Chapter 4

In this chapter I want to share two incidents of my happy sex life.

I had my first full sexual satisfaction by fucking a lady relative of mine who gave me that thrilling experience when I was only twelve years old. But I will not describe it as I want to protect her identity. This is because one of my friends has identified me through what I have written earlier here. Though I have carefully camouflaged the identity of persons involved to the best of my ability, yet he correctly found out that I am the author "emmaaraar". So to tease me he sent E-mail recounting about one incident mutually known. I compliment him and the next line written by me is mainly for his purpose if he keeps reading my coloumn.

"Yes friend — I am that same monkey whose house had the big stone water tub in the front".

Now I will tell readers what it is. In 1950s the traffic in the roads was mainly by horse or bullock drawn carts. Cars, buses were very few. These animals will need to drink water often especially in summer. So in front of our house a huge stone tub was kept and it was always kept filled with clean water. All the carts going on our road will stop to let the animals drink water from this tub. My grandfather was very particular that this tub should be drained and cleaned every night and it must be always kept filled up to the brim with clean water. He would say "to callously provide dirty water to the dumb animals is a greater sin than murdering a human being".

One day this friend jocularly urinated into this water tub in spite of my pleading not to do it. So I complained about it to my grandfather. Then my grandfather got very angry. He shouted to my friend "how dare you do it — water is kept for poor animals — instead of helping a good deed you are spoiling it — I will teach you a lesson". Then my grandfather gave him a sound beating. This boy went and complained to his mother that my grandfather beat him without any reason. His mother along with him came to my grandfather and politely asked why her boy was beaten. My grandfather explained the reason and then she started to severely beat her son again. My grandfather told her "stop it — I have already punished him — you need not do it". Then she stopped beating her son and replied "I did not beat him for passing urine in animal water tub — for that you have already punished him — I beat him second time for giving different punishment — he should understand that hereafter if any elder person beats him it is only because he really deserved it — he should humbly take the punishment and keep his mouth shut".

Well - That day was a happy day for me — I was very glad to see the double dose of beating received by my friend - my only regret was that my grandfather instead of keeping quiet intervened and stopped the beating halfway and spoilt my fun.

Now back to where I left.

First incident:

In 1964 my elder sister's marriage took place. For this purpose for many days in my house there were lot of activities done. One such thing was the Mangalya Pooja. (This is done by keeping and worshipping the sacred thread "Mangalya" which is a yellow cotton thread carrying several gold items. Later this thread will be tied by the bridegroom in the neck of the bride which concludes marriage). In this pooja many married ladies (who have their husband living and also who have given birth to babies) will be invited. They will be honoured with nice feast and gifts. It will earn their blessings for the bride so that she will a lead a long happy life with her husband and become mother of good children. So my house was full of many lady guests from local and from our village.

At that time I used to sleep in the upstairs hall of our house. I started to regularly masturbate from the age of 11 years and did it while in bed. On many occasions I had wet dreams also. So every day morning when I woke up there were semen stains in my bed and my trousers. It was an embarrassment for me and my sisters and at first my grandmother chided me for it. Later she advised me "you need not sleep here with us anymore - you are growing and cannot stop doing this — so sleep upstairs — but don't do it too much". So I started to sleep upstairs which allowed me to masturbate freely once or twice in the nights to my satisfaction.

For this pooja function many ladies had come from our village and some of them came to sleep in the upstairs. I had already put my bed and I was lying down. I had removed my trousers and kept it under pillow. I had covered myself with a blanket and inside it I was lying naked and I was masturbating when they came up. I had not known while going to bed that some of the guest ladies also will come and sleep in the upstairs hall.

Suddenly some half a dozen ladies came there for the purpose of sleeping and on seeing them I hastily removed my hand from my cock and covered myself completely with the blanket. I was lying on my back and I did not lose my erection immediately. My shaft still stood up pushing the blanket upward and my bulge was clearly visible. Among those ladies I knew Vasantham Aunty and Abhayam aunty.very well but others I did not know well though they were all our relatives. They all saw my erection and tittered. Vasantham aunty asked me "what boy — what you are doing". I sheepishly grinned and said "aunty — I am sleeping". They all laughed and with shame I turned to one side so that my erection will not be visible to them.

