Oh Shit! I'm going to be late again. This was my thought as I rounded the last corner leading to my apartment building. It was 3:25 and my wife Helen, had told me to be home by no later than 3:00.
Her sister Tammy and her husband were joining us for our traditional Thanksgiving dinner and they were bringing Helen's nearly 90 year old mother with them. Our daughter, Megan and her husband Nick were coming as well, and they were bringing my grandson Bobby too.
I had glanced at the contents of the thick manila envelope next to me. I had paid out nearly $6,000 dollars over the past month for basically nothing. Every picture, showed nothing. All of the incident reports said nothing. But my gut told me that there was something going on. Call it psychic powers, call it a male intuition call it kismet, but something about my wife and my marriage was not right.
I'm Hiram Walker, my mom named me after some old guy who had given her a job before she got married, and she'd promised to name her first son after him. I'm 54 years old but I keep my self in very good shape. I'm a doctor, with a small family private practice, but I do hours at a local hospital in town as well.
Maybe that was part of the problem with my marriage, the number of hours that I work can't be great for my relationship, but in my business, it is very important that I be accessible to my patients. There was also the case that I love what I do, I just like helping people, and making them feel better when they're sick or injured.
My wife Helen is a different animal. We met and fell in love almost 25 years ago. I was working at the clinic that eventually became my private practice. She was a real estate agent and helped me secure the financing I needed, to buy the building that housed the clinic. She was a few years older than I was, but she was quite the stunner then.
Of course after we married, she kind of let her self go but I love her far more today than I ever could have back then. Our shared history, and all of the years we've spent together have linked me closer to her than I was to my own mother, but lately something is not right.
Why should I care you ask. Helen will be sixty in a few weeks. Her once proud breasts now sit low on her stomach where they once thrust outwards and upwards and caught the eye of every man who passed. Her ass is now wider than the seat in my Mustang which made it extremely unlikely for her to ever ride in the car with me. I guess there's the fact that like I said before, I love her. And I love her a little bit more each day. There is nothing I wouldn't do for Helen.
It's kind of like being a pro Baseball player. You can have any glove you want. There are tons of companies offering you money to use their gloves, but you still love the glove that you've used since you first started playing the game. Every other glove you try may be newer, or have new features, but they're just no your glove. Helen was my glove.
As I drove down the ramp leading to my buildings under ground parking garage, the sound of the Mustang's potent supercharged V8 growl made me feel a little better. No matter where I was or what I was doing, that sound just resonated through my soul, reminding me of happier times.
It took me back before oil embargoes and $3:00 gas prices, back when I had no concerns and no problems.
As I got out of the car and hit the alarm button on my key fob, I saw Kelly Cullum, she was getting out of her car as well. Kelly worked in the same hospital I did as a Pharmacy technician. As a matter of fact I'd recommended her for the job and helped her out with some of her classes in college. She ran to catch up with me and I stopped and waited for her.
"Hi Hi," she smiled; it was our own inside joke. Kelly was the only person who called me Hi, her version of a nickname for Hiram.
"So, what do you think?" she asked waiting for my opinion on something.
"I'm sorry Kelly," I said. "I'm not sure what you're asking about."
"My Mustang," she said looking hurt.
"I mean it's not a Shelby GT 500, but it's the exact same color as yours," she said. "I've even got the same rims, and the same interior," she said smiling again.
"That's great Kelly," I said mustering more enthusiasm than I really felt. I wondered why Kelly at 32 was still trying to impress me, as if she was still just that 18 year old girl who'd moved into the building so many years ago.
"What's got you so down that you don't want to talk Mustangs?" she asked looking suspiciously at me. I didn't say anything I just screwed up my lips and pushed the elevator button for her floor and then mine.
"Hiram, is anything going on with you that I should know about?" she asked.
"No Kelly, everything's fine, maybe it's just old age catching up to me," I said. Kelly started laughing, as I said it.
