Chapter 2

ANGELA

I reached down and picked up his ring from the trash can and put it in my purse with tears in my eyes.

Ellen, my attorney said, “You don’t have to go through with this, you know. It’s obvious to every one but you, that you have unfinished business. I’ve handled enough divorces in my time that I know that this one shouldn’t be happening. I see it written all over you. Some guy has turned your head with pretty words and flowers. He wants in your panties and you’re falling for it. Angela, make sure this is what you want. You have ninety days to fish or cut bait. But remember, your husband will be moving on too.”

“Right now, he’s heartbroken. I saw the love in his eyes. I wish I had a man who loved me like that. I just haven’t found him yet. I’ll file these papers with the court this afternoon so your time will start then.”

“Thanks for everything, Ellen.”

Ellen said, “Please, don’t thank me. This is one time I feel there are no winners, just losers. Like your husband said, enjoy your new life.”

I walked out of Ellen’s office and just leaned against the hallway wall, wiping tears, thinking about what she said. It was then I realized a big part of my life is over and the beginning of a new one.

As I entered the lobby, Allen was waiting on me. He ran over to me grinning from ear to ear.

“You’re free, Angie. Now we don’t have to hide our feelings and passion. Let’s celebrate, have dinner and find a nice hotel room.”

“I’m sorry, Allen. It’s not a good time. Somehow, I don’t feel I should be celebrating the death of what was once the best thing in my life. Am I doing the right thing, Allen?”

“You know you are, Baby. We can’t have a relationship with your ball and chain of fifteen years hanging around. Do I need to tell him how it’s going to be from now on and to stay away from you? That won’t be a problem for me.”

“Leave Jim alone, Allen. I broke his heart today. I don’t deserve to be loved by him. He will be coming by to see and pick up our kids occasionally. I expect you to behave when you’re there. If you can’t do that, you won’t be moving in. Are we clear on that?”

Allen said, “Sure, Baby. I understand. I can move in as soon as you give me the green light. Baby, I’m packed and ready.”

“I think it’s too soon for that, Allen. Maybe in time, if we see we’re compatible enough to live together. I have my kids who will be impacted by you in my house so we’ll discuss it later. Right now is not a good time.”

I resisted Allen’s sexual advances for two months after I signed the divorce papers. I was still feeling guilty I guess. The first time we had sex, he came inside me before I could tell him to pull out. I was in my safe time but I still sweated the week before my period was due. I was praying his sperm had not scored in me. Jim had been snipped after Little Jim was born so birth control had not been an issue with us. Luckily, I did not get pregnant from my newly found sexual freedom. I decided to go back on the pill.

It was still fifteen days until the bell was to ring on my marriage. Allen and I were out having dinner at The Red House, a high end local restaurant. Allen had fucked me on the kitchen table before we left. I was feeling pretty good from the two orgasms I had plus the feeling of his sperm inside me. I could still feel it leaking out of me into the crotch of my panties. I felt wicked and desired.

We were seated and I began noticing the rest of the patrons when I saw Jim, sitting by himself at a table for two in the back. I told Allen that I would be right back and walked over to where Jim was seated. Between the good fucking I received and the alcohol I had drank, I was feeling a little naughty. I decided to let Jim see a happy face and let him think I’m quite happy with my decisions. Deep down, I’m not but I can’t let him see it. He was obviously still not dating.

I said, “Hi, Stranger, long time no see. I guess I’ve been missing you when you pick up the kids. Eating alone?”

Jim said, “Hello, Angie, you are as beautiful as ever. I’m here with a friend. Are the kids ok?”

“The kids are unhappy but ok, Jim. They miss you.”

“Well, as I recall, you didn’t give me many options to remaining a family.”

I looked around trying to see who might be with him. His friend walked up behind me.

Jim said, “There you are, Sweetie, as his friend returned to the table from the restroom.

I turned around just as he said, “Angie, I believe you know Ms. Cassidy, Attorney at Law. Ellen sat down beside Jim and gave him a kiss on the lips.

Ellen said, “Did you miss me, Sweet Lips?”

I was the one that got the surprise. Jim had never seen a look like the one on my face. I was furious. I don’t know why? I’m the one who threw him away. I’m standing here with another man’s semen in me, flaunting it in my Ex husbands face. Did I think he would shrink into a hole somewhere ... but my attorney? Really?

With all the civility I could muster, I said, “Good evening, Ellen, I was not aware you and Jim were seeing each other.” I was doing my best to not let her see the fire in my eyes. I was rabid.

Ellen said, “Angie, you remember the little speech I gave you in the office about being sure of what you want? I gave you over two months to decide and then called Jim to see how he was coping with your decision to bail out of your marriage for a teenage crush. We’ve been dating for a couple of weeks now. I see you’ve obviously moved on with your lover. I’m doing my best to pick up the pieces you left behind. Good luck, Angie. Now if you’ll excuse us I have plans for this handsome gentleman.”

I said, “I see. It was nice to see you both.” I hurried back to our table before I said something that shouldn’t be said.

I stared at them throughout our meal. I watched as Ellen wooed and seduced my man. My man? He’s not my man anymore. I threw him away ... for what? I’ve learned that over the past couple of months that things may not be exactly what I was led to believe. Jim is a good lover. Although he makes me feel desired and sexy when we are together, I’ve found him to be somewhat shallow and self centered. I can’t admit it to myself but I’m sorely afraid I’ve been stupid and naive. I can’t say I wasn’t warned.

I know he’s texting and talking to another woman when he thinks I’m not paying attention. I’m glad I didn’t let him move in. That would have been a disaster. The kids don’t care for him anyway. He treats them like their nuisances.

I watched as Ellen slipped off her heel and rubbed her foot up and down Jim’s leg. It was all I could do to keep from getting up, marching over there and starting something I couldn’t finish ... with my own damn lawyer yet. I know Allen could see the steam coming out of my ears. I was livid.

Allen said, “Damn, I should have known. You still have the hots for your ex, don’t you? You’re green with jealousy. I love it. You’re sitting here with your pussy full of my cum pining over your Ex. You’re ready to bury her in the desert if we had one.”

“Allen, please take me home before I do or say something stupid. I’m sorry.”