Chapter 5

It took a little time for my relationship with Gil to recover after Jenna’s visit. He made me mad! 😡 He had hurt me before, multiple times, and if he has JUST hurt me again that’s one thing but he made Jenna uncomfortable to the point she said she didn’t wanna ever be around him again. That was hard for me to reconcile. I think it took almost two weeks to get back to a good place with him again and even then it wasn’t the same. Eventually we were back to mostly normal I guess, but there was a sense of distance now that lingered. I had genuine resentment for him in my heart after he made Jenna uncomfortable and it wasn’t just going to go away. An “I’m sorry” wasn’t good enough this time. He had to really prove he cared again and well ... he did the opposite. 😮‍💨 This one isn’t going to contain a vivid sex scene, but I think it’s important to bring Gil’s story to a close anyways.

Things at work got really bad really fast. It was already evident that the other girls working guest services didn’t like me but things came to a head in a way that caused me to just give up and quit two weeks early. I was moving to Seattle soon anyways so it would give me more time to get that sorted and make it less of a mad rush. Right around the same time I learned that my bestie Zia and her girlfriend Storm were coming to Carson! They live in Cali so I had never met either of them in person. Zia was, however, one of my two most supportive friends and the time with Gil caused me to neglect our friendship for a while. Ultimately Zia and Storm ended up not making it to Carson, but Gil had a need to go to the Sacramento area anyways so he offered to make it a weekend trip! (A gay man who was flirting with him stole one of his favorite hats and he needed to get it back. 🤣)

The plan was for me to get to spend the weekend with Zia and Storm while Gil and Kali had fun in Sacramento doing boy things. It was a very sweet offer and I figured maybe this could be the thing to make me stop being mad at Gil! (I was SO wrong! 😵‍💫) There was a heavy implication that I was likely going to hook up with Zia and Storm while I was up there and that definitely happened, but that’s a story for another time! 😘 Everything was going well minus Gil’s driving freaking Kali out because Kali had just been in a car wreck. I even hooked up with Kali one last time the night before the trip and he slept in my bed because Gil wanted his room to himself that night! (That will be the conclusion of Kali’s story. I’ll write that later. ❤️) Gil and Kali dropped me off at Storms house, I gave Gil a kiss goodbye, gave Zia and Storm each a hug hello, and the three of us went out for sushi!

For context, Zia and Storm are both trans and Storm has two roommates, close friends of hers, who are also trans women. I was getting to spend the weekend in a city much more friendly to my kind then Carson in a house full of other trans women, one of which was my bestie Zia! ❤️ It was an amazing weekend! Every bit of it was fantastic! In that one weekend I felt more love and affection from Zia and Storm than I had felt from Gil during the entire time I was with him and the gravity of that reality really made it sink in just how toxic my relationship with Gil really was. He was bad for me, Zia and Jenna and my best friend Big T had all told me he was bad for me but I didn’t listen because I was lonely and stubborn and desperate and he hypnotized me with his magic hands.

In true Hurricane Gil fashion, Gil managed to be the only negative thing in the whole trip without even being there! I was in Storms room while she was reading down stairs, cuddling with Zia when Gil called. We were set to head back the next day so I assumed that’s was what he was calling about. Since that involved Zia I put it on speaker when I answered and of course, Gil was drunk. 🤦‍♀️ He told me about how him and Kali had picked up some girls, which I was happy for him about, but then he added that they got ditched. In the background I could hear Kali say, “Yeah, that’s cause you’re an asshole!” and I had to stop myself from busting up laughing! 🤣 Gil then asked if he could come hang out at Storms place with us and I hesitated. Zia’s first impression of Gil was VERY bad. He referred to Storms roommates as freeloaders even though he had no context at all about who they were as people or what they contributed, then later gave a half assed apology to Zia hiding behind the most obvious backpedal ever saying he did that to try to get a rise out of Zia to “test” her to see if she would stick up for her friends. 😒 When he sensed my hesitation he said something that truly pissed me off! “Nevermind, y’all look like men.” Those were the words that came out of this mother fuckers mouth! 😡 I just said “Fuck you!” and hung up on him. When he immediately called back I answered and said, “What the fuck do you want?!” We still had to plan the return trip so we did that quickly and I was short with him the whole time, then we hung up. Right after that call I ranted to Zia about how much of an asshole he is and apologized for what he said, then cried in her lap while she reassured me that his horrible comment just rolled right off her. Zia is an incredibly strong woman, so I’m not surprised. Still though, Gil REALLY fucked up with that one! Like I said, you can insult me but when you insult the people I love you’ve crossed a fucking line! 😡