"You're not old yet," she said. "In fact you're just about perfect. If there's anything you need, or if you just need someone to talk to, I'm always here for you," she said as she got off of the elevator and left me alone with my thoughts.
Our apartment occupied the entire south side of the building on the top floor. Since it had originally been more than one apartment, that we had combined, we have more than one entrance. I really didn't want to go in the front way and face Helen and the family and lots of questions about where I'd been and why I was late.
I figured I'd sneak in the back way, near the kitchen, and ease into the celebration. I really thought that Helen and everyone else would already be seated at the table eating. But I guess all of our years together had taught Helen a few things about me. It turns out that she had told me to be home an hour before she told everyone else. So even though I was a half hour late, I was actually early. I eased the door open, I wasn't trying to spy on anyone, I swear I was just trying to sneak into my own home, when I saw them.
My brother in law Ted came walking into my kitchen like he owned it. He grabbed a handful of Helen's ass, like he owned it as well. Helen had turned around like a scalded cat, ready to slap him until she saw who it was. Then she turned back to whatever she was doing. Ted wrapped his arms around her caressing her breasts and pushing his crotch into her ass, and I watched as my wife leaned back against him. I took out my iPhone and recorded a few seconds of video, and snapped off a few pictures, then turned and went back the other way. I went in the front door and after saying hello, to all of our gathered friends and family, went into my study, to think.
My name is Helen Walker, I made a terrible mistake, it cost me my happiness, my marriage, and the love of a man that would have loved me forever.
A few months ago, we were having a family get together, and my sister's husband Ted, who is a really nice guy, was working with me in the kitchen. My husband Hiram, whom I love completely, was outside manning the grill on our balcony. My sister, Tammy was lying down on the bed in our guest room because she had a headache. Tammy always seems to have a headache. I think a lot of them are because she's lazy and just doesn't want to do any work.
As Ted and I chopped the onions and made the sauce, we were in very close quarters and his hand accidentally rubbed across my ass as he reached for a bowl.
It had been a long time since anyone had even thought about copping a feel on me, but in my younger days I had to really struggle to keep guys away from me.
"Sorry," Ted had said. "That was an accident."
"Too bad," I replied.
Ted and I had looked at each other, and time just stood still. He tentatively reached for me and pulled me to him, and we kissed. It was different from the way that Hiram kissed me. It wasn't better, or worse it was just different. In some ways I preferred the way that my husband kissed me. But for the past few years, Hiram's kisses were very perfunctory, just business as usual.
I remember when Hiram's passion could set me afire. Ted on the other hand, gave me the impression of desperate need with his kisses. It was as if he needed me so badly that he couldn't live without me, and I loved feeling that.
He grabbed handfuls of my big, nearly 60 year old ass and made me feel like a tight bodied thirty-year old again, and I loved feeling that as well.
"Wait," he said, "We shouldn't do this."
As I regained my breath I nodded in agreement. After all, his wife was my sister. And I was glad that he'd had enough sense to stop, because I wasn't sure that I would have.
I guess that at this point in my life I needed something. I could feel my youth and vitality ebbing away from me and maybe I was just looking for one more chance to feel like a young care free woman before I truly became the old woman that people saw when they looked at me.
Hiram did all of that running and working out, so he wasn't getting old as fast as I was, and he's also 8 years younger than I am. He could easily pass for forty, and society views aging men and women differently. An older man is distinguished, or experienced, but an older woman is just old.
You see lots of couples where an older guy ends up with some hot younger chick, but very few where an old bag nets some young stud muffin.
So maybe I just wanted an innocent fling before I was relegated to granny status for the rest of my life. At any rate Ted wasn't going to be it, because he steadfastly refused to do anything other than the occasional kiss or feel. He was definitely a chubby chaser, so my curves didn't turn him off at all. But as I said other than the occasional secretive kiss or game of grab ass at a stolen moment during a family outing, nothing ever happened between us.