These ladies had brought mats and pillows with them and laying their bed here and there around me they sat or lied down in their beds. I waited for them to sleep to complete my masturbation but they did not sleep. They started to chat this and that and mainly about the various marriages attended by them and the amount of dowry given or taken in those marriages. I was bored with their talk and hoped they will soon stop their idle chat and go to sleep. I was uneasy to lie among them without putting trousers. I wanted to complete my masturbation and go to sleep after putting my trousers. But these ladies continued to chat and I lied awake restlessly. Abhayam aunty noticed I was lying awake. She smiled and asked "what boy — are we disturbing you with our idle talk". I said out of politeness "no aunty — it is alright". She smiled and said "look — we see eath other only in these type of occasions — so we have to talk a lot of things before we exhaust ourselves — we do not know when next chance will come to us — so bear with us today". I smiled and said "you people please talk as much as you like — I will not mind it". She said "good boy" and continued her talk with others. Then they chatted even more loudly and vigorously for a long time and their chatter stopped when one by one they fell to sleep. I also slept in the meantime.

I do not know the time but around middle of the night I woke up. The hall had a night lamp as well as a tube light. When I had lied down to sleep I had put on the night lamp and put off the tube light. But these ladies on coming there had switched on the tube light and later they did not put it off when they lied down to sleep. So the hall was well lit by both the tube light and night lamp. I saw the ladies sleeping in various poses. Near me one lady was sleeping. I knew she was from our village but did not know her name or how she was related to us. During sleep she had moved closer to me and she was lying half on her mat and half on my mat. She was sleeping on her side facing me and her top sari had fallen down considerably exposing her one breast. My head was very close to her body and I was thrilled to look at her breast. My cock rose and catching it I started to shake it slowly enjoying the nice view of her tit before me.

I was tempted to catch her balls but I was also afraid about it. I slowly raised my head and saw all were sleeping and snoring. The lady near me was also sound asleep. With some hesitation I further pulled away her sari exposing both her balls. I had now a clear close view of both balls under her white blouse and bodice. I eagerly looked at them for a considerable time. She was soundly sleeping and I was tempted to open her blouse and look at her naked tits.

Very slowly I again pulled the blouse. It had only press buttons and when I tugged the buttons opened and now her blouse completely opened. She had worn a bodice which also had press buttons. I was fearful to further try my luck but could not resist the temptation. I tugged at the bodice and the buttons opened and her balls came outside.

Her balls were nice and round. She had dark big nipples. I wanted to put them in my mouth and suck them. But I did not have the courage. So I watched her tits in fascination and increased the tempo of my masturbation. I moved and kept my head on her pillow and my mouth was as near her balls as possible but I did not get the boldness to suck her nipples.

Probably because I had opened her tits fully she felt some chillness in her breast. She automatically pulled her sari over them. Then sensing her tits were open she woke up and looked at her breast. I got scared and immediately moved my head away from her. She noticed my movement and stared at me. My mouth got dried and I fearfully moved further from her. I turned to other side and lied down with fear. I knew that after noticing the open condition of her blouse and bodice she will understand what I did. I was afraid she will loudly curse and scold me and wake up the others. I tremblingly prayed to God to save me from her wrath.

Surprisingly she did not raise any alarm and all was quite for sometime. I tensely waited in suspense and when nothing happened for a considerable time I slowly turned. I saw she was again lying down facing me. She gave me two more surprises. She grinned at me and further she had not at all covered her breasts. Both her tits were open and free and my eyes got glued to them.

She caught my shoulder and pulled me closer to her. When I moved closer she asked in a very soft voice "what boy — what do you want". I was dumb with surprise and did not know what to answer. She took her one nipple and offered it to me. I was now very happy and immediately I moved my face to her breast and mouthing her tit I started to suck it with relish.

