter 27: Abused

Jade wouldn’t talk to me the next morning. She just sat in her bunk silent as I washed and got dressed.

Are we cool? I asked.

I mean, like, I want no part in whatever is going down here, she said, getting up and climbing out of her bunk in the nude.

I have already said not to get involved with those women, I said.

Yeah, but then, like, they came here in the night, she said, that was mad scary. I couldn’t figure out if that shit was like, consensual or not. I’m not sure what your jam is. They could have dragged me into that at any time, and then like, you offered to do me.

I did feel pretty bad about that.

I was lost in sub space, I said, but that crossed a line for sure. I’d have done anything for you. I would never hurt you, though. I’m not like them.

That might be, she said, pulling a tank top down over those gorgeous small tits of hers, but I don’t like, swing that way. Please don’t ask me again.

I won’t, I said, I’m sorry, Jade, truly.

I tried to look anywhere but at her naked lower half when she dressed. It dawned on me slowly that she might not be trustworthy. Not that she would do anything wrong, but she didn’t know what the consequences would be if she spoke up.

Are you going to tell the wardens what you saw here last night? I asked.

She didn’t answer.

Because if you think it’ll get those women kicked out, it won’t, I went on, it’ll get us all put into the advanced program. You don’t want that.

Why? she asked.

But the warden came for us before I could elaborate. They took Jade to breakfast, but they took me to the library. It was empty.

What are we doing here? I asked the warden.

It was the same guy who had told me Aaron had been fired. He did not respond. Instead, he pulled the door the library closed behind me. I looked around. My heart raced in my chest.

Hello? I asked. Who’s there?

Gutierrez stepped out from behind one of the shelves of books. He was holding a bible.

Hello, little lamb, he said.

I turned for the door and grabbed the handle. It wouldn’t budge.

Your time has come, little lamb, Gutierrez said.

The other guys from the Busted-Out Cunts website slid from behind the shelves like the slimy fucks that they were.

That was it, then. They had made good on their threats to have me. Someone had sold me out to them. Clearly they had a warden bought off, but then again I was working towards that myself with my little favors to Aaron. That was easy enough to achieve, it seemed. These guys had someone in their pocket, but I can’t imagine they were buying favors with blowjobs. I suspected Lena would be involved in this somehow.

Lena? I asked.

The time for talking is over, Gutierrez said, putting the bible down on one of the central tables, we can do this the easy way or the hard way. Personally, I like it when they struggle.

My mind was doing back flips. There was, apparently, no way out of this. My brain was caught in a loop of analyzing the room for a weapon or a way out, and then trying to steel myself to get through the inevitable. It was like I couldn’t focus fully on one or the other. I found it interesting that my brain was going into flight mode, even if partially. Normally I’d just let them have their way with me. It’s what I had always done; just bend over and let it happen. Try to enjoy it. That was almost certainly going to happen, but the fact that I was even thinking about resisting, that signified a change in me that I had not expected.

The four men surrounded the table. I had nowhere to go. It was time to just do this. I took a deep breath. The knot in my chest melted down into my stomach, and I entered that sub space that I loved to be in so much. I just wished it was Trix that I was submitting for. I got down on my knees.

Come on then, I said, let’s do this.