Chapter 305

“I actually have a question,” Wanda said.

“I’m an open book,” Cassidy replied, immediately feeling a little tightness in her gut because she knew that she was holding back the one thing that might blow this whole thing apart. She would tell them if Robbie wanted her to, but he hadn’t decided yet so Cassidy was set on not revealing the App until Robbie said to. The reality of the situation was, she didn’t think the App was important to what was between the girls and Robbie. It very specifically involved her relationships, not other people’s. She was mostly sure that the biggest impact it was having was that the ladies in the room, and Ami, believed her more when she said she was more than OK with them having sex or developing relationships with Robbie.

“When we ... Well, a lot of you already know - when we hooked up on that first night, what were you actually thinking when it was me and not one of the single girls?” Wanda asked.

Cassidy flushed a little. “Honestly? I wasn’t really thinking about that at all. You said you had an arrangement with your husband, and that was good enough for me. You were beautiful, you were really nice, and you were interested and into him, Wanda. It was our first time, so if anything I thought maybe you were a safe person to experiment with because you were sure of your relationship.”

Wanda smiled a little sadly. “OK,” she nodded. “I was just curious and hadn’t asked you yet.”

“I mean, if I’m being totally honest...” Cassidy looked at Cattie for a moment and pressed her lips together. “If there was any non-single person I wanted to end up in bed with Robbie, or with both of us if Robbie wanted that, it was Cattie. Before this week I thought maybe she and Heather would be interested in fooling around with Robbie together.”

That brought several light scoffs and snorts from the group as they all smirked and shook their heads. The idea of that now, after everything that had happened, seemed completely alien.

“Are you worried at all?” Leia asked quietly. “About sharing him?”

Cassidy nodded and then shrugged. “Yes, but not in a jealous way or anything. More like ... about peripheral stuff. I really like each of you, and I’m sure we’ll butt heads over things sometimes, but we can figure it out. I’m more thinking about our families, or Robbie’s co-workers, or your families. I mean, Robbie loves you guys, but we’ve been isolated from the world on this trip and family has a way of changing things and I don’t want you or him to get hurt if someone changes their minds. I just know that I’m in it now and I won’t change mine.”

“Is that what he pulled you into the washroom to ask about?” Becca guessed. “To give you one last chance to pull back?”

Cassidy smiled sadly, still a little in awe of how in tune Robbie and Becca were with the way they thought about things. She knew him, but it was earned after years of being with each other. Becca just instinctively got him. “Honestly, girls, I think he’s more worried than any of us. I- I think his biggest nightmare right now is hurting any of you by failing to be the partner you need, and that includes me. Becca is right, he did give me one last chance to cool all this stuff off - it would have killed him to do it, but he’s the kind of man who wants to handle short-term pain over letting it build long-term. If I wasn’t sure, I’d be the one causing the most problems down the road, so he needed to give me that chance. Obviously, I didn’t take it.”