Chapter 19: Next Steps

Friday and Saturday evenings, Nicky’s new Porsche got a lot of attention and created quite a stir among the rest of us living on the Circle Court cul-de-sac. The bigger attraction was not only the car, but also the ‘amazing’ way that Nicky had dressed and used make-up the entire weekend – sexy, slutty, and revealing. This was not in keeping with the Nicky that we’d known heretofore that was mostly prim, proper, and conservative – the way a ‘Good Girl’ would be.

Saturday evening, Bob and I each fucked Nicky as she lay back on the hood of her new car as it sat in her driveway. Although it was night, if anybody had turned into the cul-de-sac from the Main Road their headlights would have illuminated us in the act. She was ecstatic because ‘good girls’ didn’t fuck two men on the hood of their car in front of their house with the risk of being caught.

Nicky’s new persona included being more outspoken about what was going on around her. She’d been one to wait to hear other’s opinions, and rarely spoke her own unless being asked outright. That changed. She was more willing to ask questions, too. More than once I heard her set the tone and topic for discussion, not in any kind of obnoxious way; she was simply speaking up more.

Nicky told the group about her departure from her quiet and compliant ‘Good Girl’ identity into something else – yet to be determined, but definitely in the opposite direction. She stated her desire to be bold, outgoing, in control of herself, independent, and extremely sexy. “I want to start celebrating my sexuality and inner being for the first time in my life without being prompted or guided – this’ll be on me not someone else or the way I was raised. Being with each of you in some way is only the start of my doing that.”

We wondered what her statement meant. She was thinking linearly along a spectrum of ‘good girl’ to ‘bad girl’, but several of us tried to explain to her that she was a multi-dimensional space, and that she could retain elements of being a ‘good girl’ that were still valid for her new image.

Stacy was especially curious about Nicky’s sudden transformation to a more ‘libertine’ personality and made a point to talk to her at length. While the much younger woman had embraced the ethos of the swing group, she still seemed to be getting her grounding at being an independent adult now that she was finished with her upbringing and formal education.

Nicky studied online about the various things that ‘good girls’ didn’t do. She used several of the A.I. ‘bots’ to ferret out ideas of ways to dress, things to do, and ways to think that were in a different head space for her.

Cole was inspired enough by Nicky and her hot car, that he adopted her for a long afternoon sex session and as his new girlfriend the two evenings the group usually met. She relished being the object of attention by a hot, good-looking twenty-two-year-old male. Both evenings, the pair put on quite a show of eager oral sex and fucking. I was sure the ‘younger-man syndrome’ was in play for Nicky.

I made a point to talk to Steve several times to see how he was processing Nicky’s new personality. While approving of Nicky loosening up and becoming sexier and more independent, he was increasingly in shock about the sudden transformation of his wife from a mature staid woman to a hot slut that wanted to fuck and suck most of the time. Further, he told me he was aghast at how she dressed and used makeup on some outings, but learning to cope with what was going on.

I did learn that Nicky had talked to her husband at length about how she wanted to try out the seamier and darker side of life – the part that had escaped her view, attention, and participation growing up and while going through school and college, and then her marriage and mothering up to now. In other words, she wanted to make up for lost time while she was young and attractive enough to enjoy it. She was rebelling about thirty years after most of her cohort did.

Nicky’s talks with Steve covered her self-image, her history of dependence on others for approval as a ‘good girl’, her self-confidence, and more. He knew that she wanted to move in the ‘opposite direction’ from her upraising and imbued ‘memes to live by’, and that she was uncertain about how that would play out in the future.

Steve told me, “I’m worried. This isn’t the Nicky that I’ve known for twenty years. I’m afraid that she might cut and run, or do something dramatic to establish her new identity. You’ve talked to her. What do you think?”

I shrugged. “I think you’re right to be worried, and only time will tell. She loves you, and your daughter, so I don’t think she’d disappear on you. I’d try to be supportive but cautious. Keep the avenues of communication open, so at least you’ll keep up with her current thinking. I have no predictions or guess about where her journey will take her.