She moved her hand inside my blanket to my crotch and felt there. My nakedness should have surprised her and she caught my penis in her hand. My penis was limp but now it started to grow. Its size should have surprised her because she urgently moved her hand all over my penis feeling the full measure of it. Her nice rubbing increased my sensation and my cock grew larger and bolder and started its beat. She gripped my shaft and gently moved her fingers on the entire length of my shaft increasing my pleasure.

Then she lifted her head and took a quick glance at others. All were fast asleep. Then she immediately flipped my bed sheet away and my cock got exposed. She took a long look at my pulsating cock. She looked at me in surprise and admiration. Then moving very close to me she said in hushed tone "aaha — you have wonderful penis — I cannot now remain quiet — I want to put it immediately inside me — come — do it to me now". I shyly said "aunty — others are here". She frowned and looked at me in some confusion. Then she said "but I want to enjoy with your nice thing — can we quietly go somewhere else where we can do it".

In our house originally the upstairs hall was very big with a big nice teakwood swing hanging in the middle. But the hall roof was old Madras type ceiling with teakwood beams. Later we changed it to concrete roof when an additional thick wall was built in the middle to support the weight of concrete ceiling. So the hall got divided into two rooms. The swing was put in one room. Previously when it was in the middle of the big hall we used to swing and run around it with gay abandon. One will sit in it and swing and another will run around it in circles as close as possible to the swing. One sitting should try to kick the other running around. If one does ten rounds without getting kicked he was declared winner and otherwise he was loser. Loser will do 10 sit ups (thoppukaranam) to the winner. It was a game for us and we maintained scores also. Now the swing in the smaller room got cramped and looked poor in comparison to its original splendor and so lost its charm for us. So that portion was seldom used by us. I softly said "aunty — we can go to swing room — it is vacant". She immediately said "take me there". We got up without making any noise to go to the other room. I took my trousers to put it on but aunty giggled and said "it is not needed". I smiled and carried my trousers in my hand and went naked and aunty was all along holding my rocking cock in her hand and did not let it go for a second. Fortunately all were sleeping and none saw us in that condition.

As soon as we entered the swing room she urgently pushed me to the floor and I lied down with my pole standing up like a crowbar. The swing room did not have any light and I vaguely saw her lifting her sari and petticoat above her hips and had a glimpse of her white hip and thighs. She brought my penis and pressed it to her cunt. Then she sat on me quickly sinking my shaft inside her cunt. Though she was not very big woman yet she had a deep cunt and my cock entered and filled her hole nicely. Her cunt tunnel tightly gripped my penis. Her cunt was hot and soothing to my cock. Then she moved her hip up and down on my cock and she vigorously fucked me. The fast friction caused by her movement on my cock aroused a beautiful sensation in my cock and every atom of my body danced in delight. I caught her balls and crushed her nipples. She giggled and said "good — you are very good in fucking". She increased the speed of her movement and I grabbed her buttocks and moved her up and down to increase the friction on my cock. May be we fucked for two or three minutes only and the sensation was too much for me and my semen arose to shooting point and I could not hold it any more. Then I violently ejaculated inside her with a little cry of joy. Her cunt tunnel gripped my heaving cock very tightly and she kept on moving her hip up and down till I was totally spent and my cock lost its rigidity inside her cunt.

Then she lied on me. We both were breathing very heavily. When she got composed she said "thank you — I enjoyed it very much". I said "I should thank you aunty — you gave me wonderful experience". She asked me "is this your first time". I shyly said "no aunty — previously sometimes I have done this". She asked "with whom". I remained quiet as I did not want to tell her about my previous fucking experience with another lady relative. She asked again "did you go to prostitutes". I said "no". She laughed and again asked "then with whom else — do you keep a concubine". I said "no — I have done it with another aunty — but I will not tell the name". She giggled and said "that is fine for me — now keep my name also very secret".

