Hi Folks.Things got a bit heated in the comments last week didn't they? ... Well relax this story is another shorter one but it should be a lot less controversial. This one is just a bit longer than last week's story so it's another shorty. That actually happened because we're working on a longer, darker story that there just wasn't enough time to finish this week. So at the last minute, I just wrote this story. This one besides being shorter was written and edited in less than 24 hours due in large part to the extremely great editing under pressure done by the incredible Mikothebaby.Enjoy! SS06
There are some things you just can't or at least shouldn't take home. I pulled my 2012 Mustang GT into the parking lot behind the bar in search of a few moments of relaxation. I was still so pissed off from the pressures of the day that I'd have felt bad about taking any of that anger, home to my lovely wife. She had enough stress in her own life trying to raise our three terrifying young boys. She didn't need me adding to it. When I get home I should be happy and ready to spend time with her, not vent the frustration that had built up after 8 hours plus of dealing with assholes.
As I walked into the slightly darkened bar, some of the regulars greeted me. This was one of those places where everybody knew your name and you were always glad you came. It was one of those friendly neighborhood bars and to be truthful it was only a couple of blocks away from my house.
My main problem was dealing with the union reps. It was almost like their entire existence revolved around slowing down production. Maybe in their minds, the more they could slow things down the better it was for their people. I wish just one of them was smart enough to realize that the slower they worked, the less money we made, and that trickled down to them. When they asked for things like increases in wages or benefits, it was hard to justify it when profits were down. What a bunch of morons.
And they were all so self-important. There wasn't a single team player among them. If I didn't have a mortgage and two car notes and my three spoiled kids, I'd walk the fuck out the door and never look back at that place. But who was I kidding. I was locked in. My job paid me very well and the actual work I had to do managing the plant wasn't very hard.
The economy was also so bad that if I did walk out of there I'd have trouble getting another job on that level and there were so many guys out there who'd give their left nut to replace me. My mother didn't raise any stupid kids so I'd stay and put up with it. I raised my arm and the pretty barmaid whose name I never could remember brought me a cold Dos Equis amber. Before I'd even taken a sip of the first one, I asked for another. I don't always drink beer, but when I do, I drink a fuck of a lot of it.
As I took the first pull on my bottle and looked around the room I saw a woman going from table to table. Most of the guys were shaking their heads and she'd move on to the next table. I knew she wouldn't last long in here. The owner, Murray, liked to run a clean place. Women could drink and hang out here just like anybody else, but he didn't allow pros to work in his bar.
When she got to the last table, she started to head for the bar. Her body looked like it had been spectacular at one point, but time and hard living had turned things sour. Her breasts were still nice but she walked slumped over as if the weight of the world rested on her thin shoulders. Life had given this woman a beating. I immediately felt sorry for her and I hadn't even seen her face yet.
When she got a couple of stools down from me, I heard her ask the guy sitting there if she could sit down. In bar slang, a woman asking if she can sit down or asking a guy to buy her a drink carries an implication with it. And most of these guys, like me, who were happily married, would never take her up on an invitation like that. It sounds innocent and innocuous, but one thing can quickly lead to another. And soon you find yourself sliding down a slippery slope that ends up in a place that you don't want to be.
As I sat there drinking my beer and letting all of the tension melt away, she drew closer and closer to me. She had to be pretty damned desperate to just go from stool to stool propositioning every man in a bar.
Just before she got to me, Murray's voice rang out. "Hey you, get out of here. And don't come back. I run a clean place. I don't need any pros working out of here. My customers come here to drink and to relax. They don't need or want anything else."
He flipped on the Lions preseason football game and stalked towards his office in the back. That had been pretty harsh. She'd been working steadily but quietly through the bar. She hadn't been overt about it and she didn't have on tons of make-up or a dress that showed off her boobs or her ass. I had to hide a smile, but I was also pretty relieved that she got tagged before she got to me.
