Chapter 27

“You think I’m not terrified of losing you? Especially after I just found you? After what I did to the assistant? If that asshole were to hurt you I might kill more than just him or any he has working for him. The sight of seeing you safe was the only thing that calmed me, THE ONLY THING! I may not seem like I care mother, but I do far more than I thought I would.”

Sighing herself Angelika caressed Alan’s face, “I know my son, though I feel the same every time you go against them. I just found you, and I DO NOT wish to lose the only child I have ever had. Though you know, we do seem far closer than I thought we would.” Hanging her head a few tears escaped her eyes, “I still have no memory of your birth or of who your father may be. I do have an idea though I fear that the truth might do irreparable damage to both of us.”

“No I don’t think it will, not by a long shot. Hell if anything I feel it will make us both far stronger” Alan replied.

“I hope so son, I really do. As you said though I think you need to do further work on us so we have far more strength to resist him. As it is now I am of no help to any of you.” Angelika said turning her head away as more tears left her eyes. She’d never felt useless before, this was a true first for her, a first she damn sure didn’t like!

Alan saw that she was upset and moved to comfort her, then was amazed when she refused his attention. “I’m sorry that I have dredged up painful memories.”

“NO! Never apologize for giving me back the memories that I ... that WE were all robbed of! Look Alan I know you are growing more powerful, I have no doubt that you will one day kill that prick of a doctor. I just want to make sure that you are still alive to enjoy the victory and freedom with all of us.” Turning away more tears fell from her eyes. “I know I wasn’t there for you. Just as you weren’t there to fill the hole in my life that not having you there made.”

“You don’t have to mother. I know that you care, I know that you were empty, I know all of that, ok? All I can think of is killing that son of a bitch! He took my family from me leaving me to be beaten and nearly killed. THAT alone makes me want to kill him the most!” Alan growled out his eyes flashing with a buildup of energy from his abilities.

Sighing Emory approached the both of them, “I know that it isn’t much of a consolation, you do have family now. Though you do not use the Verlorenen name you are and will always be family.”

“Thank you uncle that means quite a bit coming from you.” The he looked at Madde, “though I am not so sure that all of the family feels that way.”

Smirking Madde looked at Alan hard, “After what you did to all of us it might take all of us a bit to forgive you)” Holding up her hand she stopped Alan from speaking. “I understand why you did it, all the reasons behind it. The thing is we all feel that you couldn’t trust us.”

“That’s the problem Madde, we really couldn’t, not as weak as most of you were, now? I still fear it but the resistance is higher as is the hiding field. You have to understand I am strong yes, so is the doctor. That plus the fact that he like the people here in the village have had years to learn tricks. I got the short end of that the first time I went against the doctor. The only thing I think that saved me was mother.” Alan explained to Madde.

“Wait, wait if she is the weakest against him how did she save or help or whatever you?” Madde asked.

“As I have explained before, all of our abilities are tied to our emotions. I think it was for that reason that the Doctor and the assistant limited them as much as they did. The stronger the emotion the stronger the ability. Though as I found out extreme bursts of emotion can also be extremely debilitating.” Alan explained.

Madde was nodding as the light of understanding was starting to shine through. “So getting mad isn’t really a good thing?”

“It’s not that, it’s more like being able to control it when you get angry. When we went against the assistant, I was controlling it at first. I think that’s the only thing that really saved me. When he tried to shove mother out of the window, defenseless and almost comatose, that is when I lost it. It wasn’t ‘til after it was all over that I realized, I had been very close to dying. As you heard mother say I do tend to push as far as I can. When I went into her mind I couldn’t find her, I looked ‘til I found a part hidden away.” Alan took a deep breath as Madde started to nod again.

“Are you saying that you would sacrifice yourself for her?” A surprised Madde said.

“Yes, in a fucking heartbeat. I am unsure of this bond that seems to be growing stronger between us. Hell even what the hell to call it. I just know that right now there is nothing I wouldn’t do to save her, NOTHING!” Alan growled to emphasize his point.

Alan felt a tap on his shoulder turning he was met by the heated look in his mother’s eyes. “As I told you before you die saving me? I will find a way to bring you back just so I can kick your ass!”