Chapter 1

"I wish it didn't have to be this way." I said.

"I'm not blaming you or anything," she replied somberly "it just sucks, the whole situation..."

she was right, it would have been better if there was someone to blame, someone who's fault it could be, so that we could just be angry with them and be over it. it wasn't that simple though, nothing ever is.

Heather was my girlfriend. We had been dating for the last six months, and now with summer nearly over and the two of us going to different colleges the future looked grim. I wanted to go to the same college as her, but got rejected. it wasn't even a real rejection, i was put onto "the wait list" because they had too many applicants of acceptable standing, or whatever terminology it was they used. point was, i didn't make it in, and so we had to go to different universities.

we were going to try for a long distance relationship. even if we managed to stay together, we still wouldn't get to see each-other in person. We could barely stand how little alone time we got now, it was going to be hell to have to go weeks or even months without each other.

"lets not worry about what's to come" she said as if reading my mind "let's just have now..." she got into her bed next to me. whenever her parents were actually both gone we'd try to spend time together. her dad worked an office job, but her mom was half stay at home mom, half e-bay home business runner. That meant that her mom spent most of her time at home, keeping one eye on her auction bids, on eye on her pot roast, and one eye on the two of us. i still haven't figured out where that third eye came from, but every time our cuddling time turned into making out she was there to "check on us."

my place was out of the question. My Parents were usually gone, but i had nosy neighbors and nosy siblings. assuming i actually snuck her into my house without the paranoid old woman across the street sending my dad an e-mail report, one of my brothers or sisters would tell my mom if my room door was closed for more than a minute.

With no place outside the house either, we were left with whatever time her mom spent at the grocery store. she would never leave while I was there, but if she left and i made it over to her place in time we could get a good fifteen minutes together. Then her mom would come home and we'd have to act natural. i was sure to show up enough when her mom wasn't gone so she would catch on that we were planning it.

"how much time do you think we have?" i asked as i got up to get some water for the two of us.

"about five minutes, ten if we're lucky"

"damn"

when i came back she was still laying in her loft bed. i climbed up the foot after putting the water on her nightstand. i paused briefly when i noticed a hole in her jeans. there were lots of holes in her jeans really, but this one was right on the crotch. She really was a beautiful girl, she had silky skin with an slight tan, short brown hair to match her light brown eyes. She wasn't stick thin, which was just fine with me, she wasn't fat though, just comfortably fit; the type of fit that looks good on a girl, like how her hips filled her jeans, and kept her soft and cushiony when she sat on my lap. her breasts were nice C cups, and they held up fine without a bra, which she rarely wore if she didn't have to.

in fact, she didn't wear panties all that much either, thats partly what caught my eye. it wasn't a very big hole in her jeans, but it was just big enough to see that she wasn't wearing anything under those pants. i was looking at the cleanly shaven edge of her lip, with just the hint of pink showing.

i almost laughed. it felt like such a treat to see that since i had never actually seen her naked. with so little time together at any given time, we had only ever gotten to third base, and even then it was only with my hand down her pants. with the possibility of her parents arriving at any time, we couldn't risk being caught with our pants down. the most i had seen of her were here breasts, not that I'm complaining about her breasts.

i decided to let it go, i doubt she'd mind that i saw her, but i figured she wasn't in the mood. i continued into the bed and held her next to me. "ten minutes?"

"at most, more like 8 now" she pointed out, then kissed me "but whose counting."

i slowly brought my mouth to hers and placed my hand on her back. i gently slipped my toung into her mouth and hers into mine as we both began to breath heavily. she pressed her chest against me, letting me know what she wanted, and i worked my hand around to her stomach and caressed up into her shirt.

i could felt her heart beat intensely as i massaged her breast. lightly at first, then a little harder. she let out a little moan as i ever so lightly pinched her nipple, causing her to hold her breath for second.

she pulled her face away "i want you" she let out before pulling me in again.

i ran my hand down her chest, over her naval and into the top of her jeans, then slowed down as i slid my hand down the velvety soft skin of her crotch. "you shaved?"

"i wanted to see how it-" she gasped as my hand made contact with her clit "... felt" i slowly rubbed her clit until she got nice and wet, then rubbed my finger up and down her slit, pushing it in a little more each time.

i knew from talking to her before that a finger is as much as she's ever had inside her, and i was her first, besides her own, to be in her. but from that angle and with her pants having to stay on, i could only go so far in. i pulled away from kissing her and caught my breath "I'm guna try something"

"okay" she breathed.

i took my hand out of her pants, and put it on her crotch over her jeans. i lightly rubbed her exposed lips through the hole in her jeans.

she gasped slightly "i... forgot that was there..."

she readjusted a little and i was able to slide an inch of my middle finger in through the hole of her jeans and past her waiting lips, then slowly slid it the rest of the way in, pushing it deep into her.

she let out what would have been a moan if she hadn't been breathing in as i curved my finger around to push on her g-spot. "ah... yes..." she managed to say.