Chapter 66

John was working on the scanner when Amy found him, bringing him a cup of coffee.

“Got a minute?” she asked, setting it down.

“Thanks for the coffee. Sure ... just a sec ... Okay, what’s on your mind?” he asked, taking the cup and moving to the sofa, patting the seat next to him.

She moved to his side and leaned against him while he sipped. He slipped his arm around her, took a sip of coffee and then shared an extra warm kiss with her.

She snuggled to him.

“I was just wondering ... how you felt about last night?” she asked.

“Ooh, tough question ... Last night was probably the most incredible experience of my life...” he said.

“But?” she asked, when he didn’t continue.

“But, I wouldn’t want to do it again.” he said.

She nodded against him.

“Kind of what I was thinking.” she said, “But why wouldn’t you?”.

“Well, don’t get me wrong. As much as I love you all ... It was the first time I’ve loved you all at the same instant.

I think I prefer the intimacy of just two people face to face. Three at the most. For lovemaking. I don’t mind more ... as the extras seem to be free to share their own intimacy. I personally like to be able to focus myself on one person at a time.

Last night was fantastic. I got to experience things from a different point of view. I never knew before what you girls saw in men in general ... or me for that matter. I like that. But now I know it, I don’t need to know it again.

Somehow it was almost too personal, while not being too intimate ... I don’t know, kind of hard to explain.” he said.

“We thought you would feel that way ... we felt it last night. But we were already into it. And ... well, we agree. But it may not matter. I don’t think we could do it again.” she said, cryptically.

“I’m still not certain just what you did. But I got the feeling it was a Gestalt.” John said.

Amy nodded.

“It was, we learned the meaning of the word from you. I’m afraid we rummaged around in you a lot, before we let you know we were there.” Amy said.

“I don’t mind ... not that it would matter, but I don’t have any secrets from you.” John said.

“Oh, we would never tell anybody all that we saw in each of you...

“In a way it changed us ... We could feel what it was like to be an adult. Each of you had a different feeling, but ... the one thing we saw in everybody, was respect. They all felt it for you ... and you felt it for all of us. Respect ... and love.

“So much love, it was almost unbearable all at once. Like it was a power that was too dangerous to play with ... We saw that too ... Something guided us away from things we shouldn’t do or know. It wasn’t us. It was something ... bigger.” Amy said.

“God?” John asked.

“I don’t know ... Once I would have said so ... but now I’m not sure what that means ... More like the whole universe was aware of what we were doing, not just one thing.” Amy said, shivering and snuggling to him.

John set his coffee aside and pulled her into his lap. She smiled and snuggled closer.

“Could you have gotten that from me? I mean, I’ve told Theresa and Cindy that I believed the universe was aware of itself before. You could have gotten the idea from any one of us, I guess.” John said.

Amy shook her head: “No, we felt it before we looked into any of you. That was one of the things we looked at in you. It sort of explained what we felt, but not quite. Closer than anything else we saw in anybody ... but still not quite right ... I don’t know. It’s kind of hard to explain with words.” she said.

John nodded.

“So, why don’t you think you could do it again?” he asked.

“Because what we felt ... wouldn’t like it. It was like we knew that this was the only time. That’s why we continued even after we felt how you felt. We were trying to give a gift to everybody that you loved ... but it was like we were all granted a gift from ... that bigger something ... and it was the only time... “ Amy said.

“Then I guess that we’d better not fool with it ... but What exactly did you girls feel, I mean with each other?” John asked.