Chapter 60

After the woman was out of sight, I looked at the others and noticed many puzzled looks on their faces, except for John and Linda.

“So, that went well,” Brad said when he joined me again.

“Better than expected,” I responded with a sly smile.

“So, umm ... we planned to wait for the others on the bottom platform. Are we still going to do that?”

“Yeah, why not?” I asked him.

“That woman said she didn’t want to see you again. So, if we stay here, well...”

“It will be okay.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes, don’t worry.”

He shrugged and said, “Okay then.” He took my leash and said to the others, “Let’s go down to the last platform. We will wait for the others there.”

After this, we went down the stairs to the platform. Again, the boys ensured they went down first to look at my assets again.

I was glad that this woman had accepted my explanation because the thought that we could lose a couple of hours when she called the police on me bothered me. However, it also made me wonder what would happen if the cops ever caught me. What would they do? What would be the procedure to verify my status? Would they provide me with something to cover up with while they investigated my claim? I suddenly had so many questions I didn’t have an answer for.

When we reached the platform where we would await the others, we all sat at the picnic tables. Before Jimmy joined us, he made sure he had a few nice shots of me. This time, he tried to catch some pictures of me while conversing with my friends.

Eventually, he joined us at our picnic table.

“Wow, that was a tense moment with that woman,” he said while looking at me.

“It happens,” I told him. “I’m just glad the woman didn’t call the cops on us.”

“Yeah ... about that ... I know you told us you don’t want us to know. But ... well ... you have to understand. We are all wondering what you told her. How did you manage to persuade her to let you go? In fact, in what the woman said, I think something special is happening with you.”

I looked at the other guys, who were all focused on me. It was obvious that some of them, or maybe all of them, had asked Jimmy to see if he could get more information from me.

I looked him straight in the eyes, sighed, and said, “Look, it’s something I don’t like sharing with too many people. It’s something ... which could get me into trouble if too many people know about it.”

“Is there anything we can do that will make you tell us?” Jimmy wanted to know.

Again, he made me look at all of them. Their faces told me they really wanted to know. And, I have to be honest, if I had to be in their shoes, I probably would also be curious to know what was going on.

I looked at John to find out what he was thinking about this, and he must have guessed the struggle I was in because he said, “Look. It’s up to you if you tell them or not. If I was you, I wouldn’t. But ... like I said, ‘It’s up to you!’”

Again, I looked at everyone present and saw those anticipating looks on their faces; it was almost too much for me.

“Please?” Jimmy urged me on when I looked at him. He then turned around to the other table and said, “You all have the promise we don’t tell anyone else, not even to the others, about this. On our scout’s honor!”

The boys looked at each other and then at me, and one of them raised his hand and said, “On our scout’s honor, I promise you we won’t tell anyone else. Not even to our fellow scouts’ members. Whatever you say will stay between us and no one else!”

The other guys also raised their hands and said in unison, “On our scout’s honor!”

Damn, that was impressive, I thought.

“You can trust us,” Jimmy said to me.

I looked at them all again and couldn’t help but wonder if they would keep their promise.

Deep down in my mind, a struggle between two forces was going on. One side was arguing to keep it a secret from them because if they knew what I was, they could maybe abuse me, but another side was saying that Jimmy wasn’t asking this but was ordering me to share my secret with them.

Eventually, the look on their faces convinced me that I could trust them.

“If you really promise me, I’ll tell you guys,” I said.

A few of them said, “We promise!”

I took a deep breath and said, “Okay then...” I looked at John, smiled, and said, “You guys have to know I have a medical condition ... well, not really a medical, more a mental condition. I have been diagnosed as a ‘True Submissive’!”

I saw how the boys looked at each other, baffled about what I had said. It made me giggle and say, “Let me explain.”

So, I started explaining it to them. While talking, I noticed that the boys slowly began to understand what I was, and most of them showed some compassion towards me, which surprised me this time. I never had thought someone would have those feelings towards me when they learned about it.

Eventually, I also told them about Jane’s law and that this was why the woman had decided she wouldn’t call the cops on me, even when she wasn’t sure if I was telling the truth ... yet. However, I’m sure she will believe me when she talks with the Ranger on top of the watchtower.

“So, guys, now you know the truth about me,” I told them. Strangely, I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders and ... I also noticed I felt happy about sharing this with them. Don’t ask me why I felt happy about it, but I really did.

“Wow,” Jimmy finally let out. “That’s ... awesome and scary at the same time!”

I tilted my head slightly.

