Chapter 21: Fixations

The board and a handful of other Circle members sat around in the living room of the core building on Monday afternoon; the day was a partial holiday so most of the Circle was home. Holly, who was not present, had just been confirmed as an affiliate member. Julie had briefed her beforehand on the roles, responsibilities, timing, and benefits of membership. Holly had already handed over her check for $500, as well as a separate check as her rent on a portion of the tenth house on the Circle that Julie had computed as a reasonable rent given the other things pending regarding that house. Those payments were a bit presumptuous, but turned out to be valid assumptions.

Nancy Mason was also elected as an Affiliate Member until she could find some way to have her own place on Circle property. She was ecstatic and tried to think of some way to display her new status in life. In the end, she just settled for hanging around with everyone as she’d been doing and basking in the love that she shared with everyone.

Aaron and Shelby were also accepted as members. Julie and Dave had also talked to them about what else was entailed besides the visible things they’d seen as they visited. Both of them were enthused about moving to Florida to the Circle, and Aaron was especially eager to begin his new job. They’d already started to arrange for their belongings to be moved and their house sold, and Aaron had immediately given a couple of months’ notice to his CPA firm – BARF, hanging in with them until the end of tax season.

On Tuesday, Dave drove up to Orlando in the morning to visit InDrex, the company making an app for self-driving cars. He’d read up on the state of the art on driverless cars, at least what was in the public press. Everything at the company seemed right on the verge of moving ahead, but everyone there was having problems of some kind.

Bjorn Andersen was the CEO of InDrex, as well as the brains of the operation. The idea for the app had been his, and he’d been the power in the negotiations with Toyota and Google. He was working on a few others.

Andersen was a young powerhouse in his early-thirties who admitted to only sleeping four hours a day. His own money and a healthy chunk from Holly’s venture capital firm in Chicago backed the company. The VC firm had taken an ownership stake in the firm for twenty million dollars in exchange for a position on the board and a hefty percentage. Everyone involved hoped to see an IPO in a year or two, about the time the first commercial sales of driverless cars of some kind took to the roads.

Dave got a briefing on the company, its loose management structure, the product and possible variations, status of the end apps, and the state of talks with the various manufacturers expected to offer driverless cars in the North American market. Dave talked with Bjorn for a few moments at the end of the briefing about the board’s schedule and duties, and then left to make the long drive home at the end of the day.

When he got home, he found dinner had long ago ended, but Holly had saved him a plate. She rushed around the kitchen at home to warm up the dinner for him.

“HOLLY!” Dave finally said in a loud voice that resonated around the empty house.

She stopped and looked surprised at him. “What? Did I do something wrong?”

“No, BUT you do not need to act like a submissive little wife. I am a big boy, and can get my own dinner. I am very grateful for you saving me a plate. The chicken looks delicious, especially with the vegetables that you selected for me, but I do NOT expect to be waited on.”

“But ... I love you. I want to do things for you.”

Dave held up a finger and then quickly walked into the core to the library shelves. He ignored the sexual activities already underway in the core living room, and returned to his home and Holly. He handed her the book he’d taken off the library shelves.

“Holly, this was a well-known book about twenty years ago, but I only discovered it about two years ago in a used bookstore. It’s by Gary Chapman, and is entitled The Five Love Languages. You should read it because you presumed that when you did something subservient for me – a service, that I would see that as an act of love. I won’t say more, other than to hint that my primary love language that I do get that message of love from is not personal service. See if you can figure out the others. We’ll talk about it when you’ve finished, and this is not a command that you read it. You can probably find various summaries online if you don’t want to read the complete volume.”

Holly took the book and thumbed through the pages while Dave ate.

Dave said, “You should be out with the others in the core. I saw that some erotic things had started out there when I raced in and got the book.”

“I know, but I wanted to be here when you got home.”

“Have you made love with anybody today, men or women?” Dave asked.

“No.”

“Yesterday?”

“Only you.”

“Holly, you worry me. I don’t want you to fixate on me. I know you have a fantasy about being my mate and us living together, but the reality is that I live in a house here that’s full of people who love each other – including me, and a whole Circle full of others who also love me and whom I love – including you. They’re all in the core or on the patio right now. I don’t fixate on any one of them, except Alice because we have a long history together, including the steps that led us to today during which we loosened up.”

“How can I un-fixate?” Holly sounded disappointed.

“Talk to Owen and Alice. They were both fixated on each other two years ago, and they unstuck to preserve somethings larger than themselves that today we call the Circle and my marriage. Ask them what they did, or if they did anything.” Dave briefly outlined what had happened when Alice went to Paris and Rome with Owen during their loosening up process, and how she almost jumped ship to live with Owen the rest of her life.

“What do you want to do now?” Holly asked, sounding unsure of herself.

“Let’s go out to the core and mix in with the others. I promised Kat some time loving her because for some reason we haven’t been together in a long time.”

Dave quickly shed his business clothes and donned some exercise shorts, but he knew they’d likely be gone in a few minutes. He joined Holly back in the living room; she was naked. They walked through the corridor leading to the core and the patio.

