Chapter 2

Well two days later I get a call to go to see the girl’s doc. I walked in and she had the most curious look on her face. As I sat down she asked me how things were going and I gave her a rueful smile. “Well I guess about as good as can be expected. Liz called the other night and I just told her we were having some problems, but that we would deal with them till she got back. I figured she was stressed out enough doing her job and feeling like an absentee mom. Telling her this happened while she was gone would just tear her up, and one of us feeling guilty for being a crappy parent is enough.”

She nodded. “And how are you and the girls doing?” I shrugged and tried to smile. “Well I can’t honestly say I’m all that happy, but I love them both. That means I shouldn’t be putting a bigger load on them when they are already having to accept the responsibility of being a parent too. I have to say your words really did help me to man up and start acting like a father rather than a betrayed teen ager.” I said slightly sarcastically. “Well that’s a good thing. It’s going to be hard enough on them without having to deal with punishment at home.” I nodded in agreement.

“Well I got the report back on that pee test we did. I was wondering if you have any issues with erectile dysfunction?” Ok that was from left field. I shook my head no. “Why is there something showing up? I mean something I need to see my doctor about?” I said worriedly. She just shook her head and began to chew at her lip a little. “No, nothing like that. I just wanted to make sure of the report and trying to figure out what they might have been slipping you. The girls said they flushed them and had no idea what it was. The person they got them from didn’t say other than to tell them it would be good for what they wanted. I was just narrowing it down since some are kind of similar to drugs used to treat erectile Dysfunction.” She doodled for a minute and then nodded. “So how are the girls doing?” I shrugged. “Well it seems now that they know I’m not going to blow up at them at any given time they are pretty much back to normal. We had a few words, worked out the fact that they need to be a lot more responsible since they were now going to be mothers, and I think we will deal with it as it goes.”

She leaned back in her chair and looked at me. “And how are you dealing with this? I mean personally?” I took a deep breath. “Well Part of me wants to hunt a sumbitch down and put a round in the back of his head. Another part of me thinks that if I had been a better father they never would have fallen for that sumbitch in the first place. But I know the last people I need to blame or be angry with is my girls. I just had hoped that they wouldn’t have to take on this kind of responsibility until later in life. They should have been able to have a little fun, see more of the world, before having this kind of a weight on their shoulders. Somehow I failed them both.”

The doctor chuckled. “I have seen some pretty big truckloads of bull shit in my life but this is one of the biggest. Joel, girls are going to be girls. From what your wife has told me over the years it is that you’re a randy bastard and it seems your girls are too. They made a mistake, and they know it. That they are ready to deal with that mistake shows you raised them right. That you are willing to still love them and care for them shows your momma did a pretty good job herself. So stop feeling sorry for yourself, stop blaming yourself, and just get on with your lives. Take care of yourself, your still going to be a little off from these pills. Take care of your girls, they really need you the most right now. And for the love of all that’s holy love each other.” She stood up and reached out with her hand. I shook it and she smiled at me. ‘You’re going to have two new lives in yours so you best just focus on them, and be happy about it.” I left and as I walked out I wondered if she knew more than she was letting on.

We went back to life as normal in our home after that day. The girls began to follow the doctor’s orders which meant that as a family we all began to eat a little better, we started taking walks after dinner together and in many ways we became a lot closer. It was about a week after we normalized that Mandy came to me one evening and handed me a thumb drive. “Dad, I scrubbed my hard drive of the videos we made while we were doing what we did. I put them on here I guess because I felt you should know what it was like for us to make our decision. You don’t have to watch them, I just kind of hoped you would so you would know how much we feel for you.”

She couldn’t have done it at a worse time. It was Friday night so I didn’t have to go to work in the morning, my libido was starting to raise its head, and I had been fighting the temptation to look on her computer for days. Now I could use my laptop, in the privacy of my bedroom, to see my daughters using me like a living dildo. Considering the last time I watched this stuff I almost came without touching my dick, I had a feeling this was not going to end well. I was right.

I waited till the girls were asleep and then went to my bedroom to get started. I grabbed a towel, got naked, and put on my headphones. I looked through the videos and decided to start with the second night. This time it opened with Mandy laying between my legs and just lightly stoking my growing erection. “I still can’t believe we are doing this Brit. I know we promised to just have last night but dad is so incredibly perfect.” There was a giggle off camera. “I know. Last night I was really sore from him but I just can’t stop missing the feeling. I had to put on a pad so I wouldn’t soak through my panties all day.” Mandy leaned in and began kissing my balls. “I so want to take this thing bare but I know I would never stop if I did.” Brit sighed. “I know, me too.”

