A Healing Love
Copyright© 2025 by Marc Nobbs
Chapter 7: Was This You?
Coming of Age Sex Story: Chapter 7: Was This You? - Paul Robertson's journey continues as his past and present collide at a star-studded movie premiere, where a connection that once terrified him reignites with passion that threatens to consume them both. Fighting to forge a new future for himself and stop drifting, Paul must finally become the man he’s always been afraid to be. A beautiful, bittersweet exploration of grief, social responsibility, the healing power of love, and learning that sometimes loving someone means letting them go.
Caution: This Coming of Age Sex Story contains strong sexual content, including Ma/Fa Consensual Romantic Heterosexual Fiction
I was sitting at the dining table in the kitchen, enjoying some toasted crumpets smothered in butter and strawberry jam, when the doorbell rang. With my phone in my free hand, I was scrolling through Instagram while streaming Carly’s first album, ‘Three Weeks in Nashville,’ from my phone to the Bluetooth speaker on the windowsill. It was a really good album. I’d found it on the music streaming service I paid for (for me and my three housemates, naturally. Mark always said he liked to ‘pay his way’ but he certainly didn’t turn down the ‘perks’ of living with me).
It was very ‘Country’ in that undefinable ‘Country’ way. You know what I mean, right? Country Music has a ‘vibe’ that’s quite unique. You know when something is ‘Country’ the first time you hear it, even if you don’t know who the artist is. Anyway, it was a good album, and I could see why it had done so well. It was at the same time both joyful and bittersweet.
A lot like being in love.
‘Three Weeks in Nashville.’ She’d even named the album after the time we spent together.
I was looking at the photos that Carly had posted to her Instagram during her time in London and from last night, and they were getting a lot of likes and comments. Not huge numbers for someone in the entertainment industry, not by any means—thousands rather than millions. Carly was pretty good at replying to her fans, too. She obviously couldn’t reply to everyone—there were far too many. Instead, she responded to the comments and questions that themselves got the most likes, telling them how much she enjoyed her time in London.
There were more than a few comments from girls asking who the ‘cute guy’ in one of the photos was, which was a bit of an ego boost. Carly had replied to a few with ‘my English Gent’ or ‘my Gentleman Tour Guide.’ She’d even replied to one with just the word, “Jealous?”
At least she hadn’t called me her boyfriend like she had during our day together in London. I suppose she’d been told not to by her manager.
“I’ll get it,” Imogen called from the lounge.
A few seconds later, I heard the door open, and a voice said, quite aggressively, “Is he here? Where is he?”
It was Alannah.
“Is who here?” Imogen said. And she accused me of asking stupid questions.
There was a sigh, and I almost heardAlannah roll her eyes. “Paul, of course!”
“I’m in the kitchen,” I called.
Alannah’s footsteps were loud on the hardwood floor, so I guess you could say she stomped the short distance to the kitchen. I heard Lily apologise to Imogen over the sound of her stomping.
Alannah burst into the kitchen, stopped and looked around. I was sure this was the first time she’d been to the house. I’m surprised she knew where it was. Lily was with her, though, so Alannah must have ‘persuaded’her to show her the way.
Lana knew I owned the house, but having never seen it before, I can only assume it wasn’t what she expected. Student accommodation was usually at the lower end of the market—not just the areas the houses were in, but in terms of fixtures and fittings, and décor as well. Especially in the private rented sector. But I had deliberately bought a house in a nice area and when Mark and I worked on it that Easter holiday before we moved in, we’d done a damn good job, if I do say so myself. Well, he’d done a damn good job. I helped. A little. Actually, I might have gotten in his way more than I helped, but he was too polite to say so.
Mark’s dad ran a small building company, and while I’d gone on my grand tour of America during my gap year, Mark had spent his time working for his father, earning money and picking up skills I wished I had.
And I hadn’t skimped on anything that needed to be replaced. You could even go as far as to say I’d ‘spared no expense.’
So, the kitchen Alannah had just walked into wasn’t the kind of place most people would have expected to find in a student house.
“This is...,” she said, still looking around at the kitchen that could have been straight out of ‘Good Homes Magazine.’ She shook her head, then held out a piece of paper and said, “Is this you? Did you do this?”
“Do what?” I knew what the paper was. But I also knew that sometimes it was best to play dumb—at least until the person in front of you had ‘gotten it out of their system.’
“This ... Trust? Scholarship. Award. Whatever it is.” She read from the paper. “‘The Clarissa Liddington Memorial Scholarship.’ Is this some sort of joke? I told you before, I don’t need your charity. I don’t want your charity. Is that clear?”
I stood up and walked over to Alannah, then took the paper she was still holding out from her. She was so angry, she was shaking. I’ll give her one thing—as stubborn as she was, she was certainly a young woman of conviction. Passionate conviction.
