Chapter 5

I return to work Monday, the next day after coming back home on Sunday after accompanying Maria on the wedding trip. Katie's in the locker area when I arrive. She hugs me and gives me a quick kiss.

"I missed you."

"I missed you too," I lie. I didn't think about her at all. I was too busy putting up a good front for Maria's family and I ended up being physically busy with Maria. I feel guilty for lying.

"Could you come over tonight?" she asks, rubbing her body against mine.

The Carter in me says "yes", specifically my penis. The Carly in me hesitates. It would be nice to have the night to myself however if Katie desires pleasure then I would give it. Oh no! I'm making justifications like a man.

"Ok."

"Great!"

Maria comes in early to start her late afternoon shift. She doesn't hold back showing affection in front of everybody by placing a kiss on my lips. Fortunately everybody is only Katie and Rachel right now but I know Maria just caused a problem and she doesn't know it. Yet.

"I really enjoyed our weekend."

Katie, obviously bothered says, "I thought you were only pretending to be her boyfriend."

Maria says, "It became more. What an amazing mouth!"

"What! With her too?" Katie says shook.

"Wait a minute!" says Maria. "You and Katie are dating and you were with me?"

"Sort of," I sputter. How did I get myself into this? Oh yeah, I'm a stupid guy right now. I do stupid things because I have no control unlike girls who have control.

"How could you?" It's a Katie and Maria duet!

"I..." As a woman, I wouldn't accept any excuse a guy would give me so how could I expect Katie or Maria to accept anything I say?

Rachel just stared. At least she couldn't add anything to Maria and Katie pounding on me.

Katie says, "I thought I loved you."

"It was just rebound sex on your part," I say.

"Can't it become true love?"

Maria says, "And I thought I was falling in love with you."

"It was just pretend," I say.

"Can't it become real?"

"I need to go," I say. There is nothing I can do or say. I should leave.

I drive off but I have to pull over into a parking lot in only a half mile and I cry. The woman soul in my male body is still strong with my emotions. Guys can be so fucking stupid! Why did I do that? I hurt both Katie and Maria.

But I'm starting to understand now.

I understand how strong a man's sex drive is. I understand that he would have sex with almost every woman if he could. So I can now understand why guys do such seemingly stupid things. It's just who they are. I just never imagined I would make the same mistakes since I am a woman inside. I should know better but male sexuality is so strong.

As I do light housekeeping in my apartment I feel much better since I have an understanding of why I do things as Carter. It doesn't help the hurts Katie and Maria are feeling but I know why guys unconsciously hurt women. I'm positive guys don't mean to hurt us. It's just an unfortunate by-product of male / female relationships.

The doorbell rings It's 7:30 at night. Katie? Maria? No, not Maria. She should be at work.

To my surprise, it's Rachel.

"Hi," she says, stepping right on in. "I saw what happened today."

"Yes," I say. What does Rachel want? Why is she here?

"And from what they said it had me really wondering."

"Wondering what?" I ask.

Just how amazing you are with your mouth!"

"Rachel," I say firmly. This is the last thing I need.

Abruptly she grabs my penis through my pants. "I can do amazing things with my mouth too."

Stupid dick! It hardens. Not only that but I'm being flooded with desire. I've made a mess of Katie and Maria yet I'm thinking about sex with Rachel? The male sex drive is incredibly powerful especially with a woman who shows interest in him. Guys want to do the right thing but that little head down below is very strong so its hard to do the right thing. Speaking of hard, I'm very hard right now.

"Show me how amazing you are. Maria said she never experienced anyone as skilled as you."

I see she got Maria to talk about it.

"Don't worry," Rachel says. "I don't want a boyfriend. I just want some fun."

My guy says "hell, yes!". My girl says, "I want to please her."

I pull Rachel to me and kiss her deeply. She responds on fire and sticks her tongue in my mouth. She's eager!

She slips down out of my arms and starts to open my pants.

I reach under her arms and pull her back up and say, "You first."

"Okay." There's a big smile on her face.

Rachel plops down on the couch, slips off her shoes, and begins to take off her jeans.

Carly says in my mind, "I don't want a sexual wet spot on my cushions". Carter says to me, "I don't care!"

I get on my knees and help Rachel take her jeans and panties the rest of the way off her legs as Rachel removes her shirt and bra. She opens her legs wide and I move in.

I give Rachel every slow gentle attention I gave Katie and I gave Maria. As a woman, or at least formally a woman in body, I know what I like and so I can give it.

"Oh god, Carter. Oh, god."

Rachel is very wet and, oh well, I'm going to have a sex spot on my couch. Maybe it will come out.

She arches her head back. She gasps out. "How can you be so soft?"

My penis is so hard now. I'm still Carly! How can I be thinking so much about being inside a woman?

"Oh god, Carter. They're so right. You're so good. I think I love you."

The last words only concern me a little bit. I'm pretty positive "I love you" is in response to how I'm making her feel.

She grinds against my face now. She's getting close.

"I want this every day," she moans.

Do I have to set up a schedule for the girls? Oh hell! I'm thinking like a guy. Only a guy would try to juggle three women.