By the time that Thanksgiving rolled around I had completely forgotten about my, in my eyes, innocent habit with Ted when he came into the kitchen and grabbed my ass, it came as a big surprise to me. I reacted to his initial touch by whipping my head around to see who it was, and then when I realized it was Ted, I just relaxed and let him, after all it wasn't as if anything serious would happen. Besides Hiram wasn't home yet anyway, and it was very unlikely that any of my lazy assed relatives would offer to do anything other than eat and then leave.
After Ted left the kitchen I heard the front door open and close, and knew that it was Hiram, almost an hour late as I expected. But in reality he was just a little early. All the years of living with and loving that man had made him predictable. I knew he would say hello to everyone, and then make a beeline for the kitchen, to apologize to me for being late. The thing about it is that he really would be sorry about being late because he loved me so much, but he couldn't control it. As much as he loved me, he loved being a doctor and taking care of his patients at least as much. So if he had to make the choice between being on time for dinner, or spending a few moments comforting someone who was about to have surgery, or had just found out that they had cancer; let's just say there had been enough overcooked roasts, over the years to let me know what to tell Hiram.
Don't misunderstand my words though, I love Hiram, from the bottom of my soul, and intend to spend the rest of my life with him, but lately I had begun to need just a little something to make me feel alive.
My Spider sense was tingling though when after a few moments Hiram hadn't appeared in my kitchen. I went out into the living room to see what was keeping him, and found the teeming masses of my family all huddled about the 50 inch plasma yearning for HD. They were watching the same dumb assed holiday special we always watched, but they were oohing and aahing like the show was different because it was high def.
I looked around and didn't see my husband, but I was sure he'd been here. Ted pointed at the study, and I nodded my thanks, as he re-immersed his consciousness in the wonder of the big screen.
I gently knocked and heard Hiram tell me to come in. From the sound of his voice I could tell something was wrong. He wiped his face before he swiveled his chair around to face me but he wasn't quick enough. It really looked as if he had been crying.
"Hiram, What's wrong?" I asked, I was really worried now because in all the years we'd been together, I had never seen Hiram lose it. Not for any reason, he was always the strong one who comforted others including me through tragedy, and helped us see that the pain was temporary, and that things would be better.
"It's nothing," he said, trying to sound cheerful, and failing miserably. "I think I lost one today, that's all."
"What do you mean, you think you lost one?" I asked. It didn't make sense, either someone had died or they hadn't. Something was funny here. Hiram was always the most honest person I knew, but it felt like he was trying to hide something from me, his wife.
"Who do you think you lost?" I asked taking his hands in mine. Hiram was trembling, I really got the impression that this was something far more personal than he was letting on but I didn't push, Hiram would tell me when he was ready.
"I think I lost Helen," he said, "She wasn't gone when I left the hospital. I guess even then it may have been over. But I'm pretty sure, there's no chance of saving it now, after what I've seen."
He wasn't making any kind of sense. Obviously one of his patients, some woman named Helen. she must've had some terrible disease, and was teetering on the brink of death. Hiram got so involved with these people's lives that it was always a tragedy to him personally when one of them didn't make it. He'd probably seen her test results just before leaving the hospital and knew that she wasn't going to last very much longer. In his mind he should probably still be at the hospital, staying with her so she didn't pass alone, but out of his desire to please me, he had come home. If I hadn't known before this that Hiram loved me, I was sure now. The man sat here wracked with grief, but he had put my wishes before even his patients. That made me feel even worse about what I'd been doing. I was going to have to break it off before he found out. This was like a bad omen or a warning, the woman he lost was named Helen just like me. Of course later I found out that there was no patient named Helen, he was warning me all along.
I heard Helen calling me to come to the table and I slowly got up. Although I felt terrible, I had to keep up appearances. There was no reason to let my problems ruin everyone else's holiday. That would be extremely selfish. So I walked to the door, and turned the knob. Every step I took made me appear more composed. I walked into the bathroom to wash my hands, and as I looked into the mirror, I made my face look as if everything was normal. Maybe I looked a little bit tired, but that was easily explained.
