Chapter 33

“So, what do you think? Are you ready to try this?”

I took a sip from the bottle of water that Atticus’s pretty assistant gave me when we stepped into the office. We were on the 36th floor of his downtown L.A. office building. Of course, his office was very posh and stylish. He had a large oak desk with a big executive-type chair, and there were plants in the corner of the room that gave the space a sweet, organic smell. On the walls were various autographed posters of pretty porn girls, and one of them was Lana.

“I’m thinking about it, but I still have some questions.” I thought for a moment. “What’s the money like?” I also shot him another ‘you’d better not lie to me again about money’ look, just to remind him of our earlier conversation.

“It depends on what you’re willing to do. Starting out, you’ll make around $500 for what we call a boy-girl shoot, but that will go up to $1,000 the more popular you get.”

My jaw dropped. “You’ve got to be kidding me. I could make $500 in Dallas in the VIP room in a half hour, and that didn’t even involve sex.”

“Listen, you need to think bigger. Lana started off just like you, but now she makes $20,000 a month just off her website and $15,000 as a featured dancer when I book her in gentleman’s clubs.”

“Really?”

“Yes,” he said enticingly. “It’s about getting your name out there, getting you popular, and to do that, it takes shooting scenes, and in the beginning, it won’t be for very much money.”

“But as I get popular, I’ll make more?”

“Yes, you can make up to $1,000 for a boy-girl scene once you have a following, maybe more. Again, shooting scenes is just a way to get your name out there so we can capitalize on your fame.”

“That makes sense ... I guess ... but what about shooting different types of scenes other than boy-girl?” I was a little embarrassed to ask this question, but I remembered watching porn with Derek, where the girl did a lot more than only be with one guy.

He smiled. “I can get you over $1,500 if you were willing to do anal and about $2,000 for doing a shoot with two men, and being with multiple men would be even more.”

Anal ... on camera ... showing my gaping asshole ... and multiple guys, which would mean more anal and more cumshots ... I should have expected this, right? But that’s where the money is... That was a lot to digest at this point. However, having my own website and being a featured dancer was very appealing. Two porn girls came through as featured dancers when I worked at the Rhino in Dallas, and they were treated like royalty; the idea of traveling and seeing more of the country and dancing in different clubs was very appealing.

“What about shooting scenes with women?”

“That’s something that’s not going to pay very much regardless of how popular you get. However, shooting what’s called girl-girl scenes is important because it’s something that guys love to watch, and again, it’s all about driving traffic to your website and getting men inside the gentlemen’s clubs when you’re a featured dancer.” He paused for a moment. “Have you been with other women?”

“Yes, I have,” I admitted shyly.

“Good, it’s just part of being in the business.” He took a sip of his water, and our eyes met. “Have you ever been filmed, in your personal life, I mean?”

I thought for a moment. Only two other people had ever seen any of the videos that I’d shot with Derek, and I didn’t like the idea of anyone else knowing that this was something that I’d done. However, I was really considering this, and if I was going to be successful, I’d need Atticus’s help. I reasoned that for this to work, I needed to be honest with him. “Yes, I have,” I whispered.

“At some point, I’d like to view it. It would really help me market you to different websites within the industry.”

I took a deep breath. “You can see it now if you want.”

His eyes widened. “Really?”

“Yes.” I pulled out my phone, logged into the iCloud, and then handed it to him. “I’m going to go use the bathroom and get a cup of coffee.” For some reason, I didn’t want to be in the room while he watched. That would just be too weird. I stood up and walked out of his office.

After using the restroom, I took the elevator down to the lobby and ordered coffee and a sandwich from one of the vendors. This whole day seemed very surreal. When I woke up this morning, I contemplated moving back to Texas. I hated the idea of crawling back to Tony and working for him because it would be like admitting defeat, both to him and to myself. I hated giving him those disgusting blowjobs, but I made really good money at the Rhino, especially compared to what I was making dancing here in L.A.

Then my mind turned to getting into the porn business. Is this even something that I could actually do? I always thought that porn stars did really well financially; however, from what Atticus revealed, that really wasn’t the case. I did love the idea of being a featured dancer and having my own website, though. I couldn’t help but think that the money would be there; all I had to do was let it happen.