To tell you the truth, I'd never actually spoken to a hooker in my entire life. I began to wonder if I was really glad that she hadn't reached me, or if I was a little bit saddened. What would she have asked me? What would I have said in response? Would being near her have filled me with revulsion? Or would I have been just a little turned on?
"Sorry," she said to Murray's rapidly receding back. "A girl has to make a living." All of the hairs on the back of my neck stood up. The voice was older and sounded like she'd been through hell and back, but now I recognized it at once.
She looked at me and her mouth dropped open at the same time mine did. Our eyes locked and recognition gave way to remembrances.
I was taken back to the first time I ever saw her. I was in the tenth grade. Boy what a kid I was. It was the middle of the school year when she walked into my class. I can still remember my teacher, Mrs. Ethel Mertz introducing her to the class. "Tell them your name, honey," said Mrs. Mertz
"Felicia Thomas," she said shyly. I went into a swoon. Her voice was so musical that it sounded like she was singing. Her face looked like she was halfway between being an angel and being a pin-up girl. I was in the tenth grade so during our time we were pretty innocent. There was no sex going on, at least none that I was involved in or knew about.
Sure we knew about it, but no one had done it. Nice kids just didn't do things like that in my day. There may have been one or two kisses exchanged occasionally on someone's front porch. But that was it. Up until Felicia showed up, everyone knew who the pretty girls in our class were, but we didn't really investigate the way they were built. Perhaps it was just the fact that we'd all grown up together and gone through school together so most of the girls in the class developed slowly in front of our eyes.
But from the first second that I saw Felicia, I knew why women were built that way. Of course, with me being on the smaller side and the smarter side and also the quieter side, I never really got a chance to speak to her much. I was, however, just as much a member of her fan club as everyone else.
The jocks tried to impress her with their athletic prowess and their aggressiveness. The cool guys and the slick guys tried to impress her with their coolness or their schemes, but she didn't seem to bother with any of it. I observed everything she did through the tenth, eleventh and half of the twelfth grades. The summers were the worst time of the year for me. I hated summer vacation and could hardly wait to get back to school to see her.
I went to school every day. I memorized her entire wardrobe. Just to show you how obsessed I was, there were several girls in the class that took a liking to me and I ignored them all because of my obsession with Felicia. Kathy Sanders made it a point to tell me how stupid I was.
Kathy was a nice enough girl. She wasn't a princess and she wasn't a frog. She was just a nice normal girl. She had a very cute face and a nice body. There was only one thing wrong with her. She wasn't Felicia. If there hadn't been a Felicia, Kathy Sanders would have ruled our school. Not even the cheerleaders could hold a candle to Felicia. Comparing the average eighteen year old girl to Felicia Thomas was like comparing Marilyn Monroe to a Campfire girl. It was almost as if they just weren't the same species.
Kathy asked me to go with her to one of the dances and I looked at her like she was crazy. I didn't mean to be offensive, but the thought of dating anyone except Felicia was foreign to me. I didn't even know what to say to her. There was an embarrassingly pregnant pause and then she turned red in the face. "So you'd rather go to the dance alone and stare at Felicia across the floor, IF she even bothers to show up, instead of going to it with someone who actually knows you're alive and likes you?" she asked.
I think I nodded but I'm not really sure. "What a fucking loser," hissed Kathy as she stomped away, leaving me standing in the hall in front of half of our class.
During our senior year, we went on a lot of trips and activities. One of those trips was to Cedar Point, the famous amusement park in Ohio. We had to sit through a two hour long bus ride to get there. I intended to have fun that day. I had a decent amount of money to spend and a few friends to hang out with. We'd already decided everything we wanted to see and do at the park. Little did I know that real life was about to cancel my plans.
I was one of the first on the bus and grabbed a seat near the middle of the bus to wait for my friends. I knew that the jocks and the popular kids would all want to hang out in the back and I really didn't want to deal with their shit. I also knew that the nerds and the scared kids would be in the front of the bus, hoping for protection and freedom from the attention of the meaner kids. I also didn't want to be a part of that. The middle of the bus was pretty much just ignored, so that's where I sat.