As I sat down at the table I forced myself to smile and I looked around the room. There they were, the family. Only one of these freeloaders was actually related to me, they were all Helen's family. Her mother who, was a good woman though at her age wouldn't last very much longer. Helen's sister Tammy, was really a nice woman, but in the back of my mind, I wondered. Didn't she have the right to know what was going on? If I didn't say something, didn't that make me complicit in our spouse's deception?
Our daughter, Megan, maybe it was my fault, all the years I'd spent over-working, that we weren't closer. Maybe that was why I'd felt more like Kelly was my daughter than Megan was.
Megan's husband Nick, was a likeable fellow, if only he could get a fucking job, any kind of job would be better than just sitting at home wearing out the god damned couch. He couldn't even take care of the baby while Megan worked. I had to pay for day care because with only Megan paying all of their bills they simply couldn't afford it.
My Grandson Bobby, Robert Hiram Marks, named for Nick's father and me. I guess they didn't want to alienate either of their possible sources of additional revenue. I wasn't even pissed that I got second billing but had the lion's share of the bills.
I looked down and noticed that I was gripping the edge of the table so hard it was causing it to shake. I also rarely used profanity even in my own thoughts. I had to hold it together for only a few hours, but it was going to be tougher than I thought. I relaxed my hands and looked up to see Helen staring at me. Maybe she sensed my anger, and maybe she was just wondering what the hell was wrong with me. She was probably wondering whether or not I knew.
No she wasn't, Helen was firmly convinced of her superiority over the rest of the human race. In her mind she was smarter, faster and more beautiful than any other creature God had made. no one could ever figure out what she was doing. She was way too much smarter than the average bear. Well fuck you, bitch. I know and I'm not going to let you get away with it. As soon as we get rid of these fucking freeloaders, you and I will have a talk. And it will determine our future.
I looked at Ted, my brother in law. We weren't close but I'd always thought that we respected each other. I guess I was as fucking wrong about that as I'd been about everything else. He was a smug bastard, from the supercilious smile on his face, to the way he gently reached out and took Tammy's hand, no one would ever have suspected that this asshole was fucking my wife. I had to keep it together.
My rage was building and people around the table with the exception of my mother in law, who was so zonked out on her cocktail of medications, that she could barely function, and the baby, had probably noticed it.Maybe that was why they were having trouble meeting my eyes.
Then I looked at the very worst of them. Helen my supposed soul mate. My wife of all these many years. I remember back when we'd met, all of my friends had been against me dating her let alone marrying her. They were all sure that she was too old for me. They were also sure that it was more a marriage of finances than anything else. After all the real estate market had been drying up in our area, and they assured me that she just wanted to get her hooks into some of that "I'm married to a doctor, " money and lifestyle.
The fact that Helen decided to retire within weeks of our engagement did nothing to dissuade them of the validity of their theories either.
Helen nervously smiled at me and tried to break up some of the obvious tension in the room. I tried to recompose my face and smile as she began talking.
"I think my husband is too worried about one of his patients to truly fulfill his duties as host right now," began Helen, "So Ted why don't you say Grace."
The bitch didn't know it but that was literally the straw that broke the camel's back. So that was her theory, I was too busy working my ass off to support her and her fucking freeloading relatives, to fulfill my duties, both as a host and secretly as a husband. So she just got old Ted to fill in for me. As a host and as a husband.
Before Helen start flapping her mouth, I was upset, maybe a little bit out of control, but not unexplainable. But her subtle, to those who didn't know what was going on speech, had set the end in motion.
Ted stood up and tapped his fucking fork against one of those fucking crystal glasses that I had paid an arm and a leg for. then he smiled and looked around the table. I simply couldn't believe the nerve of this bastard. did he think he was on fucking TV?
He had probably already known that Helen was going to ask him to say the grace this year. It was probably going to be the last year that I was here anyway. She probably wanted to get a divorce so she could be with Ted. What about your own fucking sister you duplicitous cunt?
