Chapter 12

No secrets

The luxury car purred smoothly along the scenic road leading away from the estate. Elias was driving himself today, one hand on the wheel, the other occasionally resting on Lena’s soft thigh, stroking up and down occasionally. She sat quietly in the passenger seat, wearing the soft white sundress, staring out at the passing trees.

After several minutes of silence, Elias glanced at her.

“Lena ... I hope you know the pain you felt yesterday was never my intention,” he said, his voice low and serious. “I’m truly sorry. I won’t be that careless with you again.”

Lena turned her head slowly to look at him. Her voice was quiet, almost hollow.

“I thought you liked seeing me in pain.”

Elias’s grip tightened slightly on the steering wheel. He pulled the car over to the side of the quiet road and turned to face her fully.

“No, my love. That is absolutely not true.” His gray eyes held her deep blue eyes with surprising intensity. “There are many things I will have to do to train your body. Some will be painful. Some will test your limits. Some will be hard for you. Pain is part of your discipline. Pain leads to pleasure. Pain shapes us in to something greater. But the agony you felt last night ... that was not what I wanted or intended for you to feel.”

Lena knew he was telling the truth. She didnt recieve any signal from his emotions that he was trying to decieve her. She was feeling ... remembering the familiar colors ... it seemed that he was right. Whatever he was doing to her body was starting to turn on something inside her. Very old and unfamiliar emotions were beginning to stir deep in her mind. It gave her the ability to sense his emotions. Maybe her gift was coming back.

She was getting deeply confused about his intentions. She no longer knew if all he did was for his own pleasure or if he really wanted her to gain her gift back ... or if she even wanted that ability back? Or what was his long term intentions for her? The most terrifying but logical explanation was that he wanted her as a test subject because of her gift. A lab rat. But if it was the case why didnt he take her as a child? Her gift still intact and her mother out of the picture, with no other living relative and he was already her legal gaurdian. He chose to help her mother to gain back her health and then he encouraged her to take care of her daughter. And he even suppressed her gift himself. Lena thought her head was about to explode. The truth was she was very smart but Elias was even smarter than her. She didnt know if she could find out about his true intentions ever.

Elias paused and thought for a moment, his hand casually stroking just her thigh above her knee.

“Sometimes I have to inflict pain as a punishment for you to learn. Sometimes pain will heighten your arousal. Your sensations. Its called erotic pain. For example a spanking causes blood flow to increase in your pelvis, causing more intense pleasure.

Seeing her shocked expression, he added.

“Yes, this is physiologically accurate my love. Spanking causes pain or impact to the gluteal area, this triggers *vasodilation*. — blood vessels in the pelvic region dilate and increase blood flow to genitals which causes heightened sensitivity and arousal. Also releases *endorphins and adrenaline*. The gluteal region shares nerve pathways with pelvic and genital nerves. The *pudendal nerve connects the buttocks and genitals. Pain and pleasure signals travel similar pathways in the brain (somatosensory cortex*).

So yes, there’s a real anatomical and neurological basis for it my love. Also More intense impact equals greater blood flow surge to pelvis and Larger endorphin release — So the more pain inflicted to your bottom you can reach “endorphin higher” similar to runner’s high. Adrenaline spike heightens all sensation.

“So you see my love, pain intensifies arousal.”

“Therefore in that setting I WILL train you to endure pain for me. For your training, for your pleasure and mine. But what you experienced yesterday, it wasnt my intention. Im sorry and if I can go back in time, I will change how it happened. Fortunately its only once. Its done and you wont feel that pain again my sweet.”

“I ... I have a question,” she whispered, her voice small but steady. “I’m sure you could have removed my hymen surgically. So I wouldn’t suffer that much pain. If you could go back in time ... would you do it that way?”

Elias went completely still. For a long moment, the only sound was the wind outside the car. Then he shifted, gently turning her face so he could look into her eyes. His expression was unusually serious — a mix of surprise and something deeper, almost pained.