As the bus began to fill up, I saw my friend Mike's mom's mini-van, pull into the parking lot. Mike's mom was a MILF even before they had the term. Her one issue was that she was really disorganized and was always late for everything. But if you took a look at her, you wouldn't care. All she had to do was to smile and everything would be forgiven. She was her generation's Felicia.
This time though, they weren't actually late. They were among the last to arrive, but there were still several open seats on the bus. There were two near me and a few in the front and in the rear.
I saw my friends Mike and Steve get out of the car and make a beeline for the bus. Just as they got onto the bus, my plans changed. It was as if a hush settled over the bus as Felicia got on. She smiled slightly and several people waved at her. Some of the jocks in the back of the bus made room for her and almost every guy there had his mouth drop open.
Okay, I looked too. I couldn't help it. And I'm sure that my mouth had dropped open as far as every other guy's had. But for the past couple of weeks, I'd been paying more attention to things other than Felicia. I was going away to college and I had a job lined up for the summer. I had my whole life ahead of me and it was time to start concentrating on my future and not my fantasy girl.
Basically, adulthood had started to beckon me. It was time to put away childish things. Seeing Felicia dressed for a summer outing wasn't exactly a childish thing though. There was just no way to explain it. There were a lot of girls who were dressed almost slutty, but they couldn't hold a candle to her.
Felicia had on a halter top, they were the style back then. Most of the girls had on some kind of crop top or halter top. But in Felicia's case, the way her large boobs just rocketed away from her rib cage was dizzying. We aren't talking about the average high school girl's boobs here. They were full and round and just incredible. Her boobs belonged on a thirty year old woman. Her waist narrowed and then veered outwards creating that hourglass shape that never, ever goes out of style.
Her shorts were modest, but the legs that extended from them were incredible. Every detail of her body was feminine perfection. Even the male teachers on the bus were drooling. And the female teachers were looking at her just as angrily as the female students were.
She walked down the aisle of the bus and then sat down daintily in the empty seat right next to me. I was flabbergasted and so were my friends, who walked up right behind her and were startled when she sat next to me, breaking up our plans for the bus ride at least.
Mike smiled at me and shrugged his shoulders, before he and Steve headed for empty seats. As the bus pulled out, I found things to look at out of the window. It took less than five minutes of driving for her to start.
"You're going to be kicking yourself tomorrow," she laughed. I had no idea what or who she was talking to so I continued to stare out the window. Hearing her voice, that close to me was intoxicating. "Boy, talk about missed opportunities," she continued.
I turned around to see who she was talking to and found her looking at me. I'd spent months and years staring at her from afar. But to see her, this close, was just over whelming. Up close, I could see every tiny line and wrinkle on her face. I could see tiny freckles and imperfections. Her brown eyes had tiny flecks of green in them and they were amazing. All of the myriad differences from one side of her symmetrical face to the other, made her more real. And unbelievably the imperfections only made her more perfect.
The strangest thing about it was that she knew. "Girls talk to each other all the time," she said. "I've been told more than once that you spend a lot of time staring at me." Oh yeah, she knew. And unbelievably, she was okay with it.
"Why?" she asked. There was really no need for words. The look in my eyes said it all. We just looked at each other for a very long moment that seemed to last forever. "Oh," she said. I felt like Icarus. I was simply too close to the sun. I had to avert my eyes and look away from the flame or melt from its fury. As I tried to look away she grabbed my chin and held my gaze. "No," she smiled. "I need you to get used to seeing me. We're not going to have much fun today if you can't get comfortable with me."
What the hell was she talking about? We? Did she actually mean her and me? How the hell would that work? She was this goddess and I was just a regular Joe. It simply would not occur. The heavens would not allow it to be so.
