Chapter 1: Katie Takes a Chastity Vow in High School

You might remember when “chastity vows” were all the rage in conservative Christian circles. Teen girls took chastity vows pledging to remain “pure” until marriage. They sometimes wore chastity rings signifying their commitment against per-marital sex in all forms. Although chastity vows apparently fell out of the news, they are still around. For example, in April 2021 an online Catholic magazine featured a cover story entitled Dating Is a Waste Without Chastity that promoted the benefits of chastity vows.

So it was no surprise that Katie was encouraged to take a chastity vow at 15 when she entered St. Theresa Catholic High School. Her dad and I supported her pledge. I told Katie that I had taken a similar chastity pledge when I was in high school. I didn’t tell her how hard it was going to be to keep that pledge or the consequences of breaking it.

I had remained “pure” throughout high school and during the first two years of college, refusing all forms of sexual contact apart from closed-mouth kisses. As a college sophomore, I was dating Tim, a boy who I thought I was in love with and would marry one day. While we were sitting in his dorm room one afternoon, doing some light kissing, Tim unzipped his pants and took out his cock. I tried to leave but he grabbed my hand to keep me next to him.

“Jenna, we have been dating for nearly a year and do nothing more than kiss. I need more.”

I was almost in a dreamlike state; somehow my hand ended up on his cock and I ended up giving Tim a hand job to completion. Afterwards, I felt a lot of guilt about breaking my vow and it affected our relationship. A month later we broke up, my dream of marriage to him shattered.

When I started dating new guys, I didn’t hold back. As I now know from talking to other girls who broke their chastity vows, once the restraints were removed there was little that they refused to do, and many got pregnant because they had no experience with birth control. For my part, I gave hand jobs, gave blow jobs, and had anal sex, refusing only vaginal intercourse. I stayed a technical virgin until marriage but otherwise became sexually experienced.

It was during those libertine last two years of college that I met Ben. He enjoyed the regular blow jobs and anal sex and was satisfied with them. He understood my limits and didn’t push me for vaginal intercourse, but I did let him rub his cock on my clit without penetration. We married soon after graduating and had our first real fuck on our wedding night. Katie came along 18 months later.