I had not known her at all though she was my relative. So I asked a bit hesitatingly "aunty — I do not remember your name". She said "why — don't you know me". I confessed that I could not place her. Then she told her name as "Vidhya" and also told me how she was related to us and the three or four occasions she had come to our house. We had lot of relatives and for each celebration large number of guests came to attend them. (My daughter's wedding was attended by close to 1000 people and roughly one third of them were our relatives). So I did not remember the instances mentioned by her or meeting her in them. I lamely said "sorry aunty — I forgot". She giggled and said "it is okay — but you fuck nicely - you should be only about 11 years old now — because I remember that some ten years back I attended your ayush homam (pooja done when the child completes one year)". I said "aunty I am thirteen now". She said "it is fine — at that time of your ayush homam itself I saw that you had a nice long penis — after that though I have seen you three or four times I could not see your penis — but some ladies told me you have a very beautiful penis — now I have seen it - now it has grown really big and beautiful — and now you fuck nicely like a grown up experienced man — you are really great". I felt happy as well as embarrassed by her words and said "don't tease me aunty".

While we were speaking and remaining embracing each other in the swing room, some noise was heard in the other room. Vidhya aunty got up from me and she buttoned her blouse and bodice. Then dropping down her sari and petticoat she said "I will go now — you come little later" and went to other room. I got up and wore my trousers. I heard some lady asking Vidhya aunty about where she had gone. Aunty replied "I went down below to bathroom". The other lady said "you need not go down — there is bathroom here". Vidhya aunty said "I did not know it". After sometime all got quiet and I slowly came and peeped into the main hall. I noticed some ladies including Abhayam aunty sitting on their beds. I quietly went and lied down on my bed. Abhayam aunty looked at me and smiled. I was afraid that she may ask me where I had gone. But she only yawned and again lied down to sleep.

I lied down and again I saw Vidhya aunty lying near me. She was lying facing me and when I lied down she grinned at me. I also grinned. She furtively signaled to me not to fall asleep and I grinned and nodded.

We waited for sometime looking and smiling at each other and watched the others. When she was sure all were sleeping she winked to me with a grin and I also grinned. Then she slowly brought her head near me and said "you get up and switch off tube light — if someone objects say you are not able to sleep with tube light on". I got up and went to light switch. Nobody spoke anything but I said generally "I am not able to sleep with table light put on — night lamp is enough". I switched off tube light and came and lied down in my bed. Now the hall had only very dim light of night lamp.

After a minute she said to me "mosquitoes are biting me — your blanket is big — shall I cover myself also with it". (For sleeping these ladies had only brought mat and pillow and no blankets with them). I said "okay" and she pulled a portion of my blanket and covered her body. Now we both were lying under one blanket.

A little later I noticed that underneath the blanket her hands did something in her hip. Then her hands came to my hip and undid my trousers and she pulled it down my legs. She gripped my cock and it was already half raised. She nicely massaged my cock with her fingers. It again became rock solid and beat faster. She then grinned and said softly "I have loosened my sari and petticoat — come — do it with me". Grinning I moved closer to her and she pulled and guided my cock to her cunt. Her cunt was wet and hot and ready for me. I slowly pushed and my cock entered her hole and soon I was completely inside her. My belly and legs were pressed to her belly and legs.

But I did not know how to move and fuck her while lying side by side. I tried to make some movement for my cock to go and come out of her cunt. My movement was clumsy and not at all sufficient for the fast fuck to build up the heat and pressure in my cock. I was confused and tried to bang her more forcefully. She noticed my clumsy attempt and smiled and softly asked "what — you do not know what to do". I grinned foolishly. She slightly turned her head and saw the others and ensured all were asleep.