"Can I ask you something?" she asked.
"Of course, anything," I said.
"Why haven't you ever spoken to me?" she asked. I turned red all over again. I started to look away again to cover my embarrassment and she pulled my face back in line with hers again.
"I guess I could have tried to say something to you too," she said. "But you're so damned smart, you glow. You know the answers to all of the questions all the time. How does anyone do that? Did you know that most of the girls in our class think you're cute and everyone knows you're going to be successful some day? You're going to have the big house and the long car and all of that stuff."
"Uh unh," I stopped her. "I'm definitely always going to drive Mustangs."
"Like all of the pictures in your locker?" she asked. I blushed again, "Yeah I do some watching of my own," she smiled.
Then she did it. She flipped the arm rest between us up and pushed it between the seats and turned our seats from two separate seats into one longer one. Then she took my arm and wrapped her own around it. She dropped her head onto my shoulder and closed her eyes. I felt so many different things at that moment. On one hand, I felt strong and confident for once. I felt as if I had to protect the most precious thing in the world from all comers. On the other hand, I felt like I was going to explode with happiness.
At the same time, her big soft breasts were being pushed into my arm and I had the biggest, most embarrassing erection of my life. I felt like everyone on the bus was looking at it. In actuality though, it was only one person. Kathy Sanders was staring at us and she had murder in her eyes.
Once we got to the park, I gently shook Felicia awake. Her smile as her eyes opened gave my heart wings. "Are we there yet?" she asked. The slight huskiness in her voice endeared her to me even more.
As we got off the bus and entered the park, she refused to let go of my arm. I watched everything and everyone around me. For some reason, my curiosity over how all of my classmates viewed seeing Felicia and me together overwhelmed my desire to look over the park.
I saw and heard several different reactions. From curiosity on the faces of many, to a thumbs-up reaction from my two best friends who were clearly happy for me, and bore me no ill will for standing them up. Perhaps the strangest reaction at the time came from Kathy Sanders. I actually heard her utter, "Fucking bitch."
I was too happy to try to figure out what her problem was though, and Felicia and I settled down to the business of having fun. We rode the rides, starting out with some of the really fun rides and working our way up to the big scary coasters that Cedar Point is famous for. Of course, we sometimes had to stand in long lines to get on the coasters like the Blue Streak or the Demon Drop, but even that was special. If anyone had told me that I would like standing in line for almost an hour for a two minute ride, I'd have thought they were crazy. But standing in line with Felicia was more special than the ride.
We talked the whole time and I never tired of listening to her talk. We ate, we played games, we walked around and did everything there was to do. We bought souvenirs and T-shirts alike and changed into them. We walked around, holding hands like we'd been a couple for a long time. It was a perfect morning and afternoon. Unfortunately, by mid afternoon I was running short on cash. I'd spent a lot of the previous fall and winter saving money earned by mowing lawns and other odd jobs. Felicia and I had blown through almost one hundred and fifty dollars in just under four hours.
We sat around for a few awkward moments and then ran into a group of kids from our school who decided that they were going to get something to eat. Felicia decided to join them. One of the guys had offered to pay for her food. As they walked away, I felt like an egg dropped from the top of the Empire State building. I started out nearly as high as the clouds only to be dropped from those lofty heights to shatter on the cold, hard ground below.
I felt awful. In fact, awful wasn't really a good enough word to describe how I felt. I did run into the unlikely quintet of Mike, Steve, Holly, Sarah and Kathy Sanders as a fifth wheel. They all came over to me as I made my death march back towards the bus to spend our last two hours in depression and solitude.
"Where's your girlfriend?" asked Kathy snarkily.
"She's hanging out with some other people," I said quietly.
"When did she decide to this?" she asked. "Let me guess ... about the same time that YOU ran out of money, right?"
"Don't sweat it Jerry. Just hang out with us," said Steve.
"Yeah," they all echoed.
"Thanks guys," I said sadly. "But I'm just not up to it. I'll see you on the bus.