Ted talked about Being thankful for the whole family being together again, and how it didn't happen often enough. Then he segued into families sharing what they had in order to move society forward. I could certainly understand him talking about that. After all he was sharing my fucking wife, wasn't he?
I just sat there lost in my thoughts until I realized that everyone was eating and passing things around the table. I also realized suddenly that someone was talking to me.
"Hiram, do you want me to carve the turkey?" asked Ted for probably the third time.
"You'd probably like that wouldn't you," I spat.
"Well, yeah, brother in law," smiled Ted, "Maybe I'm alone but I can't wait to dig into that."
For a man my age lifting a 45 pound turkey, still isn't much of a challenge if you're in as good shape physically, as I am. But throwing one the length of an extra long dining room table and into the smug face of your tormenter is. Ted's smile vanished as the turkey, dressing and all careened into his face.
Since he was already leaning back in his chair at the time, the weight of the turkey coupled with it's velocity was enough to overbalance him and send him crashing backwards into the floor. I got up and quickly grabbed the mashed potatoes, and dumped the entire bowl on Ted's face. Then I followed up by pouring the gravy bowl on top.
"Is that enough, Ted? Dig in," I screamed. I snatched the candied yams in lemon sauce, right out of Helen's surprised hands. "Thanks bitch," I snapped. then I dumped them onto a sputtering Ted. "Your Diet needs Balance asshole," I snapped. "Here's some green beans."
As everyone at the table, too shocked to react, looked on in horror, I slammed the bowl of beans into the side of Ted's head, luckily the bowl was so ungainly that it slipped at the last second preventing me from doing him any serious damage.
"Hiram, what the hell is wrong with you?" screamed Tammy.
She finally regained enough of her composure, to rush over and plant herself between me and her husband, to prevent me from doing anything else to him.
I didn't answer her, I just took out my iPhone and walked over to the big screen TV they'd all just been watching. I connected it to the TV and played the video I'd shot not too long ago.
There on the screen everyone watched as Ted grabbed Helen from behind and squeezed both of her breasts as she turned her head to kiss him. With the exception again of my mother in law, who continued to eat, oblivious to what was going on; everyone looked at Ted and then at Helen.
"No Hiram, it's not what you think," said Helen.
"Then what is it?" asked Tammy, her voice choked with anger. Neither Helen or Ted seemed to have anything to say.
"Nothing to say huh Helen?" I snapped, "I'm going out for a while, when I get back, you and Ted need to have a story to tell me."
"Where are you going?" she asked with tears in her eyes.
"To find myself a good divorce lawyer," I snapped. I don't know why I said that, maybe I was just trying to hurt her the way she'd hurt me. At that point, I just really needed to know why she was doing this. In my mind it had to be because I wasn't doing something, or maybe I was doing something that she couldn't stand. I just wanted to know what I had to do to save my marriage.
I stormed out of the apartment with Helen following me down the hall screaming and crying. Knowing that she couldn't go down the stairs quickly enough to keep up with me, I took the stairs instead of the elevator.
When I got to the third floor, there was a group of kids blocking the stairs.
"Can I pass boys?" I asked them angrily. I recognized several of them. They had all grown up in the building, and I had taken care of them when they were sick. A couple of them were still my patients. Most of them moved out of the way easily and one or two even greeted me. But there were a couple, including Thom Finn, and Henry Bennet, that looked at me with a mixture of menace and mirth. It was as if they were angry at me and laughing at me at the same time. They were slower to get out of my way as well. I wondered what was wrong with them, but the early twenties years are full of problems, so I just put them in the back of my mind as I descended the four remaining floors. Three more floors put me at ground level, and the last put me in the garage.
The design engineers at Ford must have worked with a team of psychologists. There was no other explanation for the way I smiled every time I saw that car. Just as I reached it, fully intent on just driving until I felt better, a hand on my shoulder scared the shit out of me; nearly literally.
