Chapter 62

When I walked towards the cook, I couldn’t help but wonder why he wanted to talk with me. Sure, I can understand he was maybe curious about why I was running around naked among all those boys. I, for sure, would also be interested when I saw a naked man running around a bunch of Girl Scouts.

When I got closer, I noticed he had a neatly folded, fresh red towel in his hand.

“Hello again,” he said with a smile. “Do you mind if we sit somewhere a little more private?”

I shook my head and said, “No, no problem at all.”

“Follow me,” he said, and then he started to walk towards the big tent. I followed him.

Inside, I noticed a prominent empty place to the right, the area covered about the size of the tables outside.

“Let’s go sit over there,” he said, pointing at a small table to the left with a few chairs around it.

When we reached the table, he turned around and said, “If you don’t mind. Could you maybe cover your body with this towel? It would make me feel a little more comfortable talking to you.”

I just nodded my head and accepted the towel. After I had wrapped it around my body, I was covered from just above my breasts all the way down to my knees.

He pulled out a chair for me and let me sit on it. He went sitting on the other side of the table.

“Are you feeling comfortable?” he asked me.

“Yes, I’m fine.”

“I hope you don’t mind me pulling you away from your friends like this, but I wanted to talk with you.”

“I don’t mind. And thanks for giving us some privacy.”

He smiled and said, “I thought this would be better for you. This way, you can talk freely with me.”

I smiled and asked, “So ... Why did you want to talk with me?”

He rubbed over his chin and asked, “Can I ask you some questions about what you are doing?”

“You mean, ‘Why I’m naked among all those boys?’”

He smiled again, “Yes, I was wondering about that.”

“How much do you want to know?”

“As much as you are prepared to tell me,” he answered.

“That could take some time,” I said, “How much time do you have?”

“As much time as you need.”

“Well, okay then,” I responded. I thought about it momentarily and decided to start from what I had done the previous week. So, I told the man all about how I had done one of my fantasies, how some of the guys outside had found me, and how we had become friends. I also explained that those same friends wanted to have a little fun with me, so they took me with them, and I wasn’t allowed to wear clothes for now.

Then I told him about some other stuff we had done and the rules they had set out for me. In the end, I had almost told him everything about what I had done since they had caught me and how I eventually had ended up here without clothes.

When I was done, he stared at me with a strange look. Eventually, he exhaled loudly and said, “Wow, that’s an interesting story you told me. Honestly, if I hadn’t seen how you were running with them today with my own eyes, I would never have believed it.”

“To tell you the truth, I couldn’t believe my own story if it wasn’t for the fact that I’m doing it.”

He just smiled and said, “Oh, don’t worry. I believe you. I have a feeling you rarely tell a lie. Is that right?”

“Umm ... Well, I don’t try to lie, but ... I sometimes do omit things for my or others’ safety.”

He nodded in understanding, “Are you okay if I ask you some specific questions?”

I thought about it momentarily, looked him in the eyes, and felt I could trust him. Don’t ask me why; I just had a feeling, so I answered, “I have no problem with that.”

“So, you said that you did your fantasy last week. And I add, even in a perilous way, while all chained up like you were. You could have gotten into big trouble if the wrong guys had caught you. Did you think about that before you did it?”

I nodded and said, “Yes, those thoughts crossed my mind. That’s probably why it took me so long to do it eventually. For some reason, this forest was the first time I felt I could do it and get away with it. Although, it took me a long time to prepare myself for this. I almost had never seen any people here on my regular hikes. And those who I had seen, I didn’t feel scared about. So, in my mind, I did feel safe.”

“But still, the possibility of getting caught was always there. And you were completely helpless in the way you had chained yourself. Did it never cross your mind that someone could catch you and, maybe, rape you?”

I gave his words some thought and then said, “I think ... No, I’m sure ... that I convinced myself that if that would happen, I would just go along and let them have fun with me in any way they wanted. It’s not that I haven’t had sex before and ... well ... to tell you the truth. In a few versions of it, I had fantasized about how it would be to be forcefully taken by a man.”

“Really?!” he exclaimed in surprise. “And you would be okay with that?”

“Well, I convinced myself that if I got caught and I noticed that they wanted to have sex with me, I would even offer myself to them.”

By the look on his face, I noticed that he couldn’t believe his ears.

“In my mind, I thought that offering myself to them would probably make sure they wouldn’t try to hurt me. And ... it was a risk I was prepared to take. If they wouldn’t hurt me and just have sex with me, I would be okay with it.”

“And, like you said, you had fantasized about it before. So, maybe ... just a little ... you maybe also wanted that to happen?”

“Umm,” I let out thinking. “I don’t think that I wanted it, but I also don’t think I would have fought if anyone would have tried to have sex with me.”

