Chapter 8: The Cause of Embarrassment

Then as Lewis moved on down his legs he said, ‘Well done, that’s a really good jump forward. You might like to know,’ Lewis told him, ‘That I’m now ninety five percent certain that I know the reasons for your stop and pass. But don’t worry we’re not going to discuss them just yet. We’ll wait until you feel relaxed enough to tell me yourself.’

John looked at him in horror, ‘You couldn’t possibly.’ he said. ‘We shall see in due course.’ Lewis said as he started up from his feet, ‘But let me tell you now that you shouldn’t be worrying about any of them. Others who were here before you with similar concerns all left happy. I trust that you will too.’

‘Now,’ Lewis said, ‘Before I ask my next question, let me tell you a fact about sharing bedrooms. The more often you share, the greater the likelihood is that you will see each other naked.’

‘And now a fact about double beds. It’s almost impossible to share a double bed with anyone, without ending up either in the other persons arms or with hands in places they shouldn’t be.’

As he moved up near the top of his legs, Lewis told him, ‘It’s also a fact that if the idea really bothers you, it’s even more likely to happen. Now I know talking about this will embarrass you, so if you will just answer my next four questions with a number, I won’t ask you anything else about it until you decide you feel relaxed enough to tell me.’

As Lewis said embarrass, his hands had moved onto the front of Johns trousers. As he massaged directly over his cock, it confirmed his opinion that John had a small one. It was still soft as he moved a little higher and asked, ‘How old where you when you first saw Roland naked?’ ‘Fifteen.’ John replied having gone very red. ‘How old were you when Roland first saw you naked?’ ‘Fifteen.’ he replied, still red.

As Lewis’s hands moved over the open zip, the feeling of Lewis’s hands on his shorts sent a lovely shiver through him. Feeling it Lewis asked, ‘Are you ok?’ ‘Yes, fine.’ John said going red once more.

As he moved up onto his stomach, Lewis asked, ‘How old were you the first time you woke up and found yourself touching Roland in a place that made you panic.’ ‘Fifteen.’ John said quietly still looking very red.

‘And finally, for now, how old where you when you woke up and found Roland touching you somewhere that felt nice, but embarrassed you?’ ‘Fifteen.’ John told him.

As Lewis massaged his shoulders, he smiled at him and said, ‘It sounds to me as if all that happened on the same holiday. But as I promised no more questions on that for now, you don’t need to say anything.’

He massaged his head briefly, then said, ‘Turn over.’ As John prepared to turn, he looked at Lewis and went red again as he said, ‘Yes it was.’ ‘Thank you for telling me that.’ Lewis said, ‘I’ll bet that you can’t believe that you felt able to without being pushed.’

‘No, I can’t.’ came John’s reply. ‘I think you deserve a little reward for that.’ Lewis said. ‘Is there anything I’ve said to you that you’d like me to enlarge on?

John thought back to earlier. ‘You said you had concluded why I was embarrassed about my body,’ he said. ‘Can you tell me what your conclusion was?’

‘Yes,’ Lewis said, ‘The size of a particular part.’ John had again gone red as Lewis answered. Then his face dissolved into tears. Lewis put his arms out and told him to sit up.

John put his head on Lewis’s shoulder and as Lewis put his arms around him, he put his arms around Lewis and held tight. Tears were streaming down his face, but he wasn’t actually crying.’

‘Don’t hold it inside,’ Lewis told him, ‘It’s good to cry, it’s natures safety valve. Let yourself go.’ John started sobbing as Lewis stroked his head and his back. ‘Size really isn’t a problem,’ Lewis told him, ‘It’s only you who think it is. When we’ve sorted your problem out, I’ll explain why.’

John had always thought he stood no chance with a girl because of the size of his cock. Hearing Lewis say it wasn’t so and given how much he trusted Lewis he felt better already, although he was still dubious.

But he definitely felt relieved, and his tears soon came to an end. Lewis gave him a strong hug as he finished and kissed the side of his face. ‘Go and wash your face,’ he told him, ‘Then we’ll carry on.’

John returned a few minutes later looking a bit embarrassed. Lewis was standing up waiting for him. ‘Come here.’ he instructed holding his arms out. John happily went into his arms, and they hugged. ‘There’s no need to feel embarrassed,’ Lewis told him, ‘Remember no one else will every know and I’m sure you feel better for letting it all out.’

‘Go and lie down now,’ Lewis told him. Once he was lying down Lewis was about to undo his front again as John had fastened his trousers up when he stood up to go to the bathroom. ‘Why don’t you undo yourself back to how you were?’ Lewis told him. John just watched his own hands as he did, amazed at how much at ease he was feeling.’

‘Turn over now,’ Lewis told him. As he settled on his front, Lewis said, ‘I’m going to go down your back now. When I reach your waist, I’ll take hold of your waistband and pause. If you say pass, I’ll let go and move on down. If you remain silent, I’ll massage your cheeks. But this time inside your trousers directly over your shorts. That will be more enjoyable and will make you even more relaxed.’

He put his hands on John’s head and started massaging. ‘You don’t need to say ‘Go’ anymore,’ he told him, ‘I’m sure you’re at ease enough now to say stop if you need to.’

Moving down onto his shoulders Lewis asked, ‘When did you first start to worry about the size of your cock?’ Hearing it stated so bluntly shocked John for a few seconds then for the first time in his life he felt able to discuss it with someone.

‘When I was coming up to twelve,’ he said, ‘And I went to secondary school. I was always careful to keep myself hidden from the others but most of the class weren’t bothered and ran round naked. I couldn’t help but see their cocks.’

‘There was only one other who looked the same size as me, all the others looked enormous in comparison. But it wasn’t until I was thirteen and started thinking about sex I really started to worry. I was getting an erection at night ok and soon I was having happy dreams and firing myself ok.’

As Lewis reached his waist, he took hold of the loose back of Johns trousers and paused. Either John was too engrossed in his answer to notice, or he had decided to remain silent for he carried on with his answer.

‘But after our sex education at school, I knew it was my cock sliding in her vagina that would give any girlfriend pleasure.’ John said, then he cried out in ecstasy as Lewis’s hand slid down inside his trousers and massaged his cheek over his shorts.

As he lay there enjoying it, Lewis’s hand moved over onto his other cheek making him cry out saying, ‘That feels amazing.’ Then Lewis drew his hand out and massaged on down over his trousers.

‘I constantly had dreams of going out with a girl, getting close and going up to bed.’ John told him, ‘Then she would laugh when she saw me naked and tell me to get lost.’

‘Would you agree that I have more experience about this than you?’ Lewis asked as he reached his feet. ‘Yes, definitely.’ John told him. ‘So, for now I want you to stop worrying about your size.’ Lewis told him. ‘Believe me when I tell you it really won’t affect you and your girlfriend.’

‘I don’t want to sidetrack onto that right now, but when we have sorted your problem out, I’ll update your sex education. That will show you how and why your cock will work perfectly. Ok.’

‘Ok,’ John said sounding much happier, ‘If you say it’s so, I believe you.’ Lewis was already halfway up his legs. ‘When I reach your waist,’ he told him, ‘I will massage directly over your shorts again before going on up. But remember you only have to say pass to stop that happening.’

After the lovely feeling it had given him last time, John had no intention of saying anything. ‘Tell me,’ Lewis asked as he massaged John’s cheeks over his trousers, ‘Have you had any sex education apart from the lesson at school?’ ‘No, none.’ John told him.