"It's Thanksgiving, where are you going?" laughed Kelly.
"Nowhere, just out for a drive," I said, trying to keep the tone of my voice free of anger.
"Which is it," she asked," Nowhere, or out for a drive. You can't be going no-where; because then you'd be staying here. If you're going out for a drive, then you're going somewhere even if you don't know where that is."
"Kelly, please, I'm not in the mood for riddles right now," I said.
She looked up at me, and after a few seconds took my keys from my outstretched hand. She opened up the driver's side door and got in. Then she closed the door, and put my keys in the ignition. She lowered the window as she looked at me and asked me, "Are you coming or not?"
"Shouldn't you be going somewhere for Thanksgiving yourself?" I asked. "Like visiting family, or some young man?"
"Hiram you're a part of my family," she said meaning it. "The rest of my family gets on my nerves, they're mostly freeloaders. So I just usually hang out at home and do things that my job doesn't often leave me time for."
We drove for a few minutes in silence, as we slowly meandered down residential streets. Kelly was a great driver; she stopped at every sign and light. She was also able to handle the car's stiff clutch and rapid acceleration nearly as well as I could, and I'd been driving it for a couple of years. Once we got on the freeway it was another story. I felt the seat cushions pushing me forward at a rate I'd never felt when I drove it. Kelly's face was a mask of elation. The smile plastered across her lips as she went through the gears would have been worth the speeding ticket or trip to jail, if there'd been any cops around. Hearing the Mustang's growl augmented by whine of the supercharger was a new thrill for me as well. I had never driven the car this fast.
"I have got to get me one of these," shrieked Kelly. "What movie was that line from," she asked without taking her eyes off the road.
"I don't know," I said flatly. I was suffering from two problems at the same time. First I'd just discovered that my wife was cheating on me, with my brother in law. And second, I was wondering how the hell I was supposed to hold onto my man card, if I told a girl young enough to be my daughter that she was driving so fast it scared me. I looked over at the speedometer without trying to be obvious about it. Kelly was doing 130 miles per hour and heading upwards. I looked at the Tachometer and it was nowhere near the red zone. Shit, how fast could this damned car go? Even worse, the boost gage was barely registering anything, so we could go a lot fucking faster.
"It was what Will Smith said in Independence day, when he first got to drive that alien spaceship. You took me to that movie while I was in college," she said smiling.
Between shifts, Kelly's left hand reached over and patted mine gently. The fact that she was so calm relaxed me as well. I realized that if she killed us, if we just smashed into something and died now, at least I wouldn't have to go back and face Helen.
Just as I had my great revelation, Kelly downshifted and slowed down just in time to take the turnoff onto another section of the freeway. She kept her speed down to a positively pedestrian 80 mph and looked over at me.
"What did she do?" she asked without looking at me. The tone of her question left me wondering how the hell she knew, but she obviously knew that there was something going one with Helen and myself.
"What did who do?" I replied.
"Helen, your supposed wife, Hiram," she said to me seriously.
"In order to get you this upset, it has to be something about Helen. You may as well tell me, because you obviously need to get it off your chest. I'm also not going to slow down or take us back until you feel better, so spill it." She said.
"I'm not sure I feel comfortable talking about this with you, Kelly. You're like my daughter." I said.
"Now we're getting somewhere," she said. "That tells me two things. First that it's obviously about sex. And second that if you think of me like a daughter I'm using the wrong approach."
"Hiram, I'm thirty two years old, so even though you've known me since I was a child, I'm hardly that little girl you helped with her homework. I've been in a few relationships, and I've even done the nasty a time or two. Plus I'm a medical professional just as you are. So nothing you can say is going to shock me," she said.
"Let me guess, you've finally discovered that Helen isn't right for you. She's just too old, and she isn't interested in sex any more. I don't think she needs hormone therapy Hiram, I think she needs a rest home. Even when I was a kid I knew that the two of you would eventually need to go your separate ways." She said.