She said softly "open your legs — I will lie between your legs - put one leg over my hip and lock me — then fuck". I was lying on my left side so I lifted my right leg up and she deftly moved herself between my legs and pressed my cock deeper into her cunt. Then I placed my right leg circling her hip and I locked her to me. We were covered by the blanket and if anyone saw us, it will look innocent enough as if I had thrown my leg over her during sleep. Now I could move my cock in and out of her more freely and I happily fucked her. She rubbed my buttocks and testicles to increase my pleasure and soon I ejaculated a second time inside her. I grinned in extreme happiness at her and she smiled and softly said "beautiful — I will not forget this day in my life". I happily grinned and she asked me "do you want to do it again — if not we can separate and sleep". With my two successive and deep ejaculations I was tired and feeling very much sleepy. So I said "aunty — let us sleep now".

Then we separated and she made her petticoat and sari proper and turned the other side to sleep. I also properly put my trousers and soon slept very soundly.

The next day all the ladies were very busy with various chores connected with the function. I did not go to school that day. Several times I saw Vidhya aunty and we smiled at each other but other than that we could not talk anything.

The function and the feast were over by 11 AM and later these ladies again went upstairs to take rest. I also went upstairs but though I eagerly looked for it, I did not get any opportunity to be alone with Vidhya aunty. Then around 3 PM all went downstairs for their coffee and snacks. At that time Vidhya aunty purposely lingered in the upstairs and also furtively signaled to me that I also should remain there. Understanding her signal I also remained there. When we were alone I looked eagerly at her. She smiled and said "I also want it badly — but are you sure that we can remain alone for some time without anyone coming in the middle". I had no answer. I lamely said "usually none comes to swing room". She then said "let us go there — but fucking is not advisable — I will quickly masturbate you — is it okay". I grinned and said "okay". We went to swing room. For the function I had put on underwear and wore a silk dhoti. I removed my dhoti and let out my cock from underwear. Standing before me she caught my cock and speedily masturbated me. She said "when water comes tell me" and I nodded. With powerful grip she vigorously shook my cock and soon I was ready to shoot. I said "aunty — it is coming". She stopped and knelt before me and immediately placed my cock inside her mouth.

It was my first time when someone mouthed my cock. In my previous fucking experiences with another lady relative of me, I had fucked her only in her cunt. So with a little shock I tried to pull out my cock from her mouth and move away. But she caught my buttocks and held me and thrust my cock more into her mouth. I was already beginning to shoot and so I let go and she gulped all the semen shooting into her mouth. Later when my ejaculation ended she kept on sucking my cock for sometime till it went limp in her mouth.

She quickly got up and said "good boy — we had a nice time — I will pray to God that we can do like this many more times in future — you also similarly pray". Then she quickly went down. After sometime I also went down.

In the evening she left for her place. Afterwards, I had seen her on many occasions but we did not get any further opportunity to be together. Over those years she gracefully aged, but still I got tempted by her body and look whenever we met. On every occasion I met her, I fondly looked at her in eagerness and she always gave me a knowing smile and wink. But beyond that we could do nothing more. Regretfully she died when I was in my thirties.

Second incident:

In 1966 my sacred thread wearing ceremony was held in our ancestral village. It was actually planned to be held in 1965 in the city in grand scale. But suddenly war broke out between our country and Pakistan. Our Prime Minister Lal Bhadur Shastri made an appeal to all citizens to avoid all celebrations and instead give the money to the defense fund. So the function was held in the next year. I had gone to our village a few days earlier and my family members came there a little later. One of my aunt was living in a different village a few miles away. She was always complaining that we never visited her. So for some three days I went and stayed with her to pacify her. As there was no public conveyance to her village that time, my cousin brought me by his motor cycle and dropped me there and left.

That village was more interior and much undeveloped at that time. Houses had no toilets and only open fields were used for doing ablutions. I had gone to her house one evening and next day morning I had to go to open fields to finish my toilet. Her servant, one old woman called Pappathal came with me to the sugarcane fields and pointed to some bushes some distance away and told me to finish my toilet behind them. Then she sat on the ground and started to prepare her beetal leaf "paan". I went and squatted behind a bush but having accustomed to only closed room toilets I did not immediately finish toilet. I remained sitting with the cool morning air beating on my naked buttocks and cock. My cock stirred and stood up and catching it I was very slowly masturbating.