Hearing the desire in their voices as Mandy stroked my cock got me hard as a brick. “Did you ever think about what it would be like to just suck him off?” and Mandy nodded before she got up, shifted to the side, and laid her head on my stomach. She eased the tip into her mouth and began to nurse on it while stroking the rest. Her cheeks showed that she was lightly sucking on me and I could just imagine how good that must have felt. The camera moved in and I could see Brits small hands begin to gently stroke my balls. I began to stroke my dick as I became lost in the beautiful look on my baby’s face. She was lost in thought as she sucked my cock and I had to wonder if she was remembering something that turned her on.

The camera moved away for a moment and showed that Mandy was indeed humping her hand before returning to the action. “Get ready Mandy, his balls are shrinking up.” I watched as the cum shot up my cock and the only thing Mandy did was moan. Then she shivered a couple of times before releasing my cock and smiling at the camera. “So what does it taste like?” Brit asked. She shrugged and in a sleepy voice said “It tastes like him.” Then she bit her lip and her eyes sparkled. Then before I could do anything I felt my cum shoot onto my stomach. Mandy had turned an erotic moment into the most beautiful sexual expression of love I had ever seen. I closed the lid and made a halfhearted try at cleaning up before just rolling over and falling asleep.

When I woke up I felt refreshed even though I was still naked and laying with my computer next to me. I had to admit that I hadn’t had an orgasm that strong in a very long time. Not only was it from my balls, but also my heart. My girls loved me far more than I thought they could and watching these videos were showing me a whole new side of them I never knew existed. Some part of me thought that they had done this out of girlish need, but that was a pure expression of physical love. I laid there thinking and could remember that Liz and I shared those moments as well but it had taken years before we were at the level these two were already. Then again they had been having sex with me in their heads for years.

By next the weekend I had gone through all the videos and understood what the whole experience meant to them. Not once was there anything lewd or graphic. Every single time was a moment of love and passion. The only thing they regretted, from what I heard, was that I wasn’t touching them back. They wanted to know what it was like to be held while I thrust into them. They wanted to hear my grunts and groans rather than my snores. They wished I was an active lover rather than simply fulfilling a dream. The last one was actually one that was hard for me to watch in some ways.

I was laying in bed, getting ready for another night of seeing my sexy lovers enjoy themselves, when the tempo changed. “Oh Mandy I don’t want this to stop.” Brit was saying as she stoked my cock into an erection. “I know Brit, but we have to. We both got pregnant and we can’t hide it anymore. We need to get to a doctor and we need to face the music of what we are doing.” Brit rubbed something on my cock that glistened and with an ease she hadn’t had before took me to the hilt easily. I began stroking my cock along with her pace and noticed I seemed to be lasting longer now than I was with her pussy contracting around me. “Oh he’s getting big. He’s going to cum.” She pushed down hard and the camera swiveled around so that I could watch my cock pulsing over and over.

Britt slid off my everlasting erection and took the camera. When it stopped moving I saw Mandy cleaning my cock of the combined juices of me and Brit. “Wow, you’ve never done that before.” Brit said in a surprised voice. “Well this is the last time I get a chance to. I figured I might as well get one last taste.” Then she lifted her leg over me and I slowly was eased me into her pussy. She bounced a few times and then stopped. I heard her sobbing and the phone was dropped to the bed. “Oh Brit I can’t stand it. I don’t want to live without this. After we tell daddy tomorrow I don’t know what will happen.” “Whatever happens we will do it together from now on, I promise.” There was the sound of them crying and then a brief flash of Britney’s face before it ended.

Well that sure killed my mood. I sat there feeling kind of lost and trying to figure out what I should be feeling. I slid the cursor over to an app and clicked on it. A few more clicks and the thumb drive was not only erased but cleaned to just pure numerals, no files existed or could be reconstructed. Like that last night that episode was over and done with. The entire time would only live on in our memories. I closed my laptop, set it on the cabinet and went to get a drink.

I sat, alone and in the dark, thinking of it all. I had come to understand my girls love by going through the videos and not watching just something sexual, but something deeply emotional. I sat there thinking about the kind of love and devotion that could push them to go to the lengths that they did. For Mandy she was almost out of school and would be leaving soon. For Britney it was almost the same thing. With her sister gone it would be just her and she never would have had the nerve to go through with it. This was their last possible chance to risk it all and reach for the golden ring.