He brushed a lock of hair from her face with careful fingers, studying her as if searching for the right words.

“I could have,” he admitted quietly. “It would have been simple. A quick, painless procedure under local anesthesia. No blood. No tearing. No shock to your body.”

Lena waited, her breath held.

Elias’s gaze darkened with intensity as he continued.

“But no ... I wouldn’t have done it that way. Even if I could go back.”

He cupped her cheek, his thumb stroking her skin with surprising tenderness.

“Taking your virginity my little love— truly claiming you for the first time — had to be done naturally. With my body inside yours. I needed to feel that moment. The resistance. The breaking. The way you opened for me and only me. That pain ... it was part of the bond. Part of making you mine in the most primal, irreversible way. I wanted you to feel it. I should have been the one who caused it and the one who comforted you through it.”

His voice dropped lower, almost regretful.

“I know it hurt you. And I’m sorry for the pain itself. But I’m not sorry for how it happened. That first time ... it sealed you to me. In blood. In surrender. In memory.”

Lena’s eyes filled with tears. She searched his face, looking for any sign of doubt, but found only absolute conviction.

Elias leaned down and kissed her forehead, then her trembling lips, holding her close as if to shield her from the very truth he had just spoken.

“If I could go back in time I would have given you more sedative. Thats the only thing I could have changed.”

“Not everything in life my love,” he whispered and leaned forward against her mouth, “can be made painless. Not if they are to mean everything.”

Lena closed her eyes, a single tear slipping down her cheek as she listened to the man who had both broken her and claimed her so completely.

Lena looked down at her hands, then asked the question burning inside her.

“Are you going to take me next ... in my back there?”

Elias shook his head immediately.

“No, my sweet. Your anus isn’t designed to take the huge size of my penis. I won’t do that to you. For that part of your anatomy its not just about pain, its more about the harm. The permanant harm. I refuse to damage you. I doubt it can be done safely even with intense training in distant future.” He reached over and brushed a curl behind her ear. “But your whole body including your little anus belongs to me now. I will regularly check you there. I will finger you. I will use plugs and other devices in future. The training you get there, in your lovely little anus, will be complete and thorough. That part is not negotiable. Also the anus has a high concentration of nerve endings, you know these my little flower ... you have studied them, the pudendal nerve and pelvic splanchnic nerves densely innervate the area. Similar nerve density to lips and fingertips. The anal sphincter also — very sensitive to touch and pressure. You will absorb anything I desire, through your mouth or your passy or your anus. Pleasure or pain or nutrients. Anything I see fit goes in to your lovely little body through any path I choose in the exact time or amount I decide and you my little pet, will learn in time to accept and to enjoy that. You will beg me in future. Im certain. Just give yourself time and trust me.”

Lena’s eyes filled with fresh tears. “But Why? Please ... I don’t want this.”

“Lena my love, its not always about what someone wants. Its more about what you NEED. And I know what you need to grow, to become your best version. Because every part of you belongs to me completely, you have belonged to me almost all your life my love. “ he said, his tone calm but absolute. “I will train and use your body as I see fit. It is all for your health, Lena. Look at your skin. Look at how your energy has already improved. That is because of the plug and its delivery system. The rectum has vast capillary networks — the most efficient and gradual absorption route. And eventually together we will bring back your gift someday. You will be able to do wonders then. I suspect that even now you are feeling your old gift coming back. You just wont admit it to me.”

He winked at her playfully, confirming that he knew what was going on inside her head.

“Can’t you just give me the drugs another way?” she pleaded softly.

“We have already talked about this little one. No. I will decide what substance goes in which part of your body. Your mouth, your pussy, your rectum and all of you. “ His answer was gentle but final. “And you need to start accepting something important my doll, you have no secrets from me. No privacy. In the future, I will watch you while you pee. I will monitor every and each function of your body carefully. You must learn to accept that you are completely mine — inside and out.”