In the meantime I saw two ladies coming in the fields. One was a very old lady and she did not interest me. But another was about some 30 years, dark and robustly built. She was carrying a basket on her head. She was not wearing any blouse and behind her sari her big balls were swinging nicely. I watched her with interest. On seeing Pappathal these woman went near her and they started talking. Then the older woman went away. But the younger woman then took the basket from her head and kept it on the ground and sat near Pappathal. Then she took some beetal leaves and tobacco from Pappathal and started to make paan for herself. Then they chatted while chewing their paan. I was idly watching the robust woman while leisurely playing with my stiff cock.

Suddenly one black beetle came running from somewhere and chasing it behind came a very big bush lizard. I am afraid of these insects and so with a cry of alarm I stood up and moved away from the bush. Hearing my cry Pappathal and the other woman looked up and then they both got up and came near me. Pappathal asked me what it was and I fearfully pointed out the bush lizard. It had caught the beetle and it was eating it with a crunching sound. Then both the women laughed. Then Pappathal took a some stone and threw it on the lizard and it ran away elsewhere. Then she told me "don't fear these things — they are harmless". Then she saw the place where I had been squatting and finding no shit there she asked me "have not you finished your toilet yet". I nodded my head negatively. Then she saw my cock but she did not show any reaction and only said "do it and come — then I will take you to pump house for your bath". She turned and moved away.

The other lady stood watching me with a smile and her eyes were riveted to my cock. Though it was only half limp now yet it was big, shiny and beating up and down slowly. I saw her look and I was embarrassed. I covered my cock with my palm and she tittered. She said "what sir — you have such a big mountain snake with you but you are afraid of a small lizard — don't worry — next time if the lizard comes, just show your mountain snake to it and it will run away from this village itself". I was embarrassed and she loudly laughed. Pappathal got angry. She turned and shouted "don't speak non-sense to Sir — shut your stinking mouth and come away". Then that lady said "don't get angry — I am coming" and moved away. But before going she again smiled and winked at me and I was more embarrassed by her act. While she was walking I saw her plump buttocks nicely moving inside her sari and got a thrill watching their up and down rolling dance.

Then I squatted again. I did not want to remain there anymore with the bush lizard lurking somewhere near. I quickly finished my toilet. During this I saw the other lady going away with her basket after finishing her talk with Pappathal.

After finishing toilet I came from the bushes and Pappathal took me to pump house. While walking I asked "who is that woman". Pappathal said "she is Poovamma - worker in the fields — useless woman — always looking where to get free paan and tobacco". Then we came to pump house used for pumping water to the fields from a big open well. She asked me "will you swim in the well". Though I knew swimming I had done it only in swimming pools with the supervision of coach. So I said "no — I will put on motor and take bath in the pipe". She gave me the fuse plug for the motor and said "I will go for doing other works in the house — after bath when you return bring the fuse plug also". She then left. I went to pump house and put the fuse and started motor. I removed my clothes and wearing only undergarment I came and stood near the pipe from which water was falling. I was about to move under the falling water when I heard a loud hissing sound.

In fields hissing sound is always associated with snakes and so I fearfully turned and looked. I saw Poovamma standing half hidden behind some plantain trees at a little distance. I looked at her and she beckoned me to come to her. I did not understand and asked her "what do you want". She gestured me for silence by placing a finger on her lips. Then she pointed out to the pump house and gestured to ask whether Pappathal was inside. I said "she has gone". Then with a big smile Poovamma came near me and said "what sir — what are you doing here". I said "I am going to take bath". She laughed and said "what sir — don't you want something else". With a grin she made pumping motion on her cunt and I also grinned. She said "come — we will go to motor room". She went inside motor room and I followed her, watching in fascination the rolling dance of her big buttocks.