"Did I get it?" she asked. "I told you I wouldn't be shocked."
"Helen is cheating on me with my brother in law," I said flatly.
"Shut the fuck up," shrieked Kelly turning to look at me.
"OK, I'm shocked," she said, "The nerve of that bitch! The first thing we need to do, is find a good divorce lawyer."
Kelly kept talking, making plans and spinning out options. She kept saying "we," should do this, and "we," shouldn't let her do that. It almost seemed like Kelly was happy about my marriage falling apart. I remember letting her stay with Helen and myself when her own parents broke up. Thankfully they had found a way, with time and lots of therapy to save their marriage. In their case it had been he who cheated. But I suppose it really doesn't matter which party is at fault. The biggest question is always the same, can this marriage be saved?
To be truthful, before this very moment I had never even considered a life without Helen in it. Even when I'd stormed out of the apartment, I'd known I was going back there. I just needed a chance to absorb the information. Then I firmly intended to talk about what we had to do to fix things. I knew that we'd need counseling, and I would insist on Ted never setting foot inside of my house, or us ever seeing him again.
Would Tammy divorce the bastard? If she did, that would make things a lot easier. But being reasonable, I guessed that it would be her decision how to handle the infidelity in her marriage just as it was mine to decide what to do about Helen.
"Where are you going to stay while you sort this out?" asked Kelly, snapping me out of my thoughts.
"I guess I'll probably just sleep in the guest room," I said as I started to think about it in more than just temporary terms.
"Why do you have to be the one who moves into the guest room?" asked Kelly.
"You're not the one who's wrong here. Let her move into the God damned guest room. Are you sure you even want to stay in the same house with her? You can use my guest room if you want."
"As a matter of fact," continued Kelly, "I just don't see why you need to even go back to that apartment with her. There's no need for debate or negotiation here. We just need to get a lawyer and get you free of that bitch so you can move on with your life."
I nodded my head as if I agreed with Kelly, but I was really still thinking more along the lines of staying out long enough to calm down, and then going home to confront Helen and talk about our future, or whether or not there was one.
In terms of finding a lawyer, as I thought about it, I realized that it wouldn't be necessary. I already had a great attorney on retainer; he could probably handle my divorce, if it came to that, as easily as he handled, malpractice, billing disputes and everything else.
I also needed to update the PI I had working on this. They obviously needed another approach. They had staked out the building waiting for Helen to leave, but it was painfully obvious that she'd been conducting her affair inside my own home. I needed to have the apartment and the building wired for surveillance. I was sure that Helen would probably not give Ted up very easily. They seemed to be really familiar with each other and that kind of comfort only came with a long time relationship. That bastard had just walked up behind her smacked her on her ass and then started squeezing her tits from behind like they belonged to him. The more I thought about it the angrier I got.
"Maybe you should have an affair too," snapped Kelly, "With someone younger and better suited to you. Then you could really show that bitch what she lost."
Helen, Tammy, and Ted were all sitting around the table, when I walked back into the apartment. Helen jumped up and ran to me as soon as I opened the door.
"Hiram, I'm so sorry," she began, "But it's really not what you think."
She had obviously been crying and she looked awful. Tammy didn't look much better. Even Ted had the look of a whipped dog about him. Of the three of them, he struck me as looking the most remorseful, which was strange.
I walked right past Helen and into the bedroom without saying a word. Helen opened the door that I'd neglected to lock and continued trying to talk to me.
"Hiram can't we please talk about this?" she asked.
"Okay Helen talk," I said as coldly as I could.
"Can we go back out to the dining room?" she asked.
I slowly followed her out to the dining room where Tammy and Ted still sat.Helen sat down noticeably distant from Tammy and Ted. Tammy was clearly not sitting very close to Ted either. I remained standing in the doorway. Helen tried to indicate that I should sit next to her by pulling out a chair near her. I shook my head and stayed on my feet.
"It would be easier for us to talk if you could sit down, Hiram," said Helen.
