Chapter 6

Last night all seemed like a bad dream. Surrealistic. Rick's rough sex with me. The idea of me being a stripper!But the reality all set in this morning with the sun streaming into the windows and sitting here with my cup of coffee.

You may wonder a little about me, wonder why I would take off with these two shady characters and leave my old life behind. Well, the answer is much too complicated to give a simple reason. I had been very lonely for a long time. I was trapped in a loveless marriage for years. To a man who could not show me any physical emotion. Sure, he showered me with every possible material thing I could possibly want. Nice clothes, jewelry, beautiful things for the house and every gadget one could think of.

But what I wanted was love. And sex. Something he hadn't given me in more than a decade. I knew he loved me in his own way and buying me things was his way of showing it. We went about our daily lives with a routine like every married couple. The children were practically all grown now and making their way out into the world. I guess what I had been going through was the typical "empty nest" syndrome.

I tried to fill my long days with different interests which I had many. Also a pc my husband had given me. For awhile, it really helped my loneliness, I met alot of people online and quite a few men had fallen in love with me through this new tool of technology. If that is truly possible to fall in love that way. I think they fall in love with an image of what they percieve the person to be, not what the person is actually all about. And vice versa. Although I have known people who it actually worked for, people with less complicated lives who met somone online and then met in real life and continued the love relationship and went on to blissfull happiness. I guess those are the lucky few.

I guess my pc wouldn't be my magic genie lamp to rub and bring me my secret wishes. For awhile I had thought it was though. I had met a guy who I was crazy about and he was nuts about me, too. We were so happy for a long time with our daily chats and dreams for the future. But that's exactly what they turned out to be. Dreams. And pipe dreams at that! Life got in the way. For both of us. Things were too complicated in our real worlds with our spouses and families and we were living this separate fantasy life on the internet.

I was so in love with him I probably would've tossed my real life away for him not knowing what it would've brought me. But he couldn't do the same. We still chatted some after that but things were different, especially with him. I still longed for his love and wanted things to be the way they were when we first "met". But that's all in the past now. I still think of him every day and wonder what his life is like and if he ever thinks of me. I will love him forever I know.

"Baby!" I was startled by his voice from the bedroom as I sat here with my coffee cup and dreams about the past. It jolted me into reality and the thoughts of my new life now with Rick in Las Vegas. I had to start thinking of this whole mess Rick had gotten us into and the trouble with Big Roy!The thought of me being a stripper was frightening to say the least. But I looked at it as a challenge and a way of helping Rick out with his debt to this guy. I just hoped I could pull it off. No pun intended!

That night we all headed out to the "The Round Up". It was out on the edge of town in a very quiet section of Vegas. It was a big brown rustic looking building that looked as if it had two stories. We could hear music blasting from inside. There were assorted vehicles parked outside and a few motorcycles, too.

We all walked in together and went up to the bar, an assortment of people, some cowboys, truckers, hard looking women and just regular looking guys milling about, some at side tables near the stage and some couples were dancing to some country western song.

Everyone turned around when we walked in. Rick asked the bartender where would we find Big Roy? He motioned to a door at the back of the club with a do not enter sign. PRIVATE it said. We knocked on it and the big blonde bimbo opened it up, blew a bubble with her chewing gum practically right in Rick's faceWe followed her fat ass into his office. He sat behind an enormous wooden desk under a stuffed antler head. He was talking on the phone and smoking a fat cigar. He motioned all of us to sit down.

Justin decided to go out to the bar and have a drink and check out the joint. Rick and I sat there looking at his office and waiting for his phone conversation to finish. He told his girlfriend to leave and she did. He told me"Stand up little filly so I can get a better look!"Turn around!"Yeah, you'll do fine!"It won't be for long, as soon as your boyfriend's debt to me is paid, you'll all be free to leave. "One of his "stable girls" came in and brought me upstairs and showed me what would be expected of me, she took my measurements and gave them to Big Mama(Roy's first wife I think!)who was a seamstress and she was to outfit me in a little costume. A bra top and a fringed mini skirt with spiked heels and a cowboy hat. Going for a western theme I surmised!

Everyone was really nice to me and the other girls were very helpful and told me big Roy was good to work for if you played by his rules. Tomorrow during the day, they'd help me with my routine. They said it was a piece of cake, just strut around, shake my ass and dance around the pole and I'd be fine. They told me the guys would really love me because I looked very young and innocent. I laughed nervously.