Chapter 4: Purely for His Own Benefit

‘It wasn’t until Zacks hand slid up my back inside my blouse,’ Molly told him, ‘That I became aware he had done it. I panicked inside but didn’t let it show. The kissing on my breasts had been so nice, I relaxed again and said nothing.’

‘His hand reached my bra strap and in seconds I felt it go loose. He did it so easily I guessed immediately he must have done it quite a few times before.’

‘He brought his hand round the front and caressed my breasts under my bra directly on the skin. It felt nice, but again he was quite rough. I hadn’t realised just how rough he was until I experienced your lovely caress tonight.’

‘Then he pushed my bra up and kissed all over my breasts. I couldn’t speak, the feeling was amazing and when he kissed then sucked my nipples I cried out in delight.’

‘I think that probably made him think he’d made it, because he slid his hand down to my waist and started trying to undo my jeans. ‘No. Stop.’ I said, ‘I’m not ready for that yet.’

‘I had taken hold of his hand and was pulling it away. He took hold of my hand and pressed it between his legs. ‘I’m ready,’ he said as he held it against his cock which was very hard and moving around in his trousers.’

‘We’ll I’m not,’ I said, ‘You’re going too fast for me.’ It was the first cock I’d ever felt. I had no idea they got so hard. I was both excited at feeling it and scared at the thought of what it might do.’

‘He backed off, then kissed my breasts once more. ‘You make me so worked up,’ he said, ‘I’m sure my cock has told you that I want you in my bed, but I’ll try not to move too fast.’

‘He carried on caressing my breasts with occasional kisses and sucks but didn’t attempt to go further. When it was time to go, we stood up. I fastened everything up, then we had a stand-up hug and a kiss. I could feel his cock still hard not only pressing against me but jumping about.’

‘I was so surprised that I was having such an effect on him.’ ‘You keep putting yourself down,’ Lewis told her. ‘You’re a lovely person and you have a lovely and very attractive body. The boys haven’t bothered with you yet because you were too shy. And because you haven’t met the right one yet.’

‘Anyway,’ Molly continued, ‘He walked me home and seemed to be ok with me despite his disappointment. As we walked, he told me he so wanted to have sex with me, but he’d try and control himself until I was ready. I really didn’t think he would force anything onto me, so I was just over the moon to have aroused a man, any man, so much.’

‘We kissed in our porch, and he felt my breasts over my clothes. As he pressed against me, I could feel he was still very hard. I didn’t know how long men stayed hard, so I had no idea if he’d been like that all the way home or if it had stiffened up again when he held me.’

‘Whatever, that night I had a lovely dream where the two of us were in Zacks bed and as I imagined everything that might happen, I went to sleep feeling so excited.’

‘When I thought about it the light of day, I knew that much as I’d like to experience it, I’d be absolutely terrified at the idea of that hard rod going inside me. Looking back now I suppose I should have realised that he wouldn’t be capable of doing it gently.’

‘Anyway, we had arranged to go out together the following Monday. But on Wednesday my dad died suddenly. I rang Zach and let him know. I was a bit peeved when he asked.’ ‘Are we still meeting on Monday?’ When I told him no, I had the funeral to see to, he didn’t sound pleased and was quite short when he said, ‘What about the following Monday?’

‘I knew the funeral would all be over by then, so I said, ‘Yes, that’s fine.’ He hung up without asking if I was coping ok or if there was anything he could do. I know he hadn’t met dad, but I had thought he might have offered to accompany me for support.’

‘Still, I was busy making arrangements for the next week, then there was the funeral. By the time Monday came around I had had a lot of nights on my own, something I hadn’t been used to. So, I was really looking forward to having company for the evening.’

‘I went to Zachs, as we were eating out at a little restaurant near to his flat. He let me in and gave me a hug and a kiss. ‘How are you coping?’ he asked. It was the first time he had given any acknowledgement to my dad dying.’

‘I told him I’d been too busy organising everything to feel it until a few days ago when it hit me. ‘I haven’t slept well the last few nights.’ I told him. ‘Well, you’re welcome to stay over here anytime.’ he said. He didn’t mention anything about what had happened, although that didn’t sink in until the next day.’

‘We went out to the restaurant and had a lovely meal. We chatted about work and places we’d like to go to on holiday. I started to imagine we were a couple again and going off on holiday.’

‘After the meal we walked back to his flat for a coffee. We sat on the settee and had our coffees, then he took me in his arms, and we kissed. He caressed my breasts then undid my blouse and my bra before grabbing hold of my bare breasts once more.’

‘I was ok with that as he had done it before, but I felt uncertain about how far I should let him go. When he let his hand go down to my waist I opened my mouth to object, then scared of frightening him off I kept quiet.’

‘He undid my jeans and as he kissed me, he slid his hand down inside over my panties. As he felt my hairs through them, it felt quite exciting, and I felt quite aroused.’

‘Then he slid his hand back up to my waist and slid his hand down inside on my skin. That sent lovely shivers through me until his fingers reached my hairs. Then he was poking about quite roughly as he tried to get his finger into my vagina. He didn’t seem to realise how rough he was being, or perhaps he just didn’t care.’

‘Ow,’ I said, ‘That’s hurting.’ ‘Sorry.’ he said, ‘It’s because your clothes are in the way. How about we go to bed, then you can stop the night.’ I couldn’t decide. I’d dreamt about it, I wanted to experience sex and most of all at that moment I didn’t want to spend the night alone.’

‘Ok.’ I agreed. He looked surprised but pleased and took his hand out. I fastened my jeans and stood up. He took my hand and led me into the bedroom. As soon as we were inside, he took me into his arms and kissed me. ‘Your first time will be very special,’ he said, ‘You’ll always remember it.’

‘He slid my blouse off my shoulders and tossed it and my bra aside. Then he ran his hands all over my breasts in between kissing them and sucking my nipples. Most of it felt lovely but he was very rough with some of his handling.’

‘Then he pulled his own top off and drew me close to him, so my breasts were against his strong and hairy chest. That felt nice, although he did tend to squeeze us together a bit too hard.’

‘As we hugged, I could feel his hard cock pressing into me. I was quite excited to think I would soon be seeing my first hard cock. In fact, my first cock in any state.’

‘He undid my jeans and pulled them down, squatting in front of me as he did so. Then he helped me off with them before kissing my hairs over my panties. That felt nice but he had taken hold of my cheeks to pull me close and his hold on them was rough.’

‘After kissing all over the front of my panties he took hold of their top and pulled them down. Then as he was pulling them off over my feet, he was kissing my hairs. He pulled hard on my cheeks as he tried to push his face into my hairs and get his tongue into my vagina.’

‘He didn’t seem to be able to and was pulling exceptionally hard on my cheeks. Eventually he gave up, stood up and looked me up and down. ‘Not bad.’ he said as he undid his trousers.’