"Wait, Jerry," said Kathy. I didn't wait to hear what she had to say. I had to get out of there before my friends caught me crying like a baby. As I left them standing there, I could hear them talking.
"That's rough," said Mike.
"Poor guy," said Steve.
"Just watch, I'm going to beat her fucking ass," said Kathy. "Let's go find that bitch."
As much as I thought I would, I didn't cry as I sat there on the bus thinking. I did run through a lot of different feelings though. I felt betrayed. I felt hurt too. I guessed that was what it felt like to have a broken heart. But at the same time, as I thought back on it, I asked myself if it had been worth it. Was the pain I'd felt at the end of the day a fair price to pay for the elation with which I'd started? I guess looking back on it I have to say yes; hell yes in fact. Four or five hours with my dream girl on my arm were worth two hours of heart break any day.
As a matter of fact, it was a fitting way to put those childish dreams behind me. I think that everyone, at sometime in their life, is going to get kicked in the teeth and have to pick themselves up. We are measured as men and women, not by our capacity to be knocked down by the ills of life and love, but by our ability to get up from them. I walked away from that heartbreak, bruised and battered, but also stronger and harder, if a bit less open and far less innocent.
My good fortune continued as my friends and their new lady friends got back on the bus among the first to arrive. As I pretended to nap, they surrounded me and wrapped me in a cushion of compassion.
Less than ten minutes later, Felicia got back on the bus among a group of people from the back of the bus. As she passed by me, dragged by one of the larger guys who had possessively enfolded her in one of his massive arms, she flashed a glance at me. There was a strange emotion written all over her face. I couldn't tell if it was regret or guilt, but I pretended I was still asleep.
Over the next few days in school, I heard all kinds of stories about what had happened those last two hours at the park. I heard that Brad Jameson had kissed Felicia several times. I also heard that he had his hands all over her. I pretended that I no longer cared, but in reality, each new story and rumor ripped my heart to shreds all over again.
Of course, an environment like a school is relatively small and insular, so inevitably we ran into each other a few times before the school year mercifully ended. And for some reason, the sparks continued to fly each time our eyes met. She often tried to initiate a conversation and I always simply politely nodded and said, "Hello," before shuffling away on some pretend errand before she could actually say anything. There were several times when she tried to corner me, but usually the forces of the universe that had aligned to give us that perfect morning conspired to keep us apart in the form of either Kathy or one of the hulking guys, who, for some reason, seemed to be following her around now.
Her last futile effort came on our graduation day. Just as we stepped off the stage, with the fruits of four years of hard labor and maturation, she grabbed me and uttered the words that no man, even a newly minted one who has just broken free of the cocoon of boyhood, wants to hear.
"This bullshit has gone on long enough, Jerry," she said. "We need to talk. And we need to do it now before it's too late." I was caught like a deer in the headlights before her seemingly righteous fury.
"If there's any talking going on, it needs to be between us," hissed Kathy Sanders. "Get your skanky ass away from him." I took that moment to, in the words of Snagglepuss," Exit stage left," and return to my parents and friends who'd come to see me graduate. We went out for a great dinner and I didn't give Felicia much thought that summer.
That summer I worked my ass off. I worked all kinds of shifts and saved enough money to buy my first car. I bought a used 1988 Mustang GT 5.0. It was red. It was hot and it was my next true love and the first of my true loves that was actually true to me. In the last few weeks before I left for college, that car and I really got around.
I did hear from my friends that Felicia was desperately trying to find me. In fact, one of the guys who worked across the street from the factory I worked in had given me her phone number. He knew her family and had promised to give me her number. I took it to be polite and simply tossed it away as soon as he left. I still had feelings for her but I realized that things between us were more of a fantasy than anything sustainable. Besides, I considered myself a man of the world even though at almost nineteen, I was still a virgin. My car had given me more self-confidence and I had strong ideas about what I wanted in a woman and though she was still my fantasy girl, Felicia didn't fit the bill in real life.
