Chapter 7: I Just Lay There Enjoying It

‘That will achieve three things. It will enable me to massage directly on the skin of your back, which will relax you even more than you are now. It will also feel far nicer and it will start to get you used to being undressed in front of a man.’

‘Knowing how shy you are, I’m going to go to the bathroom whilst you get ready. But remember, although everything in here is for your benefit, it’s also your choice. If you don’t feel able to do that yet, just stay as you are.’ They parted, and Cliff stood up.

As he left the room, Ellie’s head was in a turmoil. She knew she had a severe problem with the idea of being even partly undressed in front of anyone, male or female. She also knew it could be a major handicap between her and Ethan.

Taking her top off and lying down would only expose her back, she reasoned to herself. And given how safe she felt with Cliff, it would be a good start. But could she do it? Meanwhile Cliff had gone to the bathroom, had a wee, washed his hands and then sat on the toilet seat to wait.

He knew that even if Ellie managed to do it, it would take her a while to decide. He sat patiently waiting until her voice called, ‘Ok, I’m ready.’ Going back in to join her, Cliff stood and looked at Ellie. She was lying face down on the settee. She had taken her top off, which was now on the chair.

All that was on her back was her white bra strap. ‘Very well done,’ Cliff told her. ‘I can only imagine how hard you found that to do. I also take it as an enormous compliment that you managed to do it for me.’ As he sat down at her side he told her, ‘I’m going to put my hands on your head now.’

He did and massaged her head. Then when she said ‘Go,’ he moved down onto her bare shoulders. As his hands touched her bare skin, she let out a cry of surprise. As he massaged, Ellie called out, ‘Oh I can’t believe how lovely that feels.’ ‘You told me earlier,’ Cliff said as he massaged down her back, that you had some dreams about the men you liked at work.’

‘You told me that you ‘Often dreamt of one of them taking you out and more.’ Can you tell me what the ‘more’ included?’ The back of her neck went red. It took her a few moments for her to get started. ‘I dreamt that he came back to mine, and we sat on the settee together. He had his arm around me.’

In my dream that was lovely, but the hug I just had with you was ten times better. Then another time I dreamt we were in bed together. I knew it was something I could never actually do. But being in a dream, I knew it couldn’t hurt me.’

As Cliffs hands moved off her skin onto her jeans, there was no tension at all. Whilst Ellie enjoyed the massage over her cheeks, she told him, ‘The massage on my skin was the loveliest thing I’ve ever felt.’ ‘Making love properly is even nicer.’ Cliff told her.’

As he moved down onto the back of her legs, Cliff asked, ‘What do you call a man’s sex organ?’ ‘It’s a penis,’ she replied. ‘I looked it up online.’ ‘What about your own, what do you call that?’ ‘My vagina.’ ‘Have you ever said either of those two words out loud to anyone ever before?’ Cliff asked.

‘No,’ Ellie replied, sounding surprised. ‘I could never have imagined that I could have ever done so.’ ‘It just shows how relaxed you are getting with me.’ Cliff told her. ‘Now, in your dream about the boy from work, can you tell me what contact you had with his penis when you were naked in bed together?’

The back of Ellies neck went very red again. ‘We were lying on the top of the bed uncovered,’ she told him. ‘I sat up and looked at it, then held it in my hand.’ ‘What did it do when you touched it?’ Cliff asked. ‘Nothing.’ Ellie replied sounding surprised.

‘Where else did it touch you?’ Cliff asked. ‘It slid into my vagina.’ Ellie admitted. ‘He pushed it in and out a couple of times, then I stopped dreaming.’ ‘Was that because you fell asleep, or because the feeling in your dream gave you bad memories?’ Cliff asked.

‘Bad memories,’ she admitted. She realised by now that Cliff must have a good idea of what had happened to her. As he moved back up over her cheeks, she just lay relaxed and quiet as she enjoyed the feelings going through her. Her mind was struggling, trying to understand how Cliff could possibly know about it.