“You keep saying ‘sex’ instead of ‘rape.’ Is this maybe the reason why you would have been okay with it? Because in your mind, it would only be sex and nothing else?”

I noticed he was asking rather thoughtful questions. Questions even I hadn’t thought about until now. His questions made me think before I could answer, but eventually, I replied, “Maybe. I know I should consider it rape. But, if I offered myself to them, can it be considered rape?”

Now it was his turn to think about it, I could see he was weighing things in his head, and when he answered, he said, “I’m not sure. If you really offered yourself to them out of your own free will, I think the court would indeed consider it as consensual and not as rape. But I don’t know. I’m not a judge or a lawyer. I have no clue how they would look at this. Nevertheless, I asked this to see if you understood the danger you had put yourself in.”

“Sure, I understood it. That’s also why I tried to hide myself when I knew I could get caught. Only, I failed to hide myself.”

“But you did understand that it was dangerous?”

“Yes, I did.”

“Okay. That’s what I wanted to know. But your extended answer gave me more to think about than I expected. Thank you for that.”

“Umm ... no problem,” I responded.

“So, after you were caught by the people who are now your friends, how did you feel when they wanted you to stay with them.”

I tried to recollect how I felt then, but it was somewhat difficult. Today, I feel very safe with my friends, and I consider them to be close friends. But I’m not entirely sure how I felt at that moment anymore. Thinking about it for a long time, I finally answered, “I think I felt a little afraid when they caught me. Also, ashamed because, well, there I was, naked and chained with them looking at me. And not knowing what they would do also scared me a little.”

“And those feelings, did you have them a long time?”

“Umm ... I think that those feelings went away when I started to understand that they for sure wanted to have a little fun with me but that they didn’t want to hurt me.

“And when they started to explain what they wanted to do with me, and knowing to which house they would take me, I knew I would be okay. Well, I knew that Nicole would never have anything happen to me once I was at her home.”

“So, the moment you knew this, you already started to feel safe among them?”

“Yes, I quickly felt very comfortable among them, even when they were ... filming me and watching me do my thing in the forest.”

“And ... would you also say that you quickly felt you would obey their wishes?”

“Maybe ... yeah, I think so. I guess that once I felt safe with them, I probably would have done anything they would have asked me.”

“Anything? Even ... let’s say they would have asked you to come with them to their home instead of Nicole’s?”

“Well, because I knew we would be going to Nicole’s place, I think I felt safer than if they had asked me to come to their home. However, maybe I would also have let them take me to their home. I don’t know. That didn’t happen, you know.”

“Yes, maybe because you knew relatively fast that you would be safe with them, you didn’t feel threatened. I can see that.

“And it seems you didn’t have too much trouble being naked around them. Well, they forced you to do it in some way, didn’t they?”

“I wouldn’t say ... well ... yeah, in a way, they forced me, but I didn’t mind. They caught me naked, and well, because they maybe forced me, I didn’t feel bad about it.”

“Would you have felt different if they hadn’t forced you? Would you then have preferred to get dressed?”

I thought about it again and finally answered, “At that moment. I think I would have chosen to get dressed again. But today, I feel completely normal being naked among them.”

“And what if they would order you to get dressed. Right now?”

“Then I would get dressed.”

“Reluctantly?”

“No, if they want me to wear clothes, I will. If they want me naked, I stay naked. It’s all the same for me.”

“I see,” he said, rubbing his chin again.

“You also told me about Nicole’s sister, whom you visited in another town.”

“Yes, that’s right. We needed to go there because Nicole’s mother’s sister had had a little accident.”

“Right. So, that girl ... what was her name again?” he thought out loud.

“Nele,” I helped him remember.

“Yes, Nele. You said she took control over you when you were alone with her.”

“Yes, she did.”

“Now, how did this make you feel?”

“Umm ... I don’t know. It felt ... the same as with my friends.”

“But you didn’t know her.”

“She’s Nicole’s sister. So, I was sure she wouldn’t do anything that would hurt me.”

“Okay. So, you just went along with whatever Nele wanted?”

“Yes, I wasn’t reluctant about doing what she wanted from me.”

“Not even when she made you run through the streets of that town naked at night? Weren’t you afraid to get caught by the police ... or the Sheriff, in this case.”

“No, I was afraid. I, for sure, didn’t want to get caught by the Sheriff or his deputies. But I wasn’t afraid because I knew I wouldn’t be in trouble.”

“You knew you wouldn’t be in trouble?! But you know that running around naked in public is illegal. Here in the forest, I can understand it because, well, while it is public, it isn’t in a town or city. If the police caught you here in the buff, you could also get arrested.”