Chapter 7: That Feels So Nice

‘Remember also, that if you do, you won’t be offending me, I understand exactly how you feel and why.’ Cliff rested his hands on the front of her head and massaged. Then he included a massage on her temples. That made her smile because of the lovely feeling it gave her.

Returning to her head, he continued patiently. Then giving a sigh, she said a very weak sounding ‘Go.’ He moved his hands down onto the front of her shoulders. Feeling her tense up a little, Cliff asked, ‘How old were you when you had your first boyfriend?’

‘There was silence for a moment, then she said quietly, ‘I’ve never had one.’ ‘So, your only experience of close contact with a man so far has been your attack?’ ‘Yes.’ she said and burst into tears. ‘Sit up.’ Cliff instructed holding his arms out.

Jade put her head on his shoulder, her arms round him and cried. Cliff held her gently, stroking the back of her head and letting her cry. As the sobs started to fade, Cliff said quietly in her ear, ‘Don’t feel embarrassed about crying, it’s natures safety valve.’

‘Stop where you are for as long as you need, then when you feel ready, go to the bathroom and swill your face before we continue.’ ‘Thank you,’ she said quietly as her sobs stopped. She held on to him firmly, obviously getting comfort from the contact.

After a while she relaxed her grip. Cliff stood up and helped her to her feet. When she returned from the bathroom, she lay down on her back without being told. As Cliff sat at her side, he smiled at her and said, ‘Now you have had a hug, don’t be frightened to sit up and have another one anytime you want.’

She gave him a lovely smile and nodded. Cliff massaged her head again and she called out ‘Go’ quite quickly. As he massaged her shoulders, he asked, ‘Can you tell me how long ago your trouble started.’ ‘I suppose it began three months ago,’ she told him, ‘But I wasn’t physically attacked until three weeks ago.’

‘We won’t go any further with that just yet,’ Cliff told her, ‘You’re not relaxed enough. Can you tell me why you think it is that you’ve never had a boyfriend?’ As his massage moved down onto her breasts she froze. Her eyes watched his hands, but she didn’t say anything.

Cliff smiled at her and massaged on. As he moved down onto her stomach, she let out her breath which she had been holding. ‘Are you ok?’ Cliff asked? ‘Yes, it wasn’t anywhere near as bad as I thought it would be.’ she admitted, thinking to herself that it was actually rather nice. Then she continued where she had left off.

‘The answer to your question is simple,’ she replied, ‘No one has ever asked me.’ ‘Not even at school?’ Cliff asked. ‘No, never.’ she told him. ‘Why do you think that is so?’ Cliff asked, as his hands reached her waist. ‘I suppose,’ she started to say, then feeling his hands moving down the front of her jeans she panicked and called out ‘Stop.’

Cliff’s hands returned to her head immediately. Even in her panic, she managed to feel impressed that he had done exactly what he had promised and so quickly. As he massaged her head, she said, ‘Sorry, that wasn’t you, I just panicked.’

‘No problem,’ Cliff told her, ‘Say ‘Go’ when you’re ready to try again.’ As she said ‘Go,’ Jades immediate thought was, ‘I wonder if he’ll go straight back to my waist, or will he go over my breasts again?’ Then she felt surprised as she realised that that was what she hoped he’d do.

As he massaged her shoulders, she wondered about carrying on with her answer, but Cliffs hands were almost at her breasts, so she remained silent. As his hands touched, her heartbeat increased, but this time it was with excitement, not fear.

The pleasure of his touch that her fear had stopped her enjoying last time, was now pure enjoyment. She thought of all the times she had dreamt that a boyfriend would be doing that to her. Cliff smiled to himself seeing her happy face.

‘Carry on with your answer,’ he instructed as he moved off her breasts onto her stomach. ‘I suppose it’s mostly my own fault,’ she said sadly. ‘I’ve never been a good mixer, and I tend to keep myself to myself. Then I’m not very bright either, I was in the bottom class all the way through school.’