Chapter 1

May 2

Dear Diary:

Last night Mom brought her boyfriend home. It's not the first time he's been over. In fact, he's been coming over a lot since they met a year and a half ago. It's the first time he's been here over night. Usually we just have dinner and play a few games, then I go off to bed while they're still talking. I lay awake until I hear the door close, when he's gone.

Well, tonight, I heard Mom come in and she came in and pulled up the covers and kissed my forehead. She closed the door when she left and that woke me up. She never does that. So I waited in bed for a while then crept to the door and opened it just a little bit. I heard voices. Coming from mom's room. So, I crept over to her door and looked under the crack and in the dim light I saw mom's heels and her dress on the floor and another pair of men's shoes with the pants laying there next to them. I didn't know what to think.

I went back to my room and closed the door and sat on the floor with my back against it. Pretty soon I heard her door open and listened as the whispers faded down the hall. I snuck into mom's room and hid in the closet. I used to do this on Christmas eve when I knew she was wrapping my presents.

It was a long time before they came back in, but I had a burning curiosity to know what was going on. They came back in and mom had on her bath robe. He had on his shirt, which was unbuttoned and his socks. He had hairy legs. Mom carried two of the good wine glasses from the hutch and he had a big, black bottle. Mom sat the glasses down and helped him open the bottle. There was a small pop when the top came off in the towel Mom held over it.

She went over and listened at the door for a few seconds then came back. He was sitting on the bed and she sat astride his lap. She's always told me young ladies don't sit in men's laps, so I was shocked. He handed her one of the glasses of some bubbly stuff he'd poured.

"How do you think Margot's gonna take it?" He asked her after a sip.

"I don't know. She seems to like you. That's half the battle." She shrugged then sat her glass down. I wondered what I was gonna have to take.

When she turned back to him she kissed him. It wasn't like when she kisses me on the forehead or the cheek. She put her mouth on his and kissed him for a long time. I've never seen her do that either. Her hands were busy, too. She put them under his shirt and seemed to be rubbing his chest. He was doing the same, too. He completely untied her robe and let it fall from her shoulders. She was wearing her pretty lace bra she'd bought when we went shopping last month. She was showing me my choices because she said I'd soon have to wear one too. It was true, my nipples were a little bigger and my chest was starting to swell in two places.

He stopped kissing her mouth and began kissing her neck and shoulders then he paused at her breasts and I drew my breath in. He wasn't! What was Mom thinking? He kissed her all over her two breasts and then removed them gently from each cup. He kissed each nipple gently and then began to suck on each one. Mom threw her head back and sighed.

Now, it seems to me this must be what Sue and Tony were giggling about. They were talking about some of the things they'd seen their mom and dad do when they were supposed to be in bed. I'd just thought it was something they had to do since they were married. Like a punishment or something. But, Mom wasn't married to Tom and she wasn't acting like she was being punished.