It was hard to explain what I had experienced ... but I will do my best to give it a try. See in the beginning I thought he was just this nice charming guy I had grown to like from messaging on Facebook. Nothing set off any alarms or red flags ... well not at the time anyway. Everything was peachy keen.

We talked and talked through messenger and then I mentioned moving it a more personal note of exchanging phone numbers. He seemed hesitant about it at first to which I don’t understand why when everything was going so well over the last few days.

I mean ... yeah that may be kind of fast ... but we just had that connection. Or I though we did ... or did we now, that I think of it. No, no ... we had that connection I am most certain of it. there is no changing my mind.

We exchanged the numbers and things continued to build up. We learned a lot more of each other and family lives. He had told me that he was once married and wanted children but that wasn’t in the cards for him as his ex-wife had miscarried. The more he told me, the more trust I invested into him. There was nothing out of the ordinary.

I mentioned us talking on the phone because I wanted to hear the voice that matched the pictures, I had seen so many times on Facebook. The rugged jaw, bright green eyes, slim nose and firm chin. He looked like a man’s man. He was my man and I wanted more of him.

Time went on and I mentioned talking to him on the phone again and he sort of brushed it off with another question. Asking about my day and how my birthday had gone. To be honest, I was kind of upset that he didn’t remember my birthday as planned. It ended up being just another day without that special “happy birthday,” wish. So, I pushed the button again and asked about talking on the phone. I don’t know if it is possible to snap at someone through text message but I swore he did. He made me feel so small and reduced me to tears ... I tossed the phone onto the couch and ran to my bedroom and bawled my eyes out to the point my ears were ringing. After several moments I realized that was not my ears but it was my phone. I wiped away my face and pushed up off the bed slowly.

Walking into the next room the ringing had stopped and I assumed it was my friend or one of my parents of something. Sitting down onto the couch I glanced over to my phone noticing it face down. I reached for it and flipped it over to see who the caller was and it was an unknown number, I didn’t recognize it. I sighed and looked to the floor.

Moments later the phone started ringing again with the same number, this time it surely had to be meant for me so I answered it. “Hello?” it was a deep voice on the other end that said, “Hey there baby girl.” My heart fluttered so hard I thought I was going to escape my chest. I knew it was him. It had to be. Who else could it be, I almost started crying again out of happiness. Then had to give him grief for forgetting my birthday and making me feel all alone.

A month passed by of talking on the phone and texting by another number. But I paid it no mind. I figured there was a reason for that. We discussed more of our personal lives with each other down to secrets and personal truths. Either way I was happy with current arrangement of talking but I wanted more. Leave it to me, right?

The next time I talked to him on the phone I mentioned meeting in person. He said he didn’t know if it would good idea or not. This only left me a little sour and hurt. How could it not be a good idea. The more we talked about it the more he started to come around to the idea and eventually said we would meet once he got some things on his end squared away.

This only made me more than enthusiastic. My mom on the other hand didn’t like and Dad knew nothing of it. But I tell my mom almost everything. She is one of those that is like a close friend. I tried to explain to her that everything would be okay and that it would still be months away from meeting him. Mom though was still curious about everything and had me sit down and show her him. To which I did.

She told me to humor her as she dragged one of his pictures from Facebook into google image search and it came back with nothing and I was pleased. But then she dragged another and it came up with several outcomes which left me wondering and scratching my head as it linked to an Instagram under a different name.