Kat seemed to have just finished making love with Roy. The two of them were curled up together quietly watching some of the other couples and threesomes that had formed and were still fucking or making love in some way.

Dave walked up to the pair. “Am I still on your dance card for tonight?” he asked Kat.

“Oh, yes. I’m so glad you’re back. I’m a bit messy from Roy. Let me wash off in the pool and showers.”

Holly quickly knelt in front of Kat. “NO! You won’t be messy for long, if you’re willing to let me clean you, and I hope it’ll be more pleasurable than the pool and shower.”

Kat agreed, spread her legs, and the two men watched as Holly swooped in with her tongue wagging and dove into Kat’s sodden cunt. A few slurping sounds were heard, and then Kat groaned as pleasure overtook her and then an orgasm swept her small frame. She gripped one of Roy’s legs as the climax hit her.

A little later, Holly pulled away and said, “There! I think that’s about as clean as I can get it without resorting to some serious suction with a vacuum cleaner.”

“I’m fine!” Kat stated sharply; trembling at the thought Holly just planted in her head.

Dave held his hand out, and Kat rose into his arms and they kissed. When they broke the kiss, Dave looked and Holly had all of Roy’s cock in her mouth as she massaged his scrotum and made happy humming noises. Roy was getting harder by the instant, so Dave guessed that he and Holly would couple very soon.

Kat and Dave took an adjacent empty double chaise as they kissed and whispered sweet love words to each other. Dave always found Kat pleasing. She was a pint-sized pixie in some ways, but had breasts that belonged on a larger, well-endowed woman. The combination made her a sexual delight for Dave, and then there was her personality that just sparkled for him every time they were near each other. Dave sometimes called her his ‘Love Pixie’.

As Dave entered her body with his long cock, Kat sighed in pleasure. “God, I will never get tired of making love with you. I wish you’d find me more often for this. I guess you’re expanding your harem, with Holly and Shelby.”

Dave shook his head. “I’m trying to get them to diversify and not focus so much on me. Oh, I love the ego stroking that their declarations of love and sex do for me, but I do them a disservice by letting them think they can form some kind of exclusive relationship with me.”

“So, what are you doing?”

“Besides making love to you?” he teased. “I just came from a ‘reality check’ with Holly, where I reminded her about the value set of the Circle and cohousing – non-monogamy, non-exclusivity, diversity, sharing, expansion, and growth. I’m hoping when she moves in with Aaron and Shelby that they’ll deflect some of her energy that’s focused on me.”

“Alice doesn’t mind?”

“No. Matter of fact I referred Holly to Alice and Owen since they were super-focused on each other after their European trip. I think one more minute together and she would have moved in with him for the rest of time. They backed down from that week of obsession, so I thought they could tell Holly how they coped with it.”

Kat kissed him hard and had a small orgasm, “They’re still pretty thick. I think he’s still her lover of choice besides you.”

“At least they pretend well, if there’s anything more than what we all see,” Dave admitted. “Maybe I should be worried, but I’m content to let Alice manage her own life. I make myself available to her, and she’s usually there doing the same for me. We’re close and intimate in all the right ways. The nights she hasn’t been next to me in bed are rare. That says something about both of us and our marriage, I think.”

“Oh ... God ... again ... fuck,” Kat crooned as another, more intense orgasm appeared on the heels of the one a minute earlier. “How do you do that? Is that because you’re so large inside me?”

Dave shrugged, “Maybe. I think the head of my cock gets near you’re A-spot, but my initial strokes rub your G-spot, and I like using my fingers on your clit while we’re fucking.”

“Whatever you’re doing, it’s working miracles on me. God, I’m on another planet. Maybe it’s all because I love you so much.”

A few minutes later, Dave allowed his own climax as he felt Kat working up to another ‘Big One’. She was on top of him when she came and fell into his arms. They made out for a while as he softened inside her.

Dave noted that Roy and Holly were making love on the chaise beside them. They were moving in slow motion.

After a long quiet time and cuddling, Dave asked Kat, “How’re things going with Mike and your new job?”

Kat sighed, “Oh, magnificently. I’m feeling so self-actualized working for him. I get to help in so many ways: makeup, helping the girls get comfortable with the situation, filming, editing, and now I’m helping Mike with the website and marketing of selected videos.”

“And your own videos?” Dave teased.

Kat said, “Ssssssh. You’re not supposed to know. I’ve done about one a week with Mike and sometimes Clarisse. I’m becoming quite the porn star according to him. Sean knows what’s going on, but no one else. I’ll show everybody one of these days, but for now we’re just having fun fucking, sucking, and filming our games. I have about a dozen up on Mike’s website. I have about as many as Alice does.”

“So, the job has benefits?”

“I get Mike to fuck me usually twice a day. When we got into a routine, Mike decided that I should do more videos. He met with Sean and me to go through that decision-making. It was pretty easy on my part.”

“You in love with Mike?”

“Yes, but I also love Sean ... and you ... and the other men. I love the Circle. This is the most fabulous situation in the world. Look around at all of us. We’re hornier than a Rome traffic jam. Everybody fucks everybody else – and we love all of them. The girls play nice together. The guys are great friends. We all have great jobs. This is heaven.”