I've often wondered what it was that was so important that she wanted to say to me. I just didn't wonder enough to actually want to hear it. The experience with her had taught me several valuable lessons. Not the least of which was that I needed someone in my life that I could count on through thick and thin, not thick and fat. Any woman who'd run off with a different guy as soon as the money ran out wasn't my type.
I left for college without ever seeing her again. I didn't know which school she was going to and I hoped she didn't know anything about mine. Of course, I went to Michigan. It was close enough to actually drive home every weekend or even during the week if I had an emergency. And naturally, I never did make it home until Thanksgiving and then again for Christmas. I got so immersed in my studies and my budding social life in Ann Arbor that I just couldn't find the time to make it home.
When springtime came around, Mike, Steve and I, all went to Florida together to blow off some steam. We partied hard and had a great time and none of us mentioned high school or anyone we knew there. Summer came and I got an internship at Ford. I was far too busy and too tired to do much other than work, eat and sleep during the week, but I let my hair down on the weekends, within reason.
I dated some and hung out with my friends some. No one had seen hide nor hair of Felicia and I didn't care. There were rumors that she'd been in the hospital, but again it simply didn't warrant enough interest for me to even ask about it.
Fall found me back at school and occasionally dating a girl or two here or there, but there was really nothing serious in my life except for school and my car.
The following summer, I was twenty years old and armed with my Associates degree I got a far better position in a manufacturing plant a few miles outside of Detroit. I was making very good money even if it was just for the summer.
I went to a few parties with Mike and Steve. We'd just hear about someone having one and jump into my Stang and head over. It was at one of those events on a Friday night that it happened.
I was doing my usual scenery watching and occasionally pretending I knew how to dance when I heard the voice behind me.
"Why didn't you ever call me Jerry?" There was no need to turn around. I knew from the sound of the voice who it was and the goose bumps all over my body only served to remind me how I'd once felt about her. But I'd done two years of growing and maturing and I was sure that I could handle her. So I turned to face her and found myself unprepared for her as usual.
Sure, I'd gotten a bit taller and put on a few good pounds. My voice was deeper and I was surer of myself, but Felicia... ? There was simply no way to describe her. She was incandescent. She was so pretty it hurt my eyes to look at her.
If it was possible, her breasts were even fuller and her hips had widened a bit to make her seem more mature, more womanly. Her legs were still curvy and beautiful. As usual, she was simply on a different level of maturity than all of the other girls around us. She was simply a woman among girls. There was just something extra about her. There was also something different about her, but I couldn't put my finger on it.
"You know, I thought we had something special." she said. "What happened?"
I just snorted. Either her memory was selective or she thought I was stupid. "It was nice seeing you again Felicia..." I began and she just erupted. This time there was no Kathy around to protect me.
"I've been kissing your ass or trying to for more than two years now," she screamed. "All I wanted to fucking know is why you bailed on me. Even the worst criminal in the world deserves to know what he's guilty of. Fuck, is it so hard for you to just do me the courtesy of talking to me?" Everyone at the party had turned to look at us.
"Fuck you, Jerry. All this time I've thought that you were different. I thought you were something special. I've been holding onto this fantasy about us and I can see now that's exactly what it was..." Her voice was getting louder as she spoke. Finally I just grabbed her by her arm and pulled her outside. She offered no resistance at all.
I pulled her out to my car and opened the passenger door and pushed her inside. She crossed her legs and let her head sink back into the thick black leather. She smiled and placed her hand on top on mine on the gear shift as I drove away from the party.
I drove to a secluded area in front of the same lake the party we'd just left had been on. But we were alone there, away from nosy people and prying eyes and ears.
She smiled at me again. "This is much better Jerry," she said.
"Felicia, aren't you worried?" I asked. "We don't know each other anymore. We haven't seen each other in a couple of years or spoken in longer than that. No one knows where we are. What about your friends? They don't even know you left the party. Anything could happen to you."
