Chapter 1: The Luckiest Girl in the World

Recently one evening while I was soaking in our hot tub just gazing up at the stars and daydreaming, I was suddenly struck by the realization that I must be one of the luckiest girls in the world. Oh sure, I could’ve been born a beautiful princess or the daughter of a rich tycoon; yet when I reflect on the people I’ve known and the things I’ve witnessed and experienced during the first twenty years of my life, I really couldn’t ask for more than what I have.

It saddens me to listen to people who wish they could go back and redo their lives as there are really very few things in my past I would want to change. Even now the only thing of significance that comes to mind is that I sincerely regret not giving my virginity to my father. It frustrates me when people read my diary entries and then preach to me about how my parents have abused me and make dire predictions that someday I will regret the very things in my life I now hold most precious. How can anyone call me abused when the one thing in my life I wish I could change involves submitting myself to my father?

Personally, I wonder just how many of these arrogant and self-righteous people can honestly say that they are as happy with their lives as I am with mine? How many of these freakin’ busybodies are even on speaking terms with their kids and family? Can they claim to be their kid’s best friend and confidante? Well??? Case closed! (Sorry to be legalistic, my dad’s a lawyer so it just comes natural.)

First, as a general rule let me state that I do NOT approve of sex between adults and young kids under most circumstances. There ARE circumstances where it is acceptable, usually when incest is involved, but my simple philosophy is “if in doubt, don’t”. It’s not a legal issue so much as just doing what is right. Face it, most families are not ready to handle the complications and moral issues that come with incest. This is a complicated subject and difficult to fully address in a single paragraph so read my article of underage sex ion my diary.

With that said, in order to keep you from misunderstanding what I did with my cousin you need to know some of the key events in my life that led up to this day. I’m only child, born twenty years ago to two wonderful parents who have been married now for over twenty years. They wanted more children but my mother almost died having me so her doctor warned her not to have more kids forcing her to have her tubes tied.

While I sometimes wish for a brother or sister, being an only child in a financially relatively well-off household DOES have its advantages. I’m sure there are a few people who know me who would tell you that I’m a bit spoiled and I would be the first to admit it. But there are also some disadvantages as well. Although I may have avoided sibling rivalries, I will never share the close bond between by brothers and sisters. For instance, when I see how my own mother and her sister care for another, even when times are rough, I must confess to being just a bit envious.

My family lives in a great town on the south side of Pittsburgh where we are fortunate to have plenty of close friends and family near us. We’ve always attended church as a family and I consider us all to be solid Christians with high morals and ethics. I also attend a religious college where I keep active by helping out with various church youth activities.

Fortunately academics has always come easy for me (I graduated from high school in the top one percent of my class) so I don’t have to spend a lot of time on schoolwork. I’ve always aspired to be a teacher and thus I am majoring in elementary education. When I graduate I hope to teach third or fourth grade back at my old elementary school district. It’s one of things where they are old enough to tie their shoes yet still young enough to love their teacher.

In many ways I’m a bit old-fashioned, even down-right conservative when it comes to family values. When the time is right I hope to marry the man of my dreams and live in a brick house with our two kids and a dog - but not for a while yet. At the moment I don’t even want to be tied down with a boyfriend, let alone a husband!

My dad is a senior partner in a corporate law firm while mom is RN working in hospital administration so money has never been an issue during my upbringing. OK, we may not sail a yacht or live in a multi-million dollar mansion but I’ve always had pretty much anything I needed - and most of what I wanted (STILL working on that car though!).

Although I’ve never had to hold down a mundane job such as being a waitress or a store clerk, my parents have always insisted I do something to learn responsibility so I baby-sit a lot. Don’t laugh - babysitting is NOT that easy and it brings in more money than most kids earn at the mall (and it’s tax-free).

Speaking of my parents...