Chapter 2: Horny and Alone

Throwing on a baggy T-shirt I pulled out my laptop and logged in to Yahoo. As always I had a ton of e-mails and a number of off-line messages left by guys (mostly men, a few girls sometimes too) that had been trying to chat with me during the night.

I don’t think people realize just how hard it is for me to respond to everyone. On Instant Messenger if I show myself as “available” my screen fills up quickly with chat windows. Sometimes I try to handle three or four at once but that is all I can deal with at any one time and even then I find myself neglecting one or more of them. Usually I just stay invisible and chat with whatever random person checks to see if I’m around. Other than responding to the off-line messages, I NEVER initiate a chat. Frankly I don’t trust everyone that chats with me and even though I make it a point to ask new people how old they are, I fear someday I could end up chatting with some fourteen year old and get in trouble so I always let people contact me first. When it gets to the point where there are too many people asking for me I just leave some of the windows minimized and when I am finished with one person I check to see if the next one is still available.

Being as horny as I was this morning I was hoping that someone would be on that would masturbate on their cam for me. I rarely get into cybersex although I have faked it a few times but just an open discussion about sex would be welcome right now. I never get tired of watching a guy masturbate though. It feels so much sexier knowing he is doing it because of me. It’s so much hotter than watching some stupid porn movie or looking at cock shots that everyone seems to want to display.

I opened up one of my e-mails and was thrilled to see a few tribute pics of me and my cousin with the guy’s dick in the picture and his cum all over us. I felt myself tingling again down there as I imagined this guy sitting at home getting so horny thinking about me that he jerks off and then actually sprays his sperm all over his favorite picture of me. I still had an especially erotic message saved in my In-Box where a guy had sent me pics of his family and then included one of him cumming on his daughter’s picture. She looked to be about twelve or thirteen and it was wild knowing he must have sat home and jerked off thinking about fucking his own daughter!

Between chats I worked on my web site a bit and tried to finish up some of my diary entries. God I am so far behind! It takes me a long time to write one yet it seems no matter how hard I try to proofread them they still go out with grammar errors and some inconsistencies. Most of these errors stem from the fact I change the names plus I usually have to condense the story down or I would end up writing a novel about every experience. The dialogue can be difficult too since naturally I didn’t videotape it so I have to try to recreate things as best as I can recall.

I will readily admit that I, like most people, tend to remember things the way I prefer to remember them so I am sure some of my stories are not 100% accurate but then what testimony in court ever is? I wish more people would understand that these stories are not written by a professional as you would be amazed at some of the negative criticism I get!

Before I knew it a couple of hours had sailed by and I was about to finally get dressed and go out when a window popped up and a guy asked if I wanted to watch him so I accepted. I sighed in despair as I gazed at his crotch - god he had a big cock! As he stroked it and we chatted it grew and I was touching myself f as I dreamed of sucking it and having him fuck me with it.

I sent him a few pics of me and I was thrilled when he said he would print one out to cum on for me. He stroked some more and eventually covered my pic with cum as he told me how much he would love to fuck me. As I was still wearing just the T-shirt that I’d thrown on earlier it was easy for me to play with myself while I watched. I came again just as he finished pushing his cum around on my pic with his naughty dick!

By now it was well past lunch so I showered and threw on some jeans and a baggy sweatshirt. I grabbed a bite at the cafeteria and returned to my room, bored and still horny as hell - a bitch of a combination! Jen was long gone and so was everyone else it appeared so I was left alone in our room.

Jen had left her computer on so I sneaked a peak at her picture files. She didn’t have any naughty ones but there were plenty of her and her boyfriend. A lot of the pics of her were from back in her high school cheerleading days. I copied some off for use later on my web site. Jen had no idea about my site and I wondered what she would have said if she saw some of the tributes that guys had sent me where they came on her. No doubt her first reaction would have been to be offended but I would bet that once she thought about it some more she would realize what a compliment to her they were. It was the rest of my web site that would have probably caused her to gasp! Just imagine if she read my diary!

Looking at her and her boyfriend together I imagined what it must look like when he is fucking her. He is quite good looking and she is so petite that it must be really hot! I would’ve given most anything for a nude photo of him. The way she described him fucking her, he apparently had a lot more experience than she had and she certainly loved his cock! She and I have discussed blowjobs in the past and she knew I had a lot more experience at it than she had so she would ask me for advice on how to please her boyfriend more. What she didn’t know what just how much MORE experience I had, not to mention that I would have loved to have showed her using her boyfriend as a teaching aid!

The more I looked at her pictures of her and her boyfriend the more I dreamed of what it would be like to have a threesome with them. Usually I prefer 1-1 sex but in this case it would be better to have her join us for no other reason than I would have loved to have seen her being fucked after all the times she has masturbated with me.

I love the taste of Jen’s pussy but it would be extra sweet to lick his sperm from it after he came in her pussy (something she said that he never did since she was not on the pill but hey, it was my fantasy!). It didn’t take long to lose the jeans and sweatshirt as I slouched in my desk chair to better reach my pussy. Damn it seemed I just couldn’t satisfy the poor thing today!

I played with myself as I imagined laying on a bed with Jen standing at the edge, leaning over to lick my bare pussy while her boyfriend fucked her from behind. I have to admit I think it’s so cool that my pussy is the only one she’s ever tasted and I love kissing her with her face covered by my pussy cum.

I put my feet up on the desk as I leaned back against the chair even further and used one hand to massage my clit while the other squeezed my boobs. As I rubbed myself I remembered how good it felt to have Jen lick me that first time we shared a bed together. Her tongue was so tentative at first and yet I could tell she wanted to explore me more with it. I felt my pussy grab my finger as I stroked it in and out of me like I wished her boyfriend would do at that moment. I wanted to see her face as he fucked me, see her as she realized how good I could fuck him compared to her and how much more he loved fucking me than her.

I felt my orgasm rising yet again as I dreamed of him ramming his cock deep in me, feeling him releasing his cum deep inside me - something which she would not let him do. My pussy gushed cum on my fingers as I imagined his cum filling me, exploding inside of me as groaned and told me how good he felt cumming in me. After that he would tell her to lick his cum from my pussy and I felt my orgasm grow as I imagined her cute face looking up at me as her tongue lapped up his cum from my cunt.

When my orgasm withered I flopped onto my bed and just cupped my crotch with my hand, feeling the heat and wetness against my palm. I felt a bit guilty about my fantasy. I never wanted to hurt Jen and I would have never done anything to make her jealous or upset.