The episodes where the girls had decided to get pregnant were very hot, but also just as emotional. They both shared the experience of it and the emotion was not wasted on me. If I had been a willing participant I would have been just as enthusiastic and passionate as they had been. Then it began to dawn on me how often I had begun to think of them as my sexual partners as well as my daughters. All the times I had wished I could have interacted with the love making came to the front of my brain instead of hanging around in the back. Somewhere during the last week or so I had slipped into a mentality that accepted what the girls had done to me. I wasn’t mad at them anymore for what they did because now I understood why they had done it.

I sat under the stars and came to the conclusion that is just one of the reasons the girls filmed their visits. They wanted to relive it, but I think it was also a way to let me know what was going on in their heads while doing it. I never got the impression their actions or reactions were false, but I had a feeling that if things came to a head it was the only real way for me to know the real reason they did it. I got up and went to bed. As my head hit the pillow I wondered how I could deal with the way I now felt about them.

I got up and was headed to the kitchen when I heard the most pitiful sound. It seemed Mandy was discovering the joys of morning sickness. Then I realized what I thought was one long retching sound was actually her sister probably puking her guts up with her. I headed to the kitchen and started making breakfast. I knew it was time, yet again, to break out my mother’s guide to being pregnant. I still remembered how when I began doing this for Liz after the second month of being miserable she never complained again. I whipped up a large jug of orange juice to help flush the toxic build up in their bodies, built a nice breakfast up that was consisted of sausages and omelets with a combination of onions (good for the blood) and spinach ( a good source for iron). The girls came in, turned their noses up and edged away from me.

I pointed to the large glasses of juice. “Between the juice and the breakfast your morning sickness will go away after a few days.” They looked at me, each other, and began to drink. By the time the food was cooked they were already looking forwards to eating. I made a note to myself that their normal morning breakfast of a glass of milk and jog were stopping as of now. I looked at how to do it as between school and work we were all really busy in the mornings. I found that there were these breakfast bars made from nuts, dates, and that was all. The protein of the nuts would be great, and the sugar from the dates was combined with tons of good vitamins and minerals. These two were going to be so healthy they glowed.

We were now used to living with just the three of us and it had only been two months since Liz left. I looked at the girls as they moved around the house and for the first time began to notice I was checking them out. I realized I was now getting comfortable watching Mandy’s breasts swaying as she walked around. I also liked watching Britney’s rounded ass as she pranced around the house. What was even more astounding was that fact that I now liked looking at them as women and not just my daughters. I had two very sexy women in my home and I was starting to relax into that fact. A small voice in my head warned me that down this road lay madness but I didn’t listen very well.

So it shouldn’t come as a surprise that even thought I didn’t have those movies anymore I began to masturbate at night thinking about my girls. Somehow the memories of the movies began to blend in with our everyday memories and little by little I began into fantasizing about both of my girls. Part of me knew that it wouldn’t take me long to go from fantasy to reality if I didn’t stop. For two days I tried just using amateur porn, which until now was my favorite, but I found it harder and harder to keep an erection. Then I noticed a tab on my favorite porn tube that had a young looking girl. I clicked on it and the amount of videos of teen girls posting self-made videos of masturbation filled my pencil with lead again.

For a few more days this worked as hoped but then my mind began to wonder if the girls looked like this when they were masturbating. Then all I could imagine was sitting in bed while they stroked their clits and probed their pussies. Images of the many times I had spread those lips with the very cock in my hand filled my head as I stroked off and I knew the war was lost. I had battled hard, but the desire the girls felt now resonated in me. I had known for a while now that I was just fighting the inevitable, and as I looked at the limp cock in my hand I knew it was time to simply let the three of us enjoy the time we had left alone with each other.

The next day was Friday and as I left work I had made up my mind that it was time to relax and just steer into the slide. If I was going to go in that direction I needed to have control and not just go crazy. When I walked in the smell of food cooking filled the house. The girls were busily cooking away and chatting happily. When they saw me they came over and gave me some wonderful hugs. I figured I would wait till we had eaten before I made any efforts to bring the subject up.

After dinner I sat in the middle of the couch and as usual the girls took a seat to either side of me. I put my arms up on the back of the couch and the girls took this as a snuggle offer. They instantly slid closer and I wrapped my arms around the two of them. I leaned over and kissed first Mandy, and then Brits head and they seemed to cuddle up even closer. “Girls do you know how much I love you?” they had somehow emulated each other as the both nuzzled my arms. “Dad, you not only forgave us for drugging you but have forgiven us for getting pregnant. I think we both know that you love us.”

