Chapter 2: Sandras First Climax

‘I’ve been as happy as I can be in my flat, but I get very lonely at times.’ ‘Well let’s hope when you go home this time, you will feel able to start changing that,’ Lewis said. ‘Sit up now.’ he added.

Moving back to her side he took her in his arms and hugged her. Sandra hugged him back, then she kissed him. Lewis responded and they had a long kiss. As they broke for air, Sandra put her head on his shoulder and simply relaxed.

As he felt her go loose, Lewis said, ‘You couldn’t have done any of that a few hours ago.’ ‘I know,’ she said, ‘It’s wonderful, isn’t it?’ ‘Stay there as long as you want,’ Lewis told her. ‘Then when you’re ready to lie down again, I’ll tell you what I think about everything you’ve told me.’

‘Then I’ll tell you what I think you need to do to go forward from here and have a happy life. After that, if you decide to accept any of my recommendations, I will do whatever I can to help you achieve them.’

They sat still in each other’s arms for a while. Sandra enjoying the feel of safety being in Lewis’s arms gave her. She also enjoyed feeling his hand stroking up and down her bare back.

After a while Lewis asked, ‘Are you ready to move on?’ Reluctantly Sandra moved. Lewis returned to the end of the settee and Sandra lay with her head on his lap. Returning his hand to her head he resumed a gentle massage. His other hand he rested back flat and still over her hairs. Sandra had a sudden urge to draw her knees up and apart which she resisted.

Lewis smiled at her. ‘Thank you for feeling able to tell me so much about you and your problems,’ he said. ‘Now you have done so, you have the ability to leave here without them and start a new life. Only you can choose that.’

‘Let us first look at what you have suffered for the last time. Your dad wanted a son. There are probably a lot of men like that, but after the birth, most are so pleased to have a healthy baby that it overcomes any disappointment they might have felt.’

‘Unfortunately, your dad didn’t and there’s nothing to be done about that. You have actually coped with that part of your life very well. Lots of children are one parent families and very happy with it. You had the complete love of one parent, your mum, so you did much better than many. You have to accept that is how it was now and move on.’

‘When your mum died it affected your dad badly. That again is not unusual. We can only hope that that was because he and your mum had a close relationship that suited them both.’

‘In the last six months of his life, by your own admission, your dad was often confused and incapable of doing anything. He was very lucky to have a daughter to look after him rather than put him in a home. Under the circumstances it was far more than he deserved.’

‘He physically raped you three times, giving you a lot of pain and mental hangups about love and relationships. Being raped is bad enough. Being raped by a close member of your family is even worse. That knowledge is probably harder to bear than the memory of the rape itself. Incidentally, the tearing feeling and extra pain you experienced the first time, was your membrane being torn. It happens to many women, but it’s a once only thing that is never repeated.’

‘However, although it can’t be denied that it was your dad’s cock that penetrated you and raped you, I do not believe that your dad deliberately raped you.’

As Sandra looked astounded and opened her mouth to speak Lewis said, ‘Wait, let me finish. Think about some of the things you told me about what your father said.’

‘You didn’t used to make so much noise.’ ‘She was here last night.’ ‘Goodnight, Mary,’ referring to your mum. ‘Come on Mary, I’m sorry for whatever I did.’ When he messed himself and needed help, he didn’t call you, he called, ‘Mary.’ When you dried him and he erected, on one occasion he told you, ‘You’ve always been able to get me excited Mary,’ And finally, you told me that you and your mum could pass for sisters.’

‘In my view, in his loneliness, his senility and his longing for your mum, he saw you as her. He did not intentionally rape his daughter, he just took what he considered his entitlement, sex with his wife.’

‘That doesn’t lessen its effect on you. It doesn’t excuse in any way what he did to you. But by accepting what I believe to be a very reasonable explanation as to why it actually happened, you can at least put your dad behind you in your past without hating him.’

Sandra lay still thinking through what Lewis had said. It seemed so logical she wondered why it had never crossed her mind. As it sank in, she realised it would make such a difference to her memories. She jumped up and moved in front of Lewis.

Climbing up with her knees each side of his thighs, she sat on his legs, then hugged him and kissed him. Breaking for air she said, ‘Thank you so much, that will make such a difference to me.’ Tears were streaming down her face, but this time tears of happiness.

She put her head back on his shoulder and settled back into him, feeling happier than she had done for a long time. Then she became aware that something hard was pressing into her hairs. What’s more, she could feel it moving.

As she drew her breath in sharply with the realisation it was Lewis’s cock, he said, ‘Yes, I’m afraid it is. When a beautiful young lady plants her naked body right on top of it, it does its own thing.’

‘But don’t you see,’ she said happily, ‘I’m not frightened. I should be scared to death but if anything, I’m excited. ‘Well, I certainly am,’ Lewis said, ‘Would you like to lie down again, and I’ll explain.’

It was with reluctance Sandra returned to lying down, although seeing the bulge in his trousers and positioning her head so she could feel it against the side of her head felt nice.

‘Remember what we discussed when you imagined how it would be if I did to you, what your dad did.’ Lewis told her. ‘You were able to think and compare and work out it wouldn’t be like that if I did it to you.’

‘That is why you are not feeling frightened when you feel me getting excited. You know I’m not going to rape you. That is how you will be with future boyfriends too, once we have cured you together.’

‘At the moment, you remember the pain and suffering from your dad’s actions. That’s because when you think of sex, you have nothing else to remember. The pain you felt from your dad was because your dad went into you dry.’

‘There was no foreplay to get you worked up and produce oil in your vagina. Because of that, his dry cock scratched the insides of your vagina then when he shot his load, his cum went into those scratches and caused the stinging. That would not normally happen.’

‘You also have a problem for future love making in that you have no idea of how to make love properly. I know that from your description of your dreams of Kent.’

‘So, having sorted out your dad’s attack on you, all that remains is to give you instruction in love making and a happy experience to wipe out the bad memories. You will then be able to move forward to enjoy a new life and find a long-term partner.’

Sandra was feeling very happy and very excited. She was liking the idea of this instruction and experience and couldn’t help but hope Lewis would be part of it.

‘Before we move forward,’ Lewis asked, ‘Do you agree with my explanation for why your dad did what he did?’ ‘Yes.’ she said right away. ‘And knowing that, can you forgive him for doing it?’ Sandra thought for a little longer. ‘Yes, I can.’ she said.

‘But I don’t think I can ever forgive him for my treatment as a child.’ ‘That’s very understandable.’ Lewis said, ‘But I believe you have already learned to accept that and put it behind you a long time ago.’

‘I have suggested a treatment to cure you consisting of instruction and experience. Are you happy to consider what I might suggest?’ ‘Would you be involved in it?’ Sandra asked. ‘Yes, completely.’ Lewis told her. ‘Then my answer is yes.’ she said smiling at him.

‘Thank you,’ he said, ‘But you haven’t heard the details yet. In my experience what you have suffered is worse than having a stranger rape you. So, this is my recommended cure.’

‘First, whilst you are here relaxed and naked with me, I will instruct you in making love. From your first kiss right through to going to sleep afterwards. I will do that using your body as the blackboard. If you are willing, I will also use my body as part of the blackboard, culminating in the two of us making love. Providing always that you are still agreeable when we reach that point.’