it is a late afternoon, one weekend here in this time zone
and i begin meditating deeply
imagining what it would be like with you...
my breathing slows down...
and the edge between the worlds becomes blurred...
after an interminable amount of time the pictures in
my mind sharpen,,,
my mind focuses
and i become aware that i am walking
slowly in a forest,,
unlike any in
my native land,,,
i see a woman sitting in the distance
and as i approach i realise that it is the
woman i have been corresponding with...
we sit facing each other,
staring deeply into each others eyes,,,
not a word is spoken,
but each seems aware of the others thoughts...
simultaneously our fingers reach out
and the tips of our fingers touch,,,
suspended in the space between us,,,
yet our arms never tire,,,
it is as though they are suspended in space
supported by unseen spirits,,,,
it is as though we ourselves
are suspended in time,,,
our breathing becomes as one
practiced in unison,,,
and coming from the depths of our bowels,,,
it is like breathing from our toes to our heads
as we become conscious
of the life supporting oxygen...
moving into and through our very cells...
after some time we become aware
that we are completely naked,,,
though neither of us appears
aroused at this stage...
you raise your self and sit facing me in my lap,,,
your labia arranging themselves
as though they had a life of their own,
on either side of my flaccid ligna
we continue staring
into the depths of each others eyes
in tune with our breathing
stroke each other on the outside of the arms...
the kundalini energy begins to hum
in the base of my spine
and the tingling electricity flows up my spine
livening each chakra
and finally buzzing through the top of my head...
out the tips of my fingers...
slowly i massage each of your chakras,,,
transferring and joining our energy
until you too have the tingle
flowing through you
and it obviously joins in one circuit
surrounding our bodies,,,,
the wind blowing gently through the trees
is no longer felt on our skins...
... as the electricity has flowed through our bodies,,
so have the fluids begun to move
and we both become aware
of the hard ligna and the juices
flowing from you labia around it.
almost as though floating
you gently raise and lower your self,,,
so that now we are fully joined...
once again motionless we sit,,,
breathing in unison,,,
aware of every pore in our skin,,,,
especially where we touch...
our thoughts,,, non existent,,,,
totally consumed by just the awareness
of ourselves, each other and our mutual existence...
the energy begins to move more rapidly,,,
the slightest touch causing ravages of pleasure
so strong as to almost verge on pain...
as a result our stillness becomes intensified,,,,
fearing movement will cause even more anguish...
in utter stillness deep within our beings
begins the energy flow of life,,,,
not this time some shortened plateau of pleasure,,
some fierce and, over in an instant, orgasm
... no ... not this time
each time such an event appears imminent,,,
a deep breath reaching into our beings
draws the energy from further down
until we seem rooted in the earth,,
bound to the sky,,
wrapped in the wind...