As he TV droned on I deliberately began to draw small circles over their tummies. Both girls laid their heads back and seemed to focus on the feeling s of my hands. I let my fingers tap the tops of their shorts as I kept playing with them. I felt movement and I looked to see brit slowly working her shorts lower. I let my fingers keep sliding lower until I was now tapping the tops of panties. I couldn’t believe how soft and smooth this girl’s skin was. Then it popped into my head that right now, just a few inches beneath my finger, was my child. I laid my hand over the slight swelling of Brits lower tummy and gave it a little squeeze. Brit seemed to shiver a little and she gripped my arm tight.

I turned my attention to Mandy and did the same thing, I placed my hand in the center of the slight swelling and gave it a little squeeze. Mandy laid her head against my arms and just rubbed her face against me. I held my hands against their little bellies and took a breath. “I love you both so very much.” The girls hugged my arms. “We love you too dad.” I gave a little chuckle. “Sorry girls, I wasn’t talking to you.” They both looked up at me and seemed confused until it hit them. I was talking to their babies. They both wore nervous smiles and Mandy’s bottom lip was quivering like crazy.

“You mean you were talking to...” I nodded. “I was talking about how much I loved our babies.” I was expecting a storm of emotion but instead they both just curled up with their heads on my chest and hugged me. We sat there just holding each other and being lost in the moment. Brit was the first to breach the inevitable. “Dad, would it be asking too much if we could sleep with you?” She looked up at me. “I don’t mean making love, I just ... just really miss being that close to you.” She said meekly. I gave her a squeeze. “Of course the two of you can sleep with me. I get kind of lonely all by myself and having you both there might help me sleep a lot better.”

That night I decided to go to bed at the same time they did. I laid down in the middle and the two of them curled up on either side. They were both wearing long tops and tried to be as modest as possible. I just wore a tee and boxers and planned not to make a big deal out of this. I pulled them to me in a hug and let my hands rest on their hips. I had drifted off a little when I heard Mandy whisper to her sis. “This feels really good doesn’t it?” “Yeah. I got kind of addicted to it when he was out of it.” “Is this making you all wet too?” “Duh. He smells so good.” “I got really turned on when he was rubbing my belly. I soaked my panties.” “Me too.” Brit whispered “Do you think we could...” “Are you that stupid? We just got it so he will hug us again. I’m not risking that for one more time. When he told us that he loved our babies that means more than all the orgasms I’ve ever had.”

“I also love the women carrying my children too you know.” I said and they both gasped. “Um ... I...” Brit stumbled over her own tongue. I gave her a squeeze. “Darling you don’t have to make any excuses. Your feeling what you’re feeling and it’s natural. I didn’t expect either of you to just suddenly give up the very feeling that got us here.” Mandy shifted a little and then her face was next to mine. “I love you daddy.” And then she kissed my cheek. I turned my head towards her, and my stomach did a few flips, when I found she hadn’t moved away. “And I love you Mandy.” Then I moved forwards and kissed her gently on the lips.

When she didn’t move away I kept kissing her a few more times and then laid my head back. She gave a sigh that spoke volumes as she rested her head on my chest again. Brit got an idea that something happened in the dark and took her turn. “I love you too daddy.” She said but this time I was ready and as she leaned in I kissed her like I had kissed her sister. Brit, in her aroused state tried to take it further but I moved back and she waited. “I love you too Britney, sweet dreams.” She rested her head back down and sighed out “Sweet dreams daddy.”

An old writer once said “Man is a rationalizing creature, not a rational one.” As I laid there and felt the girls quickly fall asleep I was happy that they both understood I loved them and that maybe with just being close like this we could hold it at this point. Maybe this would be enough to temper my resolve and still be close to my little loves. Yeah, right. I left one thing out of the equation. I wasn’t really listening to them and forgot that this kind of closeness would be seen as a shift in my feeling and that they had a chance to continue our physical relationship.

After a few nights of cuddles I woke not only to the feeling of my girls holding me, but of them holding my cock and balls. I looked down to see them both still drooling on my chest, but there was no mistaking that my balls were being cupped by Brit, and Mandy had a firm grip on my erect shaft. I began to move and I felt their hands tighten on my genitals. So I lifted my arms and when their heads hit the bed they both released me. I slid out of bed and headed to the bathroom. I had a hard time getting my cock to go down, but eventually it did and I could pee.