I smoothed the crumpled paper and looked at it. Then I looked at Lana. “Have you seen who signed this letter?”
She shook her head. “Christine Liddington. I don’t know who that is.”
I said softly. “It’s Clarissa’s mum.”
“Oh. I didn’t know that. I...” She looked sad. Then her expression hardened. “So, what did you do? Get her to send me a letter so you could make it look like it wasn’t you giving me this money?”
“Lana, it isn’t me giving you this money. Not yet, at least, because I haven’t donated to the trust yet. I will, but I have some other things to sort out first. Hopefully I’ll start to get those things sorted out next week—I’m just waiting to hear when.”
“Oh. Okay. In that case, I’m so—”
“Before you apologise, let me say it isn’t my money, but this was my idea. Sort of. It’s a long-ish story.”
“So, this is an excuse—”
“No, it isn’t. You earned this. This is yours by right.”
“Earned it? How have I earned this? I haven’t done anything.”
I sighed. “Come into the living room where everyone else is, and I’ll explain.”
Mark, Imogen and Lily were in the living room. Vanessa was still at her boyfriend’s house, where she’d stayed overnight. According to Imogen, she didn’t feel comfortable fucking her boyfriend under my roof.
“Paul, I’m sorry,” Lily said. “I tried to ... I mean, I said it wouldn’t be what Lana thought it was. I told her to leave it until Monday. Leave it until she’d calmed down, but she—”
“It’s okay, Lils. It’s not your fault. Chrissy and I could have handled this better than a letter out of the blue, but time was of the essence.”
“At least you were able to make me wait until this morning,” Lana said. She turned to me. “I had wanted to come over last night, as soon as my parents had dropped me off, but Lily wouldn’t tell me the address. Even this morning, she wouldn’t just tell me the address and let me come over on my own.”
“It’s fine, Lana. Like I said, I think Chrissy and I just wanted to make sure the money got to you before you had to pay this term’s rent, so we didn’t really explain what was going on very well. I think she’s planning a properlaunch of the Scholarship in a month or so, ahead of next year’s candidates being chosen.”
“Next year’s candidates? So, this is a real thing, then? Not just something you made up to help me. It’ll help other people, too?”
“Sit down,” I said. “Let me explain.”
Imogen stood up and said, “I’ll go and make us all a drink. What would you both like?” This was aimed at Lily and Lana. She already knew what Mark and I would say.
After the girls had said what they wanted, Imogen dragged Mark into the kitchen to help. They already knew this story.
Lily and Lana sat on the sofa. I sat in the armchair nearest to it. I shifted to sit on the edge of the seat and leaned forward slightly. “Look, Lana, I’ll admit that after I heard about your dad—about him losing his job—I was angry. Really, really angry. I was angry with the Germans for going back on their word—I know you said they hadn’t, and they had waited as long as they said they would, or whatever, but I was still angry with them.
“And Mark and Imogen also suggested—rightly, I guess—that I was a little angry with myself and feeling a little guilty.”
“Guilty? What would you be feeling guilty for?” Lily asked.
I shrugged. “I had a hand in getting Rissa to sell the company to the Germans. Not a large hand—that was mostly your dad. And he was only doing it because he knew it was the right thing to do. But I was the one who got her to go and listen to him.”
“Oh. Okay. That’s stupid, but it’s very ‘you.’”
“Thanks.”
“You’re welcome.”
I rolled my eyes at her and then addressed Lana. “The point is that I was angry because I thought it was unfair. Unfair that your dad lost his job, but I don’t really know your dad. More to the point, I thought it was unfair on you. Unfair that you would either have to compromise your education by having to get a job, or, God forbid, even abandon your education altogether. And I wanted to ‘do something’ about it.
“But I knew I couldn’t. It’s not like I could help your dad get a job or anything, and you’d made it very clear that you weren’t going to just accept any money I offered you.”
“Paul, I—”
I shook my head to cut her off. “Mark said he wouldn’t have taken any money from me either, so I completely get it. I do. But that didn’t stop me from being angry. Angry and frustrated. I couldn’t do anything to help because you wouldn’t let me do anything to help.”
“Paul, I—” This time, I held up my hand to stop her.
“I know, Lana. I know. And I get it. I do. But ... Mark calls it my ‘White Knight Complex’ or something. I just feel the need to help if I can. But I get that me just handing out money because I can ... I get it. Okay.”
I rubbed my face with my hand.
“But then Mark and Gen told me they had been thinking about how I could use my money to help people. They said I was always saying I wanted to help people with it, and sometimes they just ... I don’t know... ‘Tossed ideas about.’ I think that’s how Mark put it. And the best idea they had was a scholarship for kids from our old school—specifically, for Townies from our old school that wanted to go to university but might find it ‘financially challenging.’
“It was even Mark that suggested naming it after Rissa.”
“So...” Lana said, tentatively. “What then? You called Clarissa’s mom or...?”
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