4. Blown Mind

"Hi,"

"Oh ... hello..."

"Umm ... about last night..."

"Err ... I'm not sure I want to..."

"We don't have to talk about the details, I just wanted to apologise..."

" ... no, I mean I'm not sure I want to explain."

"About leaving? That was my fault – I crossed the line."

"We crossed the line – I didn't exactly hold back myself..."

"Well no, but you didn't expect to hold my ... well..."

"Actually, I did."

"I didn't expect my ... what?"

"I did expect to hold it."

"Are you talking about... ?"

"I touched your ... you know. I put my hand on it – I knew it would be exposed."

"Oh God – when you got the drinks, you saw..."

"I didn't have to see"

"I don't understand?"

"I know that Elle undid you. She told me."

"She TOLD you? When?"

"When I was in the bathroom. My phone. We exchanged a few text messages."

"I'm sorry."

"What for?"

"I didn't stop her."

"Glad you didn't..."

" ... and then I kissed YOU..."

"Yes, that wasn't..."

" ... supposed to happen, I know..."

" ... no, well yeah, but it wasn't what I expected."

I had no answer now.

"That was some kiss."

Even more speechless.

"I wasn't going to touch you ... there ... but when I understood just how much you've been holding back, I wanted to give you ... something..."

"Holding back?"

"Elle told me that you are I were fucking with our eyes"

I flinched – Kay didn't normally swear, least of all use that word.

"I hadn't seen how you felt until then. I wasn't sure what to do with those details, so ... I ran."

"Hang on, Elle told you about what she did – before she did it? She was still at the bar?"

"She told me you wanted me, I said I didn't think I was ready, so I asked her to distract you."

"Distract me?"

"Yes, sorry. She seemed to get off on telling me how she would do that."

"Wow."

"Wow indeed. It was very arousing just to read about it. I got a little jealous."

"You did?"

"Sure I did. I didn't really want to encourage Elle to do what I wanted to do..."

"What you wanted... ?"

"I want you."

"What?"

"I want you. Physically. Sexually. I want to touch you. I want to turn you on more than Elle did."

" ... you are..."

"I want to kiss you again like last night."

" ... me too..."

"Only naked."

" ... umm..."

"And with you inside me."

Again, speechless.

She had paused, as if waiting for a response but all I had was heavy breathing.

"Are you playing with yourself?" she asked, with a hint of a giggle.

"Umm..." I was.

"It's okay – I am."

"Fuck!" I spat – this wasn't a side of Kay I had seen.

"Look, I'm still not sure about the consequences – but I'm not sure there's a way back either..."

"I won't ever pressure you..."

"I know you won't. It's why I trust you."

"Thank you."

"So. Elle. How was she?"

"Umm..."

"Will you tell me about it?"

"Are you sure?"

"Completely. I bet she went down on you first."

"Err ... before I had chance to think."

She chuckled and I felt her settle in for a long conversation.

"I want details..."