"Jerry, I don't have any friends. I was at the party alone. I went to the party for the sole purpose of seeing you. This is where I'm supposed to be. Besides, you'd never hurt me. You still love me, even after the last two years that we've been apart. We just need to work out our little problem," she said.
"What the FUCK are you talking about?" I asked. "We spent part of one day together when we were in high school. I spent the entire morning obsessing over you and buying you shit until I didn't have any money left. Then you ran off with the first available guy who still had some to spend on you. Any feelings I did have for you were burned away then. All I got for my trouble was pain, heartache and embarrassment for the rest of the school year. That and to have to constantly listen to stories about what you did with Brad as soon as you left me. What part of that sounds like love to you? If that IS love, I don't need it."
"Is that REALLY what you thought?" she asked. "You're an asshole and a confused one. I didn't dump you for Brad, dumb ass. I dumped Brad for you. Brad was kind of my boyfriend at the time and he'd paid for my trip. I chose to spend that day with you because ... You really don't get any of this do you? Maybe I'm the only one who felt it. Maybe you're just like all the rest of them. You're just mesmerized by my titties and don't really give a damn about the rest of me." Her face turned red and I saw tears forming in the corners of her eyes.
"Here you go," she said. As I watched she started unbuttoning her shirt. "I guess this is all I am."
I grabbed her hand and stopped her. "What are you doing?" she hissed. "Don't you want to see them? There's no one around here. Maybe you were planning on fucking me. I hope you have a blanket in your car. I've hear getting sand in your pussy isn't a good feeling." I just looked at her in shock.
"I hope you at least won't go around telling everyone after we do it. That's why I don't have any friends now," she said with huge tears rolling down both cheeks.
I was shocked. It was all news to me. "And for your information, I didn't leave you at that stupid park. I went with Brad for one reason. I wanted to borrow some money from him so you and I could spend the rest of our time together. Brad was an asshole around his friends. He needed to act like a big shot when they were around, but alone he was okay," she said.
"He kept telling me we'd just get on one ride and then I could leave. He could only give me twenty dollars though. I figured it was enough. You and I had already bought souvenirs and all of the rides were covered with our wrist bands. Do you know that I still have that shirt that you bought me? I don't wear it unless I'm feeling down. And, of course, I can't wear it in public..."
"Why not?" I asked.
She looked at me and smiled while she shook her head. "Jerry, Honey, my uhm attributes are quite a bit bigger than they used to be. Trust me if you were jealous of Brad, you wouldn't want me to wear that shirt for anyone but you," she said.
"Anyway, he kept telling me one more ride until I finally put my foot down and went to find you. He came along and when I couldn't find you, I gave in and walked around with him and his friends. And yes, he did try to grab my boobs and my ass, that's what men do isn't it? And that was one of the things that let me know that you were the one I was supposed to be with. Jerry, you treated me like a person. And not only that, but like a person who meant something to you. Even when I rubbed my titties on your arm, I could tell you liked it, but you didn't try to take advantage of me."
"That only confirmed what I thought, that both of us had felt when we first looked into each other's eyes. But now I can see that I felt it alone," she said. "I'm sorry to bother you. It won't happen again. This is just another example of me being stupid and jumping to the wrong conclusion. Could you please take me home or at least back to the party? I can probably get a ride back from there or get on the bus. I've been left out on the road once or twice and it's never pleasant," she said.
We got back into my car and I drove in silence thinking about what she'd said. During the drive back to the party, her hand crept over to mine, but I didn't say anything. Finally it just came out in a rush of quick words and gasps.
"You weren't alone, Felicia," I said. "I've been crazy about you from the first time I saw you. That was two years before Cedar Point. Most of the things you heard about me staring at you don't begin to tell the story. I turned down a chance to go to the prom with Kathy Sanders because she wasn't you..." She put her hand over her mouth and gasped.
