All characters in this story are over eighteen. Some are well over a hundred.
My cunt hurt. It was dry and raw, but poor Brian kept sawing away, humping me, doing his damnedest to put us both over the top. He buried his face in the pillow next to my ear, drooling on my neck, and he grunted with every thrust of his dick.
"Come on baby," I whispered. "Oh, God yeah! Fuck me! Fuck me!"
Something crawled across the ceiling. I could see it clearly, because I had my glasses on. It had long, spindly legs that whirled around a tiny body and cast long shadows in the light from the study lamp on Brian's desk. I usually freak out around bugs, but this time I managed to keep it together. I didn't want Brian to get distracted. He'd only want to start over, and I wanted to get home.
"I can't believe how fucking hard you are. I'm come ... I'm come ... I'm coming!"
That did it. Brian gave one last hard push, which really pinched. To keep myself from yelping, I squeezed his ass as his muscles got rigid. He let out a long sigh, and it was over, finally.
"Oh," I whispered. "That was so nice."
He lifted his head and looked at me with that smug post-coital grin.
"Did you come?"
"I'm not sure," I said. "It was all over so fast."
"I said I did, didn't I? Or didn't you hear that part?"
I glanced up at the ceiling. The creepy-crawly was gone.
"What?" Brian asked.
"Nothing," I said.
"Are you OK?"
"I'm fine. It's just my vagina's sore."
"Have I been wearing you out?"
"You think you could move?"
He reached between us, and, tweezing the rolled base of the condom between two fingers, he pulled his dick out of me and flipped over. The air was suddenly cool on my sweaty thighs and breasts where he had weighed me down. I could breathe again.
I could also see the digital clock on his desk. It was almost nine. Brian caught me looking at it. It was a thing between us.
"Do you have to go?" he said.
"Come on," I said.
"Why don't you spend the night?"
"I can't," I said. "Mom will know what I'm doing."
"You should move into the dorms," he said.
"I told you. We can't afford it, and I have more room at home."
My name is Dorothy. Everybody calls me Dot. Brian and I are sophomores at a Catholic college in the city. He came from out of state on a scholarship, but I commuted from home, like almost everybody else on campus. Brian and I had already had the conversation about me moving to the dorms. We had already had every conversation I could think of, even though we'd only known each other since the middle of our freshman year, and we hadn't seen each other all summer.
Brian tugged at the condom, which slid off his dick with a rubbery snap and a sprinkle of his come on my leg. He tied a knot at the open end and, taking careful aim, tossed it toward the desk. It just snagged the rim the wastepaper basket before it dropped it to the floor.
"Agh!" he said. "My record is shot."
At least I didn't have to hear him say "two points" again.
I got off the bed and picked up my clothes. Brian got up, too, bouncing off the end of the mattress. He got fresh underwear from his dresser, and a fresh pair of socks.
"What are you doing?" I said, stepping into my panties.
"I'll walk you to the bus stop."
"You don't have to."
"I want to. I worry."
The college was the best part of a bad neighborhood. There were reports almost every day of women being attacked on campus. One was even raped.
"I'll call security," I said. The school had this program where you called a number and a student volunteer in uniform would walk you to your car or wait with you for the bus.
"It's no problem," he said. "What can security do for you? They don't have guns."
"They have walkie-talkies," I said. "What do you have?"
"Just let me come with you."
Brian already had his sneakers tied by the time I fastened my bra. Guys' clothes are so much easier to deal with. He watched me with what I thought was impatience while I pulled my cotton dress over my head, buttoned it up to the Peter Pan collar, and, sitting on the edge of the bed, put on my sandals. I'd kept my wooly socks on during sex. I looked like a refugee from a convent, but I was only dressing for school. And it was October. The weather was getting cool, and I liked my feet to be warm. We each put on a sweater. Brian picked up my bookbag, and when he was satisfied I hadn't left anything behind, he clicked off the lamp on his desk.
"Wow," he said, looking past me at the window. "Look at the fog."