He smiled and said, “Don’t get me wrong. I think it’s awesome that you shared this with us. I now understand why you were so hesitant about it. You know you just gave us a lot of power over you?”

“I do know,” I said, sounding timid.

“But ... it’s also scary to know we have this power over you. At least, it is for me.”

“It is?” I asked flabbergasted. I couldn’t understand why this would be scary for him ... them.

“It sure is!” Jimmy said. “Just knowing that you would probably do it for us whatever we say. Well, it is terrifying. And you don’t have no control over it?”

I had to think about his question for a moment. I quickly went over a few things I had done in the past. Things that I had done for others. It made me even wonder why I had done some things for them. And had to recognize that his statement could be true. I, for sure, had done some stuff for others that I would probably haven’t done if they hadn’t urged me to do it or just plainly had said to me to do them. Not things that are too bad, but simple things like daring me to do something. Something I for sure wouldn’t have done on my own.

I looked at Jimmy and said, “I hope I do have some control over it, but ... yeah, you’re probably right that sometimes, I really don’t have control over it.”

“See ... That’s what scares me,” Jimmy said. “What if I just ... let’s say ... suggest something to you, and you just do it because you think I was ordering you to do it.”

“I see,” I responded, trying to see it from his side. “Yeah, I can see how scary this could be for you. But ... that’s probably because you only want the best for me and don’t want to hurt me.”

“I would never want to hurt you!” He said, “However, people who know this about you will always wonder if what they asked from you was something you wanted to do or not. What if you just went along and helped them because of your submissiveness?”

I hadn’t thought about it like that before. But Jimmy was right. Whenever I would do something for someone else, how would they know I did it because I wanted to, or because they asked me and I just went along or even obeyed their wishes. It made me look at John, and the expression on his face told me that Jimmy had just struck a nerve with my friend. Even Linda seemed somewhat uneasy about it. I made a mental note to talk about this with my friends the moment we were alone.

I looked at Jimmy again and said, “Thanks for making this point! It’s also new for me, but that never crossed my mind until now.”

“It was the first thing I thought of,” Jimmy said. He then looked at the other guys and noticed a few of them agreed with him. But I also noticed that few looked a little guilty.

Jimmy then looked at me again and said, “However, I also see how scary this is for you. Because a bad person could take advantage of your situation and make you do things you don’t want to do.”

“That’s why I wanted to keep it a secret,” I confessed. “While I don’t think I’m in danger with you guys. I’m sure there are people out there who would abuse me if they knew about me. And while I luckily, or hopefully, won’t do anything that could harm me or others, it still gives them plenty of options left. I’m sure they could make me do many things that would humiliate me. And I can only hope that whenever that happens, I have some friends around that will protect me from them.”

After I said this, I noticed the boys were looking at each other again. At that moment, I really wished I could read minds. Although, in how John and Linda looked at me, I knew they would protect me through thick and thin. I even noticed a look in Jimmy’s eyes that told me he would do the same.

“So ... umm...” Brad said to cut the silence. “Now that we know this about you. Are you still going to stay with us at camp?”

“Of course I am,” I said, not understanding where his question came from.

“You’re not staying because ... well ... you were asked to?”

I shook my head and said, “No, I thought inviting me was nice of you all. And ... I always have liked an excellent barbecue!”

“Okay,” Brad said, smiling. “And, still okay with me controlling you?”

“More than okay!” I told him.

“Brad,” one of the guys asked, “Shouldn’t the others be returning soon?”

He looked at his watch and said, “Probably another fifteen minutes before they return.”

“Okay. Well, would you mind if we go to camp already?” another guy asked, suggesting he and the others at their table would like to go on.

“No, of course not,” Brad responded. Brad added while those boys were getting up, “And ... remember the promise you made!”

“We won’t tell anyone!” the first boy said again. “You can trust us.”

“Yeah, you can!” another boy said.

When they walked away, I wondered why they suddenly wanted to leave.

So, it was now only me, John, Linda, Brad, and Jimmy sitting here waiting for the others to return.

While waiting, Jimmy asked me, “So ... umm ... knowing about it now. I was wondering. Do you maybe want me to delete these photos of you?”

“No, why would you want to do that?” I asked him.

“Well, I know I asked you for permission. But, did you say ‘yes’ because you don’t mind or I asked you?”

I smiled at him and said, “Trust me, I don’t mind posing for you!” I looked at John, giggled, and said, “I have a website where I post some things I do. So, I’m already exposed on the Internet.”