"I'm not sure how long you need to have your say, but I'm not planning on making this an all-nighter," I snapped. "I have patients to see in the morning, and no reason why I shouldn't."
"Hiram, Ted and I have never had sex. Not even once. Not even a blowjob. What you saw today, as bad as it was, was all there ever has been. It was just two confused people, at odds with their age and mortality, letting some innocent flirting get out of hand." She said.
Ted was nodding his head up and down as fast as his neck would allow in agreement with her.
"My hormones are all screwed up, Hiram. I'm also having to deal with the fact that I'm slowly, maybe not so slowly turning from that hot woman you married twenty some years ago into a frumpy old granny type." said Helen.
"From the first moment we met, you've always been the only man I love, and I want us to grow old together," she continued. "But it just sometimes seems like I'm growing old alone."
"You don't look nearly as old as I am, even though you're only a few years younger. You drive around in your Mustang, and go out for your runs, and I'm left here, alone."
"A lot of the time when we do go out together, people look at me as if I'm your mother or something, and I guess it got me a little crazy, But I swear to you that Ted and I never had sex." she said.
"I know it carried on for a while, but it was only a quick grab, or a little kiss whenever we had a family gathering, the secrecy of it, made it far more exciting than it actually was," she said trying to hold back the tears.
"Can't we work this out? It was nothing. Why would you want to throw away over twenty years for one mistake?" she asked.
"Tammy and Ted, have already decided that they're going to stay together, and they have as much to lose as we do, and they've been together a shorter period of time. If their marriage is worth trying to save, isn't ours?" she cried. "I'd do anything to make this up to you, please don't divorce me." Her voice was choked up and she wasn't even trying to hide her tears. Helen had slid out of the chair and was actually on her knees looking up at me.
"I'll think about it," I said and walked back into the bed room. A little while later I was in bed watching TV and Helen came into the room quietly. She had gotten ready for bed in one of the other bathrooms and was wearing a silk nightie that she knew was my favorite. She looked up at the TV screen and paused for a moment and then sat down on the edge of the bed.
"Helen, we're not sleeping together, and I'm already here so you can have either Megan's old room or the guest room." I snapped.
"Hiram, I don't expect us to have sex, I just thought... ," she began.
"Well don't just thought... ," I said, "I'm not sleeping in the same room with you period. I'm not even sure about being in the same house with you. Originally I thought that you should've left with Tammy and Ted. But I didn't want to be premature."
"I don't even know how I feel about this yet. I'm just reacting right now. When I've had time to think about this one of us may still have to leave, maybe temporarily, maybe permanently. But for now Helen, I just don't want to be around you."
Helen left the room and obviously went into the guest room right next door.
During the night my thoughts wouldn't allow me to sleep. I'd doze off, only to wake up a short time later. Several times during the night I could hear Helen softly sobbing, but it failed to either change my mind or to make me feel any better.
The next morning I was up and out for my run long before Helen awoke. As I went back into the apartment I heard Helen stirring around. I showered and dressed as quickly as I could because I didn't want to see her. When I came out of the bathroom Helen was setting a cup of my favorite coffee and a pastry in front of my place at the table. As I headed for the door, I heard her speak.
"Don't you want to eat something, you always tell your patients to take in some kind of nourishment after exercising," she said quietly.
I looked at her as if she was crazy, but I tried to keep my voice controlled and failed, as I answered.
"Helen, a cup of fucking coffee and a sweet roll isn't going to make up for what you did, so just have a nice day. Don't worry about me now, the same way you haven't been worrying about me for the past few months while you've been fucking around with Ted," I said, then walked out the door.
Helen was stunned as she watched Hiram walk out the door. Just as she was yesterday when all of her work towards the family's thanksgiving celebration had been ruined, she sank down to the floor and started crying. If she had been holding out hope for a quick resolution, she realized now that the possibility of that was gone. This was going to be very bad, far worse than she'd ever anticipated.