Chapter 3: At Ease With Each Other

Then as Lewis massaged over his cheeks, the tension gradually left him as the gentle touch made him relax. By the time Lewis moved down onto the back of his thighs, he was actually enjoying it, much to his surprise.

‘I stayed there when I left school,’ Samuel continued as Lewis moved on down his legs. ‘I started work in a local DIY shop. I wasn’t very good at anything at school, so I had no qualifications. But the people in the shop were nice and I was happy there for two years.’

‘When I was eighteen, I had to leave the home and get a place of my own. They helped me find a flat and get furniture and stuff. I was quite lucky really. My flat is one bedroomed in a block of ten other flats the same. Some of the other residents I never see, there’s a couple that can be noisy at times, but most of them are nice.’

Lewis had been down to his feet, come back up his legs and moved onto his cheeks. There was a brief moment of tension at his touch, then he relaxed and enjoyed the massage.

‘Not long after I’d moved into my flat,’ Samuel continued as his cheeks were being massaged, ‘Because I was now doing my own shopping, I was going to the local supermarket. They had a noticeboard advertising jobs in the store. I read it one day for no particular reason and saw an advert for shelf stackers on shifts.’

‘The money was better, it was close to the flat, and I’d get a Saturday off now and again which I didn’t were I was working. So, I applied and got the job. I’ve been there over a year now.’

‘As Lewis moved up his back,’ he asked, ‘How did you get on with the other lads in the home?’ ‘We all got on quite well,’ Samuel said. ‘Although we were all different backgrounds and ages. I suppose it was because we were all in the same boat really. I wouldn’t say I got close to anyone, but I considered them all friends.’

Reaching his head Lewis told him to turn over. As he settled on his back Lewis asked how he was finding it. Samuel smiled at him. ‘I didn’t know what to expect,’ he said, ‘But so far I feel happy to be here.’

‘That’s good,’ Lewis said. ‘I’m going to go down your front now just the same, with more questions of course.’ Samuel grinned at him. As Lewis massaged his head, he reminded him to say ‘Go’ when he was ready. As soon as he said go, Lewis massaged his temples briefly before moving down onto the front of his shoulders.

‘How did you get on with the other boys at school?’ Lewis asked. ‘Ok, I suppose,’ Samuel said. ‘I never had a fall out with any of them, but I’m a bit of a loner anyway, and living in a home I didn’t really feel like getting pally enough to invite anyone back.’

Lewis had moved down his chest, his hands confirming Samuel was not particularly strong. Then as he moved up onto the front of his trousers, he asked, ‘Did you ever have any holidays or sleepovers with anyone?’

‘Only once in my last year at primary school,’ Samuel said, ‘I had a pal in my class called Ray. We had been friends all through primary school. He had a birthday party and the night before it, my dad had been sent into hospital for a minor operation. Ray’s parents invited me to stay over and then they took me to the hospital the next day to pick him up.’

Then he suddenly realised that Lewis was massaging the front of his thighs. He hadn’t even noticed him going over the front of his trousers. But now he realised there had been a nice feeling which must have been

as he came over that special area.

‘What were the sleeping arrangements?’ Lewis asked as he moved down his legs. Still with half his mind on the lovely feeling and amazement that he hadn’t noticed where Lewis’s hands had been, Samuel said, ‘We had to share a bed.’

Then he went red. ‘Ray lived in a three bedroomed semi,’ he explained, but he had a sister who had the small bedroom. As there was no spare room, his mum said, ‘I’m sure you two can squeeze in together for one night.’

As Lewis started back up from his feet, he asked, ‘What sort of bed was it?’ ‘A double,’ Samuel told him. ‘Usually when they had visitors, they had Rays bed, and he dossed down on the settee.’

‘Much nicer and more comfortable to share a bed.’ Lewis said. ‘Yes.’ Samuel agreed, then went red again. At that point Lewis reached the top of his thighs. As his hands moved over onto the front of his trousers Samuel went tense. He was remembering the nice feeling on the way down, but also his recent suffering. He was also thinking about his night at Rays.’

As Lewis’s hands moved upwards, Samuel relaxed and as Lewis’s hands massaged over his trousers, a lovely feeling flowed through him. Then as Lewis moved on over his stomach he said, ‘How old where you both then?’

‘We were almost the same age,’ Samuel said as all the memories of that night came flooding back. He smiled as he said, ‘We were eleven and a half.’ ‘It’s nice sharing with someone isn’t it?’ Lewis said. ‘You can tell me more about it later when you’re more relaxed.’

Moving onto his chest he asked, ‘What about the girls at secondary school, how did you get on with them?’ ‘Fairly well,’ Samuel said. ‘I think because I was so quiet, a lot of them chatted to me. Although there were none that I became close to.’

Lewis reached his head and massaged it briefly, then took his hands away. ‘In a moment, I want you to turn over so I can go down your back again. Before you do, I’d like you to consider taking your top off so I can massage your back directly on the skin.’

‘That will not only feel much nicer, but it will also relax you even more.’ Samuel thought to himself, ‘I couldn’t have done that three months ago, but after what I’ve been through, what does uncovering my back matter.’ he sat up, took his top off and lay down. Then he turned over.

‘Well done,’ Lewis told him. Before he turned over Lewis had seen a weak looking chest and a sparse covering of black chest hairs. His stomach was flat with not an ounce of fat on it.

As he massaged the back of his head, Lewis waited for him to say go. By now Samuel was enjoying his unexpected massage and it took him longer. ‘Go.’ he eventually said. As he moved down onto his bare shoulders Lewis asked, ‘Did you have any dates with any of the girls at school?’

As Lewis massaged down his bare back, Samuel called out, ‘That feels lovely.’ Then he answered the question, ‘No, I was very shy then, and I suppose a bit frightened of getting too close. Not that I had the opportunity. Although one of the girls I particularly liked did give me a lovely kiss on the day we left school.’

As Lewis massaged his cheeks, he asked, ‘Do you know why you felt frightened?’ ‘I suppose because I didn’t really know what to do if I got close.’ Samuel admitted. This time he stayed completely relaxed at the massage on his cheeks and enjoyed it.

Moving down his legs Lewis asked, ‘When you left school, where you still a virgin?’ ‘Yes.’ came a quiet reply as the back of his neck went red. ‘How about at work?’ Lewis asked, ‘Did you have any girlfriends then?’ ‘No, I was still too shy to actually ask one out.’ Samuel said, sounding sad. ‘Although I have met a few I’d have loved to have had as a girlfriend.’

‘Are you still a virgin?’ Lewis asked as he started back up from his feet. Samuel went quiet and didn’t answer for a while. Then as Lewis’s hands moved onto his cheeks he whispered, ‘I don’t know.’

‘Is that because of what happened to you?’ Lewis asked as he moved up his back. ‘Yes,’ came another very quiet reply. ‘Then you’re still a virgin,’ Lewis told him, ‘What they did to you doesn’t count.’ ‘But there was more than what you saw on the video,’ Samuel said miserably, ‘They made me do things to them too.’

‘It’s ok,’ Lewis said, ‘I know what they made you do. That doesn’t count either.’ By now he had reached his head. ‘Turn over.’ Lewis instructed. As he did Lewis could see he was near to tears. ‘Sit up.’ he instructed as he opened his arms.

Samuel sat up and as Lewis’s arms closed round him, he put his own arms around Lewis then put his head on his shoulder. Then he burst into tears. Lewis stroked his back and said, ‘Let it all out, it’s good to cry, it’s natures release. You’re getting rid of bad memories and it’s also relief because it’s all over now.’