Chapter 6

Hannah tried to go through the next few days with a semblance of normalcy. But everywhere she looked, she’d see a familiar face. Not the familiar face of someone she’d met, but the familiar face of someone she’d seen naked, face contorted in expressions of ecstasy, awash in sexual pleasure.

Econ was typically one of her favorite subjects. But as she sat in class she found her mind wandering to the pictures Jessica had shown her. Terri, the TA she’d seen fucking and sucking in several of the pictures, at the front of the lecture hall was dressed demurely in jeans and a conservative turtleneck, passing slides to their professor as he opined on supply curves. But Hannah just kept thinking about the pictures of Terri she just seen in which she was lost in wonton lust.

“Snap out of it, girl” She told herself. “At least think of your grades.”

They broke into study sections and Terri took the to the front of the classroom, confidently leading a Q&A session about the subjects they’d previously covered. Hannah couldn’t reconcile the sharp, dignified upperclassmen she saw with the depraved slut in the photographs.

Later that day, Hannah sat in her room listening to music and doing homework. A familiar and rapid, but gentle knocking emerged from the front door of her suite. She heard Charlotte get up to open it, and continued her homework.

“Oh hi Jessica,” Hannah heard Charlotte say. “You’re here to see Hannah, I assume?”

Charlotte led Jessica to Hannah’s room. “Um, I guess I’ll let you two talk...” she said awkwardly. Charlotte had also begun to enjoy Jessica’s company, and hoped to join the girls for a chat, but didn’t want to intrude.

Jessica smiled at her and touched her arm, which caused Charlotte to flinch a bit. “We’ll all hang out soon-maybe a movie night? But I have some things I need to talk about with Hannah now.”

Charlotte beamed at the prospect of a potential future hangout, and left the room, closing the door behind her to give the two girls some privacy.

Jessica was dressed outright demurely today, in a normally fitting pair of jeans and a sleeveless blouse.

“I hope I didn’t freak you, Hannah,” Jessica began. “But you asked me a question, and the only way I really knew how to answer it was to show you.”

Hannah stood and faced away from Jessica, thinking for a few moments.

When she turned around to face Jessica she looked thoughtful.

“Look ... what you do for fun ... its your business. And I like you. I don’t want to judge you. But ... it’s not right. And I don’t see how so many people on campus can be part of this!” “It’s not right?” Jessica asked calmly. “Fucking’s not right? It’s how we all got here. It’s the most natural thing in the world. It’s something that gives incredible pleasure to everyone involved. How can that not be right?”

Jessica went on: “I’d get if this were coming from Charlotte-I’m sure the girl has all sorts of hang-ups and false notions floating around in her head. But where is this coming from with you, Hannah?

“Sex is supposed to be about love! It’s supposed to be with someone who respects you! Don’t you feel degraded?”