"No wonder she hated me so much," she smiled.
"I guess that's why I was so hurt," I said. "I've never been very religious. I guess you were the closest thing I ever came to worshiping something. So that day at the park was like all of my dreams coming true at once." She blushed and looked away from me then.
We were interrupted by a beeping sound from my wrist. "What was that?" she asked.
"That was my 'get my ass in bed so I can make it to work, ' alarm," I said sadly. "I have a summer job working as the assistant production manager in a plant outside of town. If I can get a job on that level when I'm done with college, I'll clear a hundred grand a year easily, so I need to do a great job so they'll hire me when I'm done with school."
"Jerry, can we please start over again?" she asked. "I know I messed things up but I really want us to be together. We belong together."
I was taken aback. I couldn't believe she'd said that.
Before I could answer, she scooted over in the seat and kissed me. Although it was only a chaste little peck on the lips, I felt like my head had exploded. She squeezed my arm and rubbed those big soft boobs against me just like she had the day of the trip to the park and I melted. All of the things I thought I'd learned just melted away and I was hooked again.
"Honey, tomorrow we need to have a serious talk. There's no time tonight, but there are a few mistakes I've made in my life that you have to know about before you give me an answer. I want to be totally honest with you, but Jerry you need to know that I've only ever been in love with one man in my entire life and that's you," she said. I nodded woodenly as she said all of the right things. I dropped her off at her cheap first floor apartment instead of the party and drove off to make it home in time to get a few hour of sleep before work.
My Mustang was fast, but I could have flown home on the wings of love and gotten there quicker. All through the next day at work nothing could faze me. I was happier than I'd been at any time in my life except for at Cedar Point. I got off work earlier than I'd told her and even though I stopped off and bought her flowers, I got to her apartment over an hour before I told her I'd be there.
I bought her flowers to let her know that despite what she thought, I still cared for her too. Whatever she'd gone through in life wouldn't matter as long as we were together. I figured if I was too early, I'd just wait for her in front of her apartment. I planned for us to go out to a nice restaurant so she could tell me her story in comfort as we ate.
I could already see us together in both my mind and my heart. I guess it was like when my father taught me to box. I was so busy looking at things to see how they should go that I tended to lead with my chin. I got knocked on my ass a lot while he taught me to box.
I would look my father over for any signs of weakness or holes in his guard and just as I thought I saw one, the canvas would come up to caress my back yet again. I got knocked down a lot while I learned to box. But the lessons I learned would serve me well throughout my life.
And so it was that afternoon as I walked up to Felicia's apartment. The neighborhood wasn't the best and I was a bit worried about leaving my Mustang parked there. I figured it would be okay since I could watch it from her doorstep.
Felicia didn't have a car, so I couldn't tell whether she was home or not. The only way for me to tell was to knock on her door. So I stepped up to her door and looked in through her window as I started to knock. For seconds that seemed endless, my hand hung there suspended in time and location. I neither knocked on the door nor retracted my arm as my brain exploded.
Looking in the window, I saw a stocky older guy. He had a mean expression on his face and a balding head. His lips were fleshy and feminine looking but what he was doing was decidedly male. His lips curled into a smile as he saw me through the window, but he never stopped what he was doing. I guess I wouldn't have either.
What he was doing was fucking Felicia. She was on her back and looking at him, so the window I watched through was behind her. She had no idea that I was there. Her legs were splayed apart and she was pumping her hips into him and moaning. His sweat dripped down on her and he moaned and started to fuck her even faster. Her breasts, for the first time I saw them in most of their magnificence although I wish it had been from a different angle. They moved like two large water filled balloons in counterpoint to their frenzied mating.
She grabbed his hips conceivably to pull him even further inside of her, although I was sure that if he got his dick inside her any deeper the head of it would come out of her mouth. I could hear them grunting and panting through a nearby window that was partially open to cool the room.
"Is it good?" he asked through grunts.