Like many other readers I'm sure, I'm a huge fan of Jay Cantrell's writing, and as I've mentioned in the past - I find it hard to "break the seal" as it were on one of his stories, but I always appreciate the story there when I do.
I have no idea where this hesitation comes from, but after being hesitant on this one I finally gave it a read and once again I am a bit overwhelmed by what I've read, and grateful.
"Building a Past" is a lot about living in the past; having the rose coloured glasses view on what your past was, and the important people, or person in that past.
For Josh it is Maria. Josh was born into privilege and Maria as his families' "help". Josh treated Maria horribly and over time came to despise himself a little, and grew up a whole helluvalot and reconciled with Maria and even had a fledgling romance start - and then things fell apart.
In the time since Josh has lived a shadow of a life, always with Maria at the forefront of his mind - wanting to become a better man... the man Maria would deserve. Hoping one day to find Maria again.
And then he does.
Seriously, there is just something so incredibly relatable about Jay's protagonists that you can empathise strongly with where they see themselves. I'm certain a lot of us can feel we live in the past, we had that girl, that time, that dream that we just can't quite let go of.
Shit, there wouldn't be a "Do Over" category if we couldn't relate so strongly to the idea of going back and doing everything better, having everything go better for us.
Building a Past really is about what you can build of your future when you can get over living in the past and it's just a well told, emotional story.
It says that it is unfinished, and the notes indicate that it probably isn't finished ... but where it leaves of is a fairly complete, fairly satisfying end-point. It doesn't wrap everything up, but leaves you with hope.
Give it a read, I'm sure you'll enjoy it.