Chapter 7: Gwen Names Evil Priest Number Two

As she burst into tears she sat up and threw her arms around Lewis. He put his arms around her and held her close as she sobbed her heart out. He stroked her head and her back as she cried.

As she came to a stop, he kept hold of her. Putting his mouth to her ear he said quietly, ‘Stay where you are as long as you like. Don’t move until you feel ready.’

After a while he felt her move. Relaxing his hold, he eased away as she sat up and gave him a watery smile. He smiled back. ‘Just relax again,’ he told her. She lay back as Lewis got up and fetched a fresh wet cloth. Wiping her eyes and then her face he dabbed her dry before handing her the towel.

Taking it from him she gave her face and neck a good rub, then passed it back to him. ‘Thank you,’ she said, ‘I’m ok now.’ ‘We’re going to continue as long as you feel up to it,’ Lewis said. ‘I have a couple of questions about what you just told me, but we’re mainly going to carry on getting you relaxed before we deal with it properly.’

‘I’m going to massage your head, then when you say go, I’ll start massaging your front again and resume my questions. If you need to stop, just call out ‘Stop’ and I’ll return to your head immediately and start again. Remember that nothing here is going to hurt you and simply saying stop will immediately stop anything that is upsetting you.’

Lewis rested his hands on her head and massaged slowly and gently. Gwen relaxed and enjoyed the sensation. Apart from her moments of upset, she had found Lewis’s touch very relaxing. Because of Derek’s build-up of Lewis, plus how he came over to her, she already felt completely safe. But when she felt a touch that sent her back to those terrible past experiences, she couldn’t stop herself panicking. She didn’t expect to ever get past that.

Rousing herself she said, ‘Go.’ as firmly as she could. Lewis carried on massaging her head for a moment longer then as he moved down onto her shoulders he asked, ‘How did you meet Derek?’ That surprised her she had expected a different question. She relaxed a little and answered,

‘I was visiting my friend Joan at home. It turned out that her neighbour Tayo was Derek’s best friend. We were having a barbeque. Joan had invited me and unknown to Joan her parents had invited Tayo and his parents.’

At this point Lewis had reached the top of her breasts. He felt her start to tense up. He was poised to whip his hands away but although she stopped talking and was holding herself rigid by now, no sound came.

Lewis massaged quickly over them and moved onto her stomach. As he went down further, she started to relax and resumed, ‘When Tayo brought Derek home with him he came too. We had seen each other at school but never spoken. We got chatting and hit it off right away. He walked me home afterwards and we’ve been together ever since.’

As she finished Lewis reached her waist. As he moved up onto her jeans he felt her going tense once more. He had only moved down an inch when she panicked once more. This time she sat up immediately, saying ‘Stop, stop,’ as she did. But as Lewis moved his hands, she wrapped her arms around him and hugged him.

‘Thank you for being so patient,’ she said, ‘Please don’t give up on me.’ He hugged her back and told her he had no intention of doing so. They held each other for a while then Gwen lay back down. Lewis massaged her head and after a very short time she said, ‘Go.’ very firmly.

Moving down onto her shoulders right away, Lewis asked, ‘How many times did it take before you could relax and enjoy Derek caressing your breasts?’ ‘Four times before I was ok about it over my clothes,’ she said as Lewis’s hands reached the top of her breasts.

As Lewis moved down over her breasts, he felt her tense up but nowhere near as much as before. This time she kept talking. ‘It took three times after that before I could enjoy him putting his hand inside on my bra,’ she told him with no sign of embarrassment. Then as Lewis reached the bottom of her breasts and moved onto her stomach her body relaxed and she added, ‘Then two times after that he undid my bra and caressed my bare breasts. After that we had no problem whenever we went that far.’

As he moved up onto her jeans again, she didn’t react right away. But as soon as he was halfway down, she panicked again calling out, ‘Stop.’ Lewis moved his hands back to her head right away and felt her relax. ‘I’m sorry,’ she said. ‘Don’t be,’ Lewis told her, ‘It’s not your fault.’

‘I’m not continuing to try and upset you,’ he told her. ‘Just like you got used to Derek’s touch, I need you to get used to mine before we can solve the problem. You have already experienced pleasure on your breasts with Derek which has already started to help you recover. I can tell that by how quickly you are relaxing to my touch. As you start to panic, just remember that whatever terrible things happened to you in the past, nothing like that is going to happen to you here.’

Moving down to her shoulders Lewis asked, ‘In between fancying James and falling for Derek, have you had feelings for anyone else?’ As he moved down over her breasts she shuddered as she answered, ‘No, after Father O’Brien I looked at boys differently and had no desires in that direction.’ Lewis realised that her shudder had been due to a past memory, not his touch. He moved off her breasts and onto her stomach.

‘Well done, Gwen.’ he said, ‘I detected no tension as I massaged your breasts.’ He put his hands back on her shoulders saying, ‘We’ll try that again just to make sure. This time I’ll do it without questions so you can concentrate on it being a feeling that is not harming you.’

He massaged her shoulders a moment longer then moved slowly down. As his hands moved onto her breasts, he felt a slightest moment of tension then she relaxed almost instantly. He massaged every inch then as he moved down onto her stomach he told her, ‘Well, that’s one big hurdle over. You’re doing excellently.’

As he carried on down her stomach Lewis asked, ‘Apart from Father O’Brien, was anyone else involved in the bad things that happened to you?’ As he reached her waist she shivered again, ‘Yes,’ she said, ‘Father O’Donovan, he was a much older priest.’ Her mind evidently on past experiences it wasn’t until Lewis’s hands reached her hairs that she panicked once more.

Although she cried, ‘Stop.’ and sat up, it was with a noticeably less anxious cry. Lewis took her in his arms again. Holding her tight he told her, ‘You’re doing wonderfully.’ She nestled happily in his arms for a while then without being told she lay down once more.

Giving her a smile, Lewis put his hands on her head and massaged briefly before moving to her shoulders. As he did, he asked, ‘When you go swimming with Joan and Jing, do you all get changed together or in a cubicle?’

As he massaged over her breasts she answered, ‘Together.’ ‘Did you do that from the start of your friendships?’ Lewis asked. ‘Yes,’ she replied, ‘We’ve always felt at ease with each other.’ As he moved down her stomach having felt no reaction to the massage of her breasts, he asked, ‘So would it be true to say that all three of you have seen each other totally naked on many occasions.’

‘Yes,’ she answered immediately sounding surprised. ‘Ok,’ Lewis said as his hand moved onto her jeans, ‘Picture all three of you naked and standing in a row. Imagine a boy your age is looking at you all. Whose body do you think he would like best?’ ‘Joan,’ she answered immediately. ‘Why?’ Lewis asked as he massaged over her abdomen. ‘Because she has the best shape, the biggest breasts and is the tallest.’ Gwen answered. ‘Who would be second?’ he asked as he moved lower on her abdomen. ‘Jing,’ came the equally quick response. ‘Why her?’ Lewis asked. ‘She is very beautiful, small slim and petite.’ ‘So, as you have left yourself to the last, what would he see in you that could make him believe you were really the best of the three?’