Chapter 5: Alices Agony Continues

‘I screamed, partly with the pain, partly scared about what damage he might have done.’ ‘Scream as much as you like,’ he said, ‘There’s no one around to hear you.’

‘He started thrusting in and out. It hurt every time he moved, and he pushed in so hard. After a while it still hurt but not as much. Then he started going faster so it hurt even more. A few moments later he went faster still and started making a strange noise.’

‘Then as he gave some extra hard thrusts in, he cried out. He sounded happy. I felt his cock throbbing and my insides felt wet and warm. He pushed in a few more times, then he slowed down and stopped.’

‘He just lay still with all his weight on me. It was hard to breathe. Then I felt his cock inside going smaller. After a while it slipped out altogether. He stayed lying on top of me. A few minutes passed before I realised that he was fast asleep.’

‘I tried to roll on my side, but he was so heavy. I had an idea, so I reached up and started tickling his ear. He grunted and rubbed it with his hand. I managed to move my hand out of the way in time.’

‘Every time he took his hand away, I tickled it again. After about six times he gave a sort of snort and rolled over as if moving away from the irritation. He was off me at last so I could breathe again. But one leg was still lying across my legs just below my knees. I lay still for a while to make sure he was still asleep. Then I managed to slowly ease my legs free.’

‘I lay still again, then moved slowly to the edge of the bed. He didn’t disturb so I got up carefully and moved towards the door. I picked up all my clothes and opened the door carefully. It was only ajar so it opened quietly although I was scared it might squeak at any moment.’

‘As soon as it was open enough, I squeezed through. I went to the front door and opened it. Then I stood in the hall and got dressed. There was still no sound from him, so I went into the lounge and recovered my phone from the floor where it had fallen in the struggle.’

‘I went to the front gate and stood in the road. I dialled 999 and said I’d just been raped. I’d managed to escape and was standing outside the house. When they asked about Victor, I said he was asleep in bed as far as I knew.’

‘Stay there,’ they said, ‘Someone will be with you in a few minutes.’ I kept looking at the front door in case he came out after me. It seemed an eternity but my phone said it was only four minutes when a police car arrived.’

‘There was a policeman and a policewoman. I told them what had happened and how I’d escaped. The policeman went to the house and rang the doorbell. When he’d rung twice and no one had appeared, he went in. Ten minutes later Victor appeared with the policeman. Wait there the policewoman told me.’

‘She went and spoke to Victor and her colleague. When she came back, she told me Victor’s story was that we’d had a lovely dinner then gone to bed. He knew nothing until he was woken by the policeman.’

‘I sympathise with you,’ she said, ‘And for what it’s worth I believe you. But as he freely admits you had sex, the only question is whether you agreed or were forced. Unfortunately, there’s no evidence to support either your story or his. So, it’s your word against his.’

‘What I’m going to suggest,’ she told me, ‘Is that we arrest him for rape and take him in for questioning. That means he will have to make an official statement. If you come to the station as well and make a statement, at least it will be on record.’

‘Then I will advise you that we can’t take it any further. It won’t do anything for you, but at least it will be on file if he does it again. I’ll tell him he is being released pending further investigation. Then at least he can have a bit of worry for a while.’ I agreed so she called for another car. She went and told her colleague to arrest him. He was put in handcuffs, and they waited until a second car came and took him away.’

‘They took me to the station. I was interviewed and made my statement. The police doctor took a swab just in case. Then I was told I could go home. The policewoman asked me if I was on the pill. I said no so she asked if he had used anything. When I told her no, she said go and see your GP in the morning or a chemist and get a morning after pill.’

‘I hadn’t given pregnancy a thought with everything else that had happened. I was horrified at the thought of carrying his child. I got a taxi home and had a very restless night. My vagina was still sore, and I had nightmares of having a baby looking like Victor and running round attacking all the kids in the nursery.’

‘The next morning, I rang work and handed in my notice. I had a week’s holiday due, so I took that in lieu of notice so I didn’t have to go back. I went into the next town and saw a chemist who gave me a morning after pill. I was relieved but still on tenterhooks until I came on two weeks later.’

‘I got another job and started to put it all behind me. My vagina stopped hurting in a few days and I no longer dreamt of having sex or a boyfriend. It wasn’t until I got your text that I realised how miserable and lonely my life had become through shutting men out.’

‘When I left here the other day, I already felt so much better and that night I started to dream about your massage and how nice it would be on my skin. Then I started to dream about being naked with you and you making love to me.’

‘Not only were the dreams lovely, but I was thrilled that I was actually able to have those sorts of dreams. I felt there was hope. Right now, I feel wonderful and I’m sure when I leave today everything will be sorted.’

‘Well done.’ Lewis said smiling at her as she came to a stop. ‘Now you have put what happened into words and told someone else, it will start to fade in your memory. You have already discovered that you can enjoy the intimate touch of a male.’

‘Soon Logan, or whoever you choose, will make love to you for the first time. That will not only be amazingly enjoyable, but it will also clear it from your memory for good.’

‘Let’s look at what Victor actually did to you. He hit you. Now that gives you a sharp pain which fades quickly and in days is forgotten. He forced you to let him have sex with you. He put his cock inside you and shot his load.’

‘What he did physically was not bad in itself. What was wrong is that he did it without your consent. He didn’t care about hurting you, so he was rough. And he shot his load into you without any precautions because he didn’t care.’

‘You could do all these things very happily with someone you loved and cared for. So, think of it all as an attack which hurt you briefly at the time, but the pain disappeared in a few days. The memory now needs to follow.’

‘What I’d like to do next, is to examine your vagina to check there is no lasting damage. From what you have told me, I doubt that there is. But it will be good for you to be sure. It will also show you that you can enjoy something going up inside you, even if it is only my finger.’

‘Then we will talk further. Do you know what a climax or an orgasm is?’ ‘I have a vague idea,’ she said. ‘Isn’t it supposed to be something wonderful a woman feels when making love?’ ‘Yes,’ Lewis said. ‘But you have never made love and so you have not experienced it.’

‘What Victor did to you was to use you for him to have sex. You had nothing but pain and fear. When you make love, you will find that it is the most wonderful and lovely feeling and experience imaginable.’

‘I will teach you something about your orgasm whilst I examine you. What I will do is squirt some olive oil into your vagina then my finger will slide into you carefully, slowly, and easily. It will be completely pain free and I’m sure you will enjoy it.’

‘As I slide it out, I will move it round to examine the walls of your vagina. None of which will hurt you. Are you ok about it?’