It moved in while we were fucking, a gray monster that filled the glass with its flat gray face. Somewhere in its heart burned a frosty-edged globe of amber — the glow of the security lamp on the side of the building, struggling through the soup.
"And seeing that it was a soft October night, curled once about the house, and fell asleep," Brian said.
English major. He always had a quote ready.
When we walked out through the iron gates of the dorm, I could just see the library across the street. The rest of the world was swallowed up in the creature's wooly hide. The mist prickled my face and slid its damp hand up my skirt. The air was still, but I swear I could hear the wind wailing through the dorms. It spoke to me, or to anyone who loved the fog like I did.
"You," it said. "Yoouuuuuuuuu."
"This is weird," Brian said.
"I think it's cool."
"It was clear an hour ago."
"It wasn't clear," I said. "It's been cloudy all day."
"Why are you arguing with me?" he said. "You're usually in a good mood afterward."
"I just have to get home."
We crossed at the light and waited at the corner in front of the administration building. It feels like you're standing there a long time when you have nothing to say. I began to count the times the traffic signal over our heads cycled through its colors, turning Brian from a green ghost to a yellow ghoul to a red devil. I was up to thirteen when, at last, a white glow grew in the fog, then burst into a blinding glare as my bus materialized out of nowhere. If I hadn't been standing at the curb, the driver would never have seen me. I took my books from Brian and gave him a quick kiss goodnight, but when I got on the bus he bounced up behind me.
"Now what?" I said.
"I'm taking you home."
"Come on," he said. "I've never seen where you live."
"Why not? You can introduce me to your mom."
"I'll just say hello and come back."
I couldn't argue. Brian had already dropped his change in the box, and the bus was on its way.
I walked to the back and plunked down next to a window. Brian slipped in next to me and put his arm around my shoulders, but I turned away from him. For a guy on scholarship, he could be pretty dense. If he had really been smart, he would have let me go home and talked to me on Monday. But he wanted everything to be all right, and he thought all he had to do was say the right thing, and it would be.
And then there was my mom. I'd never told her about him, and if I showed up at ten o'clock on a Friday night with a boy in tow, she'd suspect I hadn't spent the evening at the library, which is what I had planned to tell her.
We rode along in frosty silence. Or I did. Brian tried to tell me something he had learned about his art history class, but gave it up when I wouldn't respond. I rested my forehead on the cold window and gazed out. It was hard to see the buildings going by, as the neighborhoods gradually improved, and I was afraid I'd miss my stop. Nothing looked familiar again until we passed the 7-Eleven, which was bright and welcoming in the fog.
"This is it," I said — my first words since we sat down — and I yanked the bell cord, twice.
But I was wrong. In the fog, I lost count of the streets, and we got off one stop too soon.
"Don't worry about it," Brian said. "We just have to walk a little farther."
I led Brian down the cross street, past a ball field where the fog hovered in a mat above the grass. Beyond the field, at the end of the block, a dark cluster of trees hid the steeple of the old Trinity Church.
"It was like walking on the bottom of the sea," Brian said. "As if I had drowned long ago. As if I was a ghost belonging to the fog, and the fog was the ghost of the sea. It felt damned peaceful to be nothing more than a ghost within a ghost. — Don't look at me as if I'd gone nutty!"
"What's that from?"
"Long Day's Journey Into Night," he said. "I emailed you about the acting class I took over the summer. I did it for my mono—whoa, hello!"
He jerked his chin at something across the street.
"Speaking of ghosts!" I said.
She might have been nineteen, she might have been thirty — a lean specter in the fog, running back in the direction Brian and I had just come from. Glossy black hair hung down her back. Tight jeans were tucked into high brown boots. Her olive skin turned green as she passed under the streetlight, and in the light there was no mistake: she was topless. She hugged herself to cover her swaying breasts, arms crossed, fingers clutching her bare shoulders. A big dark nipple bulged through the crook of her elbow.
"Hey!" Brian called. "Are you all right?"
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