Chapter 31

“I don’t know how I feel about this,” I said

We had gone back down into the houseboat to change into something just a little warmer - the sun had already dipped behind the rockface around the bay, and the sky was a deep purple and blue. The temperature wasn’t supposed to drop too far, but it would fall a little cooler just like any other spot in the desert.

Cassidy pulled her thin sweater over her head and her bust. “Talk to me, Tiger. What’s wrong?”

I sighed and sat on the corner of the bed. “I feel like- I don’t know. Cass, I feel guilty for kissing Becca. And I know you said you wanted me to do these things, but that wasn’t just a peck or a kiss between friends. Becca wants to sleep with me, and I’m attracted to her. It feels wrong.”

Cassidy got on her knees on the bed beside me and hugged me, resting her head on my shoulder. “It’s not, Robbie. It’s not wrong. How would you feel if none of this happened, and I suggested a threesome to you and told you Becca was interested?”

I took a moment to consider that. “I don’t know,” I finally said. “I think I would have been surprised, asked why you wanted a threesome, and then excited. But I don’t know that, I’m just guessing.”

“Oh, Robbie,” Cassidy sighed, and I could hear the soft sob in her voice. “I’m so sorry.”

“I know,” I said, hugging my arm around her and then pulling her around to sit in my lap. She straddled me, and we hugged each other close as she put her forehead on my shoulder and talked into my chest.

“I want this for you, Tiger,” she said. “You know that, right? I want this to be fun for you. I wasn’t exaggerating before, I want you to know what it’s like for a bunch of women to worship you because you deserve it.”

“But that’s why it feels weird,” I said. “All of these tricks you’ve set up, the perks ... It feels like it’s wrong.”

“I knew you would worry about that,” Cassidy said. We were both talking quietly the whole time, still aware that anyone could be out in the hallway and overhear us, but now Cassidy was whispering. “That’s why I only picked perks that enhance you and don’t change how people would think. Nothing that happens this week is going to be something that anyone doesn’t want to have happen, OK? Anyone who gets frisky has their full faculties - well, OK, some of them might be drunk and we’ll have to call that by ear, but the App isn’t taking away anyone’s ability to say No.”

I sighed, holding her to me, and then nodded. “I think I can handle that. I think, if it’s something they actually want, I can enjoy it.”

“Thank you for trying,” Cassidy said, squeezing me. “But there’s something else, isn’t there?”

I nodded.

“It’s me kissing the others,” Cassidy guessed.

“I don’t know how I’m going to react, Cass,” I said. “Part of me, the really horny part, wants to see you making out with any of them. I’m still having a bit of a time even wrapping my head around you being bi. But the other part of me, the part that-” I stopped, not wanting to say it to her.