Chapter 13

JOHN

After I hung up the phone. All my exhaustion from the week vanished. I was amped up. I felt like running laps and I hate to run. I realized that I was woefully unprepared and needed to put in some serious hours to be ready for Friday.

First of all, I didn't have much of a plan for the date. I said it was going to be a surprise, mainly because I didn't know what we were going to do in the first place. But that worried me less than then dominance/submission thing.

Fantasy is not reality, and while I'd fantasized for years about it, I also knew that reality had to be different, and taking my cues from hundreds of dirty stories was not the path to success. I knew vaguely that there are books on the subject but had never taken the time to actually read them. So late Thursday night, after a wild shopping spree on Amazon, I had a veritable library on my kindle describing the nature of D/s relationships.

Luckily I'm a fast reader, but even reading into the wee hours of the morning, I had a lot more ground to cover so I called in sick. The crisis of the beginning of the week had been solved, and the only thing remaining was the paperwork, which wouldn't get reviewed until next week at the earliest anyway. Friday turned into a cram session. A very enlightening cram session. By late afternoon, I felt like I had the beginnings of a handle on the realities of being a dominant, and how to take care of a sub. I wasn't fooling myself, and knew there's a lifetime of study going forward, but I had the basics. Mainly, I was going to take it slow, and watch carefully. Anna and I were going to have a lot of very interesting conversations in the short term, provided Kay was right and this whole thing didn't blow up in my face. No. Put that thought out of my mind, it's too late to back down. Make a plan, and follow it through.