Chapter 4: Fortissimo

‘Fuck, Carole,’ I moaned. ‘You’re not on the pill, are you?’

‘No?’ she said, as if she herself wasn’t sure. ‘No. I just couldn’t wait to feel you inside me ... it’s extra taboo. And the fact that you came inside my pussy, too ... fuck... ‘

The way she said it did suddenly make it sound good, make the forbidden side of our relationship something that drove our lust even higher. I imagined, what if my sperm did take hold in her womb ... and was surprised to feel my cock twitch with arousal at the image. ‘You’re sick and sexy, Carole Winters,’ I accused her, gently kissing my cousin’s neck, deciding to keep my thoughts to myself for now.

‘I know,’ she giggled. ‘Mmm, makes me wish you could fuck me again right now, thinking about that... ‘

‘Soon,’ I whispered, nibbling on her ear. ‘But I think maybe we should head home tonight,’ I added, growing serious. Carole sat up on one arm, looking alarmed by my abrupt change. ‘Home? What do you mean?’

‘I mean Tillton. Where else, Carole? We have to talk about this, and somewhere safe. It’s a big change. What if—what if I do get you pregnant? Just from this one time?’

‘Oh wonderful, the reality check,’ Carole sighed, falling back onto the mattress. Her hair was an adorable mess. She breathed out heavily (and pouty) enough to make her bangs flutter up from her forehead. ‘I don’t know, Caleb. What if you did? Would that really be so bad?’ she demanded. ‘This may sound racist, but we don’t exactly look related! And our situation at home isn’t the definition of great. How much would it really cost us to uproot? Start a new life somewhere with a different name?’

‘Wow, slow down,’ I said. ‘First we’re having sex. Now we’re having a baby together and reinventing ourselves? That escalated quickly.’

She was silent for a moment, her gaze averted seriously, before saying, slowly, ‘I thought I wasn’t wrong about your feelings.’

‘Carole, I—’

‘So, your sexual feelings for me, and mine for you, are something we’ve only recently talked about. That’s fine; but, Caleb, all these years, the way we love each other, how close we are—we’ve been each other’s family more than anybody else. Isn’t that the sort of relationship you want with a partner? The way you are gentle with me, put your arm around me, let my happiness affect yours, as I do with you. Don’t you see?’

It was my turn to be silent and thoughtful. She was, apparently, more aware of my feelings for her than I had ever expected—how had I come across as so transparent? I thought she would just assume my affections were because we were only very close friends, and, of course, cousins...

‘Yes ... I do.’ I exhaled slowly. ‘You’re right. But let’s start slow. I’ll come here to live with you for school, to begin with. We don’t need to make any more impulsive decisions now. We’ll both be much happier living together again, and see where it goes ... from there. What do you think?’

‘I love you,’ Carole said, her eyes shining with happy tears now as she kissed me.

‘I love you too, Carole.’ I cupped her face and kissed her back, soft, gentle kisses full of love, scooting my body close beside her. The feeling of her body simply being allowed to be so close to mine like this was still so new, her kiss still so inflaming and exciting, that it didn’t take long for me to get hard again for her. Her breasts were soft and smooth in my hand, plump; her nipple was in my mouth. She squirmed against my body, making little breathless sounds until I climbed back over her body, kneeing her legs open, before rubbing my erect penis through her still-wet pussy with a moan.

‘God you feel good,’ she whimpered, as I stopped and slid smoothly inside her. ‘I’ve wanted this for so long, Caleb, to feel you inside me. To stretch me open with your cock, to squirt your cum up way inside me.’

Our gazes locked. My cousin’s sweet face, was flushed once again in that becoming way, hazel eyes half-open, lips reddened from my kisses. I got harder inside her just gazing at that expression. I was fucking her deeper now, my hands at her hips, how soft she was, stretching around me ... such a tight fit...