Chapter 1: Uncovering Pams Past

As Pam looked up at him horrified, he continued, ‘That will mean I can massage your back directly on your skin, which will be even more relaxing. Also, most people’s problems involve sex of some sort. So, it will make you feel easier when we get to talk over your problem.’

‘I’m just going to pop to the toilet,’ he told her. ‘Take your time to decide and remember it’s ok if you don’t feel ready yet. We can always mark time and repeat what we’ve already done.’ He got up and left the room.

Instead of going to the toilet he went and sat in the kitchen for five minutes.

Pam lay there struggling with the choice.

She lay there thinking how much she had enjoyed her first massage. Clearly it would feel even better on her skin. But could she allow even Danny, who she felt so comfortable with, to see her partly undressed? The thought of him touching her skin as well made her heart race.

Then after a mental struggle she realised that her heart wasn’t racing out of fear but with desire and anticipation. Making a decision, she sat up, pulled her top off and threw it over on a nearby chair.

Lying back down, she almost changed her mind, then turned over. As she lay there waiting, her mind alternated between excitement and fear. She was remembering that awful night when a man had taken her by force.

She heard Danny return and sit at her side. ‘Very well done,’ he said, ‘I know how hard you found it to do that. Remember I’m not going to hurt you or do anything without your consent. In a moment I’ll massage your head again. But until you say go, I won’t move down or ask questions. Just remember those two important words, stop and pass.’

She felt his hands rest gently on her head and was once more surprised that she felt excitement, not fear. As he massaged gently, she relaxed. Then not long after, she heard herself say, ‘Go.’

As he moved down onto her bare shoulders, she gave a shiver. Danny stopped instantly and lifted his hands off. ‘It’s ok,’ she called out, ‘That was a shiver of pleasure not of fear.’ ‘Good,’ Danny said resuming his massage. ‘Can you tell me,’ He asked, ‘Was it a coincidence that you moved into your flat when you did. Or was it because of your trouble.’

Too busy enjoying his massage on her bare skin to worry about her answer she replied, ‘Because of it.’ Her mind was overjoyed that she could enjoy his touch after years of being terrified of the idea.

For the first time since she rang the doorbell, she began to believe that Danny would somehow work a miracle and solve her problem. As Danny moved off her skin onto the back of her jeans, she felt sad. The massage on her cheeks was lovely, but nowhere near as good as on her skin.

‘Are you a virgin?’ Danny asked out of the blue as he finished massaging her cheeks. Brought back to reality she was tempted to say pass. But now she had decided there was a good chance Danny would succeed, she knew he would need all the information possible. ‘No, I’m not.’ she said firmly and clearly as Danny moved down her legs.

‘Have you ever told anyone else that?’ he asked. ‘Never,’ she said, ‘I would have been too ashamed and embarrassed.’ ‘Thank you,’ Danny said, ‘That’s quite a compliment you have paid me. It’s also a good sign for our success.’

Reaching her feet, he started back up again. ‘How do you get on with the people you work with?’ Danny asked. ‘Pretty well,’ she said, ‘My boss is lovely and a pleasure to work for. I don’t really have much to do with anyone else on a regular basis, yet I probably speak to most of them at least once during the year.’

‘Apparently Richard had worked there as long as I had, but the night we were seated together was the first time we had ever met.’ Danny moved up onto her cheeks again. She let out a happy noise as she enjoyed not only the massage, but the thought that he would soon be back up on her skin.

‘Who was your best friend at school?’ Danny asked as he gave her cheeks a good massage. ‘That was Janette,’ Pam answered. As Danny moved on to her bare skin, she gave a happy cry at his touch which sent lovely shivers through her.

‘Are you still in contact with her?’ Danny asked as he moved up her back and over her bra strap. ‘Not really,’ Pam replied, ‘We kept in touch for a few years after school, then she met a boy and moved away with him. We still exchange Christmas and birthday cards but that’s all.’

Reaching her head Danny gave it a massage, then said, ‘Turn over.’ Pam’s heart was beating like mad. If she turned over, Danny would see her breasts. Ok they were in her bra but even so, it was frightening. Her thoughts were in turmoil, remembering the bad things she had experienced in the past. But she was also remembering how lovely the feeling had been when Danny had massaged her breasts over her clothes earlier. Surely massage on her bra would be even nicer.

In the end it was the lovely feeling, plus how safe she was feeling with Danny that decided it. She turned over. ‘That was quite a decision,’ Danny said, ‘I could almost hear the cogs turning in your brain.’

He smiled at her, ‘Thank you for trusting me,’ he said. ‘I’m going to massage down your front just like I did your back. You’ve already discovered how much more relaxing the massage is on your skin. ‘When I reach your waist, I’ll undo your jeans. Then next time you turn over I’ll be able to give you even more relaxing options. Don’t forget there’s no limit to the number of times you can say stop.’

Danny put his hands on her head and massaged, then moved down onto her temples. As he massaged them, he could see her breasts were medium sized. They looked firm and her stomach had a bit of excess padding.

As he moved down onto her shoulders he asked, ‘Had you still been meeting up with Janette, do you think you would have told her about your problem?’

As Pam thought about her answer, Danny moved down onto her breasts over her bra. Pam cried out, with what was clearly a happy cry. The lovely feeling that she had experienced earlier was now twice as nice. Also, as Danny’s fingertips ran over the skin of her breasts that were above and below her bra, she had to stop herself screaming with delight.

As he moved down over her stomach, she completely forgot to worry about her slight roll of fat. ‘No, I wouldn’t,’ she said, ‘I would have been far too ashamed to tell her, as well as too embarrassed.’

‘What do you do with yourself when you’re not at work?’ Danny asked as he reached her waist and took hold of the front top of her jeans, one hand each side of the button.

‘I have a friend a similar age to me who lives on the floor above,’ Pam told him as he undid her button, slid her zip down and continued massaging down over her jeans. ‘We go to the pictures and out shopping together on occasions. We’ve also had a couple of holidays together. She is very quiet like me.’

As he reached her feet Danny said, ‘I presume she doesn’t have a boyfriend either?’ ‘No.’ Pam said as he started back up her legs, ‘She’s very nervous of men too. I don’t know why, we’ve never talked about it, just accepted we both feel that way.’

Danny reached the bottom of her open zip. He massaged his way up her abdomen, going over her panties where the zip was open. Pam was having some very strange but lovely sensations at his touch.

As he returned onto her bare stomach, Pam suddenly volunteered, ‘Listening to what I’m telling you, I don’t have much of a life do I?’ Danny smiled at her, ‘That could all change once we’ve dealt with your problem,’ he said, ‘But you have a job, a home and your health. You have a lot more than many people.’

As he massaged over her breasts once more, Pam just closed her eyes and enjoyed it. Danny could feel how relaxed she was. As he moved on up to her shoulders Pam commented, ‘I suppose you